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 Posted: Sat Jul 18, 2015 7:12 pm
Everything in his ears was waterlogged. He only vaguely heard the bass in everyone that surrounded him's voices, but Sora was too far gone to even care if they were talking about Roxas, about him, or even to him. People moved in front of his vision, but he didn't see them. He didn't see anything except the blank wall in front of him and the thoughts swirling around in his mind about Roxas and their situation.
Suddenly, a soothing tone of voice slipped through his mind's defenses and startled him a bit, eyes only lighting up a little brighter than they had been before dying down again. He turned his head slightly, eyes focusing on Riku's aqua ones, but even they seemed duller than they usually were. It took a few more quiet moments for Riku's words to register in his head, and then he shook his head slowly, opening his mouth slightly to speak, when some words from another conversation happening in the room struck through his head.
"...we just need to search the area and see if he's just hiding out somewhere. We can't call it in as a kidnapping yet."
Something snapped inside of Sora, and he whipped his head around to look at the culprit, which happened to be Leon. Fully nude, Sora stood and let the blanket Zexion put over him drop to the floor. He marched over to Leon and started rambling at a low tone of voice, volume steady rising the more he spoke.
"He's not hiding, you dipshit. He's my twin, and I know when something's ******** wrong, do you understand me? ******** you and your '24-hour' rule. The ******** window pane was cut out! Why the hell would he do that? He didn't even want to sit out on the balcony with me earlier because he felt unsafe! In 24 hours, he could be ******** raped or...or ******** murdered! And don't you dare ******** say we're not twins, because we are! We grew up together, believing we are, so we are! I know him!" he screamed, storming over to Leon and grabbing him by the collar.
"So go ******** find him! And if he's even more hurt because you dumb asses can't get your s**t together and accept that he's been taken by the guy who tortured him, followed him, and raped two other people just because one of them looked like him and the other he somehow found out he was related to, I'm not going to be okay. I may not remember what will happen, but someone is going to get hurt," he snarled, before releasing Leon's collar and backing away.
Zexion moved forward to get him further away from Leon before he got in trouble, when Sora hissed out a threat for him to get away from him. He seemed to be staring into Leon's soul as he growled out,
"Go find him or I'll ******** do your job myself. I will get him back by any means, alive, so don't you ******** dare tell me not to."
He stalked over to the balcony door, opened it up, and slammed it behind him as he walked outside stark naked and sat down on the bench out there, just staring out at the breaking daylight as his eyes hardened and glazed over once more.
Everyone stood or sat staring at the balcony doors, silence filling the room now. Zexion was stunned, because he had n't seen this fierce side of Sora so far. Demyx was stunned, too, then looked between the door and Riku before turning to Leon.
"Are you alright?" he asked Leon quietly. "He's not usually like that. He's just...he's been through a lot in the last month or so, and... Please don't hold it against him. He wasn't trying to threaten you," he rambled on, hoping Leon would just see how desperate Sora was right now and not take it to heart and arrest him for threatening and assaulting an officer.
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Posted: Sat Jul 18, 2015 11:26 pm
Riku frowned deeply seeing Sora lash out. He was so full of rage and hate and sorrow… It was such familiar pain to him. When Sora was finished yelling and stormed off, Riku stood from the couch and picked up the blanket that he previously had wrapped around him. He didn’t say anything to Demyx or Axel, who were now staring at him. He just walked over to his balcony and walked out to sit with Sora again. Looking at the empty figure of Sora, Riku wrapped the blanket around Sora’s shoulders before reaching down to his own waist.
Without another thought, the silver haired male pulled off his own shirt and offered to the brunette as he sat down in front of him. “Sora, put my shirt on. I know you are going through a lot, but you aren’t going to help Roxas by being like this,” Riku stated in a neutral tone. He wasn’t trying to be mean or trying to upset the brunette, but if Sora really wanted to help Roxas be found, he need to pull himself together. “Come on, I’ll take you back into my room, we can get you some more clothes, and I promise I’ll look for any signs of Roxas with you until both our legs fall off. It’s all I can offer you… Well unless you want Lortabs.” Riku stated in an attempt to comfort Sora. It was kind of a terrible thing to do, but Riku couldn’t help himself. He had stolen the Lortabs from Axel’s apartment.
Earlier before they had left the house, Riku had gotten dried off and gotten dressed, but he thought he was going to puke, so he rushed into the main bathroom because it seemed closer. Demyx must have been in a hurry, because he left the Lortabs sitting on the counter. Riku didn’t actually take anymore pills directly, but just seeing them sitting there, he pocketed them before Axel and Demyx could get into the bathroom. Just the thought of having them seemed to be enough to make him feel better for the time being. It gave him a sense of power to know that he had something that could take his pain away.
Axel and Demyx didn’t even seem to notice they were gone, so Riku wasn’t sure if they had noticed and were just allowing him to have them. Or, they really hadn’t noticed and Riku had to extra careful, if he wanted to keep them.
Leon gave no rise to Sora’s screaming. He knew the kind of stress that he was under right now. He had every right to be mad. Leon and Cloud understood the importance of treating this like a kidnapping, right from the beginning, but it was the order they were given. Their hands were tied until 24 hours were up. Maybe they would get lucky and while the police were canvassing the neighborhood looking for Roxas, they would get a tip about the blonde being seeing with the guy. People didn’t just climb down down a wall and walk off with a limp person without someone seeing something. Then again, they might also find a witness that saw Roxas escaping the apartment of his own free will. There was no idea what might come of their search.
“It’s fine, Demyx. I don’t blame him for being upset.” Leon spoke out softly as he straightened back out his shirt. “But before he can claim that we aren’t actually doing anything about this, did any of you guys want to join the search party we are about to go meet up with?” Leon asked as he looked at Demyx and Axel in particular. He knew that Zexion probably was going to want to stay with Sora.
“If you think that is the best way for us to help, I’m down for going.” Axel said after glancing out at Riku for a moment. “But I think it might be best if Riku stay with Sora. I don’t want either of them out on the street.” Axel stated as as more a statement than a suggestion. They could look when Riku was more in control and Sora had more a handle himself. Riku was liable to tip off and officer that he was high on painkillers, and Sora was just as likely to hit someone that did nothing wrong out of anger.
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Posted: Sun Jul 19, 2015 12:10 am
Sora barely registered that there was a light weight on his shoulders as Riku gently laid the blanket across them. Unconsciously, he gripped the edges of the blanket and pulled it around himself before looking over at Riku slowly, eyes refocusing on him and sliding ovver to look at the shirt he was being handed. He didn't move to take it, just let the words that Riku were saying slowly register in his head.
He looked up at Riku, brow furrowed slightly, as Riku said he had Loratabs on him. After all that happened, Axel had allowed him to have high-dosage pain killers? He shook his head at both offers, mumbling for Riku to keep his shirt, he was fine.
"No...I want to feel this," he whispered. "I want to be pissed off and feel my gut, because it always lets me know if Roxas is okay. But...I do want to hold onto them," he muttered quietly, letting go of one side of the blanket and reaching forward to Riku's front pocket. He pulled out the small pill bottle and held it tightly in his fist, looking at Riku with so much meaning and sorrow and pain that it was heartbreaking. Then he stood, pulling the blanket tightly around his body and made sure the pills were hidden within it and looked at Riku. He gripped both sides of the blanket with the one hand that held the pills and then popped his other hand out from beneath the blanket, holding it out to Riku.
"Let's go figure out where the ******** my brother is."
Demyx relaxed a little hearing that Leon understood that Sora was just really worked up right now, and for good reason. Then he brightened up when Leon mentioned meeting up with a search party.
"Oh, I'm definitely in," he said excitedly, then quickly agreed with Axel about Riku staying with Sora. Riku was what he needed right now to get him motivated again, and someone definitely needed to be a buffer in case things did go wrong, which left Zexion. Plus, Riku was high.
"Yeah, I agree, and I think Riku will, too," Zexion piped up with, to which Cloud and Demyx nodded to.
"Alright, then. Let's get this search party under-way and do our damn jobs right," Cloud said confidently in his usual muted tone, Demyx smiling over at him enthusiastically.
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Posted: Sun Jul 19, 2015 1:14 am
Riku frowned as Sora spoke to him. He probably should have never said anything about it. Slowly the silver haired male pulled his shirt back over his head and cast with only a small amount of difficulty. “Okay… but don’t tell Axel… Against my better judgement, I took them from one of Axel’s bathroom… He doesn’t know that I have them Sora. If he finds out that I have them… he’ll… Well, i don’t know what he’ll do, but it won’t be pretty… He’ll probably lock me up or something…”Riku told Sora in a low, somber tone as he allowed the brunette take the pills from him. “I know that I’m not a healthy person, Sora, I’m too weak to resist given the chance.” Riku mumbled as he looked down at his balcony’s patio tiles. Even numb, he was ashamed of himself.
Riku looked up with a shocked face as Sora put out his hand to him. There was some part of Sora that still wanted to be with the wreck that Riku was. “Yeah, Sounds like the perfect plan to me.” Riku spoke back as he reached his hand out to Sora. As their fingers laced together, Riku gave Sora a soft smile. Sora, even in this ******** situation, could still give Riku the hope he needed to go onward. “Sora, thanks for this… I know I shouldn’t be asking you to keep things from them.” Riku spoke out softly to the brunette before reaching out the arm with the cast on it to pull open the balcony door. It couldn’t do much, but it could at least still open doors.
Leon smiled a little towards the two new volunteers and headed for the door with them. “Zexion, we can have someone posted up here by the front door if you will feel safer being here with a security guard.” Leon stated as he stopped on his way to the door and looked back at the male that decided not to go. “It’s not very likely since we suspect that this guy was specifically was after Roxas to keep him locked away, but it might be worth it to have the security if the guy tries to come back for any of Roxas’s belongings or to leave a ransom note.” Leon stated before turning to Cloud.
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Posted: Sun Jul 19, 2015 1:31 am
"Shh," Sora shushed Riku quietly, not looking at him as they moved inside. "I'm doing what I can to help you, too. Don't ever think I don't care about you, because I loved you before you even knew I existed," he finished and stepped over the threshold to walk inside, holding Riku's hand firmly. His voice was flat and almost emotionless, but he obviously said those words straight from his heart. Sora wasn't one to lie.
Zexion smiled at Leon, but shook his head. "No, I think we'll be alright here. If anyone tries to get in, I think Sora'll rip their head off with his bare hands, plus I have a registered weapon in here that I plan to strap to my side as soon as you guys leave," he informed the officers gratefully.
Cloud nodded to Zexion's words. "Alright. Call someone if anything happens."
Zexion responded with a nod and a smile, watching them all leave immediately to get on the search. He was glad the officers were doing this, because they all knew this was a kidnapping. The stupid system obviously didn't care, though.
It seemed like as soon as the front door close, and Zexion ran over to get it locked, Sora walked in wrapped in a blanket, Riku following behind, hands clasped together, which made Zexion smile briefly.
"Everyone else left to go join a search party that was assembled to try and find Roxas and the kidnapper since they can't use the resources they have back at the station yet," he informed the two of them, Sora stopping short for a moment at the words before continuing on back to Riku's room, muttering something under his breath. Zexion sighed, went to dig his gun out of one of the cupboards in Riku's kitchen, then began making some tea.
"They're not gonna find them. They can look around the city all they can, but he's not here anymore. I don't know where he is, but he's nowhere near here anymore," Sora muttered to himself as he walked past Zexion and back to Riku's room, where he stopped short once more in the doorway. His grip tightened on Riku's hand, and he took a short breath before walking in. This was the last place Roxas was before he was taken, and it unnerved Sora much more than he wanted to admit knowing the attacker was in this room not but maybe a few hours ago.
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Posted: Sun Jul 19, 2015 6:03 am
Riku cracked one of the most genuine smiles that he had since all this s**t started. Maybe it was the drugs pushing away the pain, or maybe, Sora, even depressed, was just such an uplifting person. It didn’t matter to Riku whether Sora wore a frown or a smile. Riku couldn’t not see a light and hope in him. Now looking back, he didn’t know why he ever thought that walking away from this was better than staying. Even with the pain between them, Riku felt better… stronger even with Sora. Sora was worth staying, and Riku could see that clearly now.
As they walked back inside, Riku looked up at Zexion locking the front door. “Where did Axel and Demyx head off to?” Riku asked almost child-like. Ever since the incident, Riku spent every waking moment doing everything under their watch. It was almost surreal to think that they actually just left him alone here. To be honest, he wasn’t completely sure that he liked or wanted the safety net of them being there gone, but he had Sora. So when he heard Zexion say that they went to join the search party, Riku just squeezed Sora’s hand. The motion was merely a reminder to himself that Sora was actually physically there.
Feeling Sora tighten his grip on his hand, Riku took a deep breath and walked in with Sora. “Sora, for what it's worth, I’m here for you, okay? You can hit me or scream or cry or anything… I know you have got to need more release than what screaming at that officer could have done.” Riku commented softly as he pushed the door closed behind them. The room had already been searched for prints and for any shred of evidence. They didn’t turn anything up and that was why they had already cleared it.
The silvered hair male then pulled Sora closer to him and wrapped his arms snugly around him. “I know coming from the guy that quite literally attempted to run away, my word is pretty shitty, but Sora, I’m not leaving ever again. I realize now, that no matter where I could run to, it wouldn’t have what I’m looking for, because what I was searching for was you, Sora, so please let me spare you some of the pain you are holding onto. Whether it’s from the ******** up s**t that guy put you through, or the ******** up s**t that I put you though. I’ll do anything to help you release the pain, just please talk to me” Riku told him in a completely sincere and honest voice. He still didn’t exactly have the numbness gone, but Sora’s presence was sobering up his emotional state.
After leaving the apartment, Axel reached up with both hands and ran his fingers through his red mane. Now that the immediate threat was over, he was starting to think about to his decisions this morning. Pulling Demyx off to the side a little, Axel started to question himself.
“Damn, Dem, I made the right decision to get Riku up this morning, right? I mean, Sora obviously needed him, but I mean what hell is this going to come with? Riku had just started to detox and I just gave him what he was craving… when he comes down he is going to be twice as bad, because his body is going to be used to getting the drugs again when it gets the cravings for it. Not to mention, he is probably way more likely to relapse again, because I gave in and gave him drugs… I have never done that before. I have always pushed him away from drugs and told him he didn’t need it. God, how do I justify this to him later when I’m trying to sober him back up? I’m a terrible friend…” Axel groaned in a soft whisper as he tried to explain what was going on in his brain to Demyx. Obviously, he couldn’t just outright say that he got Riku high around cops, but he felt like he should be punished for doing this. It was a pretty heinous crime. Specially since, Axel had to sit there with Riku in the beginning and see the pain he was going through. All this was child’s play compared to that first detox, and yet Axel had practically throw him back into the fire on purpose.
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Posted: Sun Jul 19, 2015 2:37 pm
Sora paused when Riku said he could take his anger out on Riku. No, that wouldn't help anything. He had taken his emotions out on Riku before, and that ended with a bad decision on his part and the two in more pain and turmoil than either of them deserved. No...he needed to take his anger out on someone that deserved it, like this kidnapper.
He was startled out of his thoughts by Riku pulling him into his arms. He knew Riku cared about him just as much as the feelings were returned, but after everything, Sora honestly didn't expect this. However, he couldn't help but not feel excited about this new development. He was numb, and all of his thoughts were focused on the missing Roxas right now.
As Riku finished speaking, Sora gave a brief sigh and pulled back from him slightly, tilting his head to look up at him.
"Thank you, Riku, but right now, I just want to focus on finding him. I'm not going to be okay until he's safe, so I hope you don't take it to heart when I saw I don't want to talk right now. I don't wnat to take out my anger on you. I want to save it for that ******** b*****d that ruined our lives," he told him, a dark look crossing his eyes before he gave him a weak little ghost of a smile that almost instantly left his face and never reached his eyes.
"Can you get me some clothes out of the closet while I get some underwear on?" he asked softly and raised a hand, gently running the length of Riku's arm from the middle of his upper arm to his hand and then dropping it back at his side. He turned to the dresser, dropped the blanket, and began digging through it to pull out a pair of Riku's boxers, which he had taken up habit of wearing. He set the pills on top of the dresser for safe-keeping until he could hold onto them safely again. Even in all of this mess, he was going to try and keep Riku from taking drugs again.
Demyx reached down to take Axel's hand as he began doubting himself. In an equally quiet voice, he answered.
"Axel, I think you did what you had to do. This is a difficult situation, and, yes, you gave him a painkiller, but now he and Sora are closer than they had been before. And what have we all said he needed? Sora. He needs Sora to keep him sane, and now he has him. And since Sora's in a difficult place right now, he might be a little harsher on Riku about his habits, so it might snap him out of it. There's no point worrying over what happened now, because it already happened. Let's just see how it plays out, and then if we need to jump in again, we will. You know we'll be there for him, and he won't be mad at you for getting him close to Sora again. He'll thank you."
Demyx smiled at him gently and leaned over to kiss his cheek.
"So clear your head, and focus on what's happening now. We've got to get Roxas back to Sora, or I don't know how long it'll be before he bursts."
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Posted: Sun Jul 19, 2015 4:26 pm
Riku gave a soft understanding expression, before pulling back from the brunette. Maybe just being here with Sora was enough for the brown haired male to understand that Riku wanted to comfort him. He didn’t want to push him so hard that Sora turned against him. Therefore, Riku gave up for the moment. Walking over to his closet, Riku began digging around for some clothes for Sora to wear.
He quickly found some of his older clothes that should fit the brunette better than anything else would. “Here, Sora, but for the record, one of these days, I need to take you out to get your own clothes.” Riku stated in a light-hearted manner as he brought them to Sora to put on. There was something charming about that moment. There was a sense of normalcy in it that Riku wanted to grab onto. Even though he was a relapsed druggie and Sora was a train-wreck, Riku could see himself wanting to pretending none of that happened. He just wanted to be there with Sora, and let himself forget the rest.
Axel nodded to the dirty blonde as he shook his thoughts out of his head. “yeah, you’re right, I guess we just need to keep moving forward and hope for the best.” Axel mumbled back to him as he took Demyx’s hand tightly and moved back to the group.
The next three days seemed to flash by like seconds. They had finally labelled it a kidnapping, but they were turning up absolutely nothing. This guy was a profession that was for sure. They even speculated that Roxas wasn’t his first victim/obsession. This kind of behavior didn’t just pop up out of no where. He must have been doing this for several years at least, and way longer than Roxas had been at the asylum.
It was on that three day that Roxas had been missing that something strange happened. Riku, who had moved back into his own apartment to be with Sora, was going to walk out to get some fresh air, but he stopped when there was a letter on his doorstep. “What the hell? This building doesn’t get door delivered mail…” Riku mumbled to himself as he picked up the letter that was face down on his doormat. As he picked up the letter and turned it over, he almost dropped it again. In a soft handwriting, Sora name was printed across the front of the letter.
“Sora! Sora, there is a letter for you… at the front door…” Riku called back into the apartment as he shut and locked the door again. He didn’t want to open it, but it was kind of sickening to think about someone knowing that Sora lived here. It must have been from the guy, right? Three days of heartache and pain from turning up nothing and now there was a mysterious letter on his doorstep. What the hell could the guy possibly want?
Inside the letter, there was a slightly crumbled piece of lined paper. It was in Roxas’s handwriting…
“Sora!
Sorry, I haven't written in a while. Things have been crazy at the hospital with the personnel changes and what happened with my medication. I have some bad news, I know I wrote you a couple of weeks ago saying I was getting out, but they reviewed my case and say I had to stay a little longer. It’s was really my medication’s fault, but I don’t think I have ever had a trip that bad. It was the craziest thing ever.
I’m sure if you were here, you would have killed the stupid doctor, but they gave me the wrong medication! How crazy is that? I had this terrible hallucination, and now they want to keep me longer to make sure it isn’t a recurring condition. I’m sure I’ll be with you soon though, don’t lose hope in me okay? I’m not giving up, I’m still determined to get out of this joint.
Oh hey, but I have to tell you about my hallucination. I had this super realistic dream that I had actually gotten out. I mean even when I think about it, I get all twisted because it was so ******** real, Sora. Haha, maybe your twin is a little more messed up in the head than we thought. But yeah, I had gotten out and you were living with the guys from Nobody Cares! You were even kind of dating one of them. Looney, right? Then I met their manager, who probably doesn’t even exist, and he was this really gorgeous and sweet guy. Haha, I guess I’m a little lonely in here, but in my dream I think I had sex with him. I don’t know though it was a little hazy.
Anyways, everything got super crazy and all of this bad stuff happened. Then I found out that I had an actual identical twin. Batshit, I know. How is it possible for us to have a third twin? or I guess that would make us triplets. I should have woken up right there from just knowing it was a dream, but I didn’t. I’m kind of glad it was only a nightmare though now that I look back. I think I would much rather be stuck in here longer than to have seen you as hurt as you were. You know I always want to protect you beyond all reason and logic.
How have you been though? And don’t you dare get all depressed because it is going to be longer before you see me. You know even though I’m here, I’m with you. Worlds could separate us, and I would still find a way back to you eventually. Remember what I used to say to you when we were kids. “There are many worlds, but they share the same sky---one sky, one destiny.” Yeah, I know it has probably been hell without me, but our journey together isn’t over. We’ll make it passed this, and the pain of separation will end. Then we can sit back and just laugh about this.
I love you to the moon and back, Sora, I’ll write you again, soon.
Roxas. “
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Posted: Fri Sep 02, 2016 12:38 pm
Each day that passed, Sora didn't get any better. He didn't get much worse on the outside, but inside he was hardening the longer Roxas was away. The longer that monster had him.
The search team turned up nothing the night of the kidnapping. He had contacted the police multiple times, trying to keep tabs on what information they had, to no avail. Riku was trying his damndest to keep Sora from bursting, but now he was going through withdrawals once again. He had to detox, and Sora just couldn't be there for him as much as he truly wanted to. His mind was too laser-focused on finding Roxas. He had to find Roxas. He had to save him, because he knew this time. He knew he wasn't safe. He knew what was going on at that hell.
Today was one of Riku's better days since the withdrawals hit once more. It was Sora's worst. He laid curled in bed, staring at the wall with the pill bottle clutched in his hand. If he couldn't comfort Riku in his time of turmoil, the least he could do was save him from hurting himself even more. Slowly, his gaze slid over to Riku as he called to him, studying him for a minute. He wouldn't mind Riku's arms around him right now, in complete honesty. He had been a little distant from him for the past few days with everything going on, but he would love for him to come lay down with him.
"Riku..," he said softly, slowly pushing himself into a sitting position as he stared at him, trying to convey what he wanted...when the keyboardist's words clicked in his head. He had a letter? That was on the front porch? His brow furrowed as his eyes slid down to the envelope in his hand. His eyes slid wider, and he pushed himself off of the bed ro rush over to him, tripping over his own feet in his hurry. He easily grabbed the envelope from his hand with shakey fingers and gripped it tightly as he stared down at his name on the envelope.
"Th...This is Roxas's handwriting," he choked out, tears welling in his eyes. He started to mildly hyperventilate as he stumbled backward to sit on the bed, beside the pill bottle he previously abandoned for the letter. "It's Roxas's..." He gasped out as tears cascaded down his cheeks, lungs gasping for breath as he began sobbing. No contact for three days, and then this. His handwriting, Sora almost couldn't breathe he was both excited and terrified. What was he going to see if he opened this letter? Would it be a hint to lead him to him? What else could it be?
Either way, he needed to find out. He needed to see more of his handwriting. He needed to feel connected to him again. He looked up at Riku for help, for comfort. He didn't know if he could do this alone. "Ri..," he gasped out, shoulders trembling, fingers crumpling the envelope he was gripping it so hard.
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Posted: Mon Sep 05, 2016 8:43 pm
Everything in the apartment was starting to become a trigger for Riku to freak the ******** out. Detoxing in an apartment you know has been broken into and keeps being watched some sicko that legitimately can somehow pass through patrol was starting to push Riku over the end. He saw s**t all over the place and the shadows in the apartment had caused him to freak out multiple times, to the point where all the lights were constantly on so that even though it hurt Riku’s eyes to be in the brightest, he at least knew if there was a person or a lamp in the corner. Zexion had become their live-in maid/nurse, since either Riku or Sora could take care of themselves, not to mention Axel and Demyx were practically sleeping here every night as well. Honestly, the apartment was kind of packed all the time, and the lack of privacy and breathing space was also very off-setting to Riku. There was a ******** reason he had his own apartment, with his own s**t. He loved the band, to death, but it was just beginning to eat away at his obviously already fried nerves.
Why couldn’t they all go ******** camp out at Axel’s apartment, at least he had a spare ******** bedroom? Of course, this suggestion had come up in the beginning, but Sora refused to stay anywhere else. Something about being in the back room made him feel closer to Roxas or something. Riku was throwing up the time of the conversation, so he didn’t really get a say in any of it. It was just told to him that this was where they were staying. The only reason Riku was feeling any better today about it all was because he woke up to an empty apartment other than Sora. Zexion had gotten up early to go get groceries, and Demyx and Axel had once again joined the massive campaign to find Roxas. You couldn’t even turn on the ******** tv without seeing Roxas’s picture plastered all over it, and a picture of the guy. After 48, Leon and Cloud had made the decision to go public, so there was less of a chance of the guy running with Roxas again, and with the money from the new CD Nobody Cares was able to offer a pretty ******** good reward for information that lead to either the capture or Roxas’s safe return. But Ultimately that was just leading to a lot of empty leads of people just trying to get the reward.
He was halfway through a cup of coffee, before he felt the need to vomit and decided to go on the walk that lead to the letter. Now he was standing in front of Sora, who looked like he might scream or cry or possibly explode from all of the conflicting emotions in him… and all Riku could do was stand in front of him drained of all energy and will. Yes, today was so much better than the past few, but he still felt the need for the emptiness. He still felt like his bones were crawling under his skin. He was pretty sure he was running a small amount of cold sweat, which was just something he had come to be in a constant state of. He was in an old t-shirt and some loose fitting cargo shorts and his hair was pulled back into a messy ponytail, because honestly any given moment he might need to run to the bathroom and remove all his guts. A feeling which just happened to be rearing its ugly head as he watched Sora’s emotions just contorting in front of him.
“.. Do I need to call Axel and Demyx?” Riku mumbled as he swallowed hard and just kept the small couple of feet between them. If Sora tried to touch him right now, he was sure that he was going to need to upchuck all of his previously drank coffee. The idea that that monster forced Roxas to write a letter was more than enough to disturb all of his ******** senses and mental ability to fight off the detox feelings. Sora disconnected himself from sobbing and staring at the letter and looked at him, and Riku felt something in his core shake. Sora ******** needed him and he couldn’t fix himself. He couldn’t just pull together… again. This was a recurring thing that keep happening. Sora would have one of these moments, and Riku would freak the ******** out, because he felt like he couldn’t help him. He didn’t think he was good enough for Sora or to help him through this. He wasn’t even a crutch, he was a dead weight.
Riku tried to breathe a breath when he realized that in a state of sheer panic, he wasn’t breathing, but no air filled his lungs. The only sensation that filled him was the sound of Sora gasping out his name. He broke, collapsing near the bed where they kept a trashcan Riku puked and then choked on the rush of acidic coffee vomit. The lack of air forced him to try and breath and puke at the same time, which just lead him to having the vomit in his nose. Tears filled his eyes from the emotional pain of breaking in front of Sora and the physical pain from the stomach acid being in his mouth, upper throat, and nose. “I-..” Riku hacked a bit again. “I-Imm.. sorry. J-jjust need.. a sec.” He gasped through a few coughs and gags.
The smell and taste of vomit was seemingly everywhere and it was making Riku feel like he needed to vomit more. How was he supposed to be a good boyfriend, a good anything like this. The guilt weighed down on him, and Riku felt cold shivers run through him as he vomited up just pure stomach acid and coughed again at the burning sensation. He needed to call Zexion or Axel or anyone to help Sora, because it was blatantly obvious that Riku was incapacitated.
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UnDeadReaper95 Vice Captain
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