I have an ex. We're still friends, and I LOVE talking to him. But, I feel like I'm walking on eggshells with him.

I had a bout of 'clingyness'. I would send him a text message, and before I knew it, I sent him....a lot. I didn't realize it then, but now I realize that I was having a panic attack.

I respected my ex. I did. But, whenever I was having an attack, I would message him, and I didn't really know what it was. And I felt horrible regret with every message I sent him, but I just wanted reassurance from him.

He's changed from the man I once knew him to be, and it just increasingly scared me. It hurts a lot.

I've never had one before. I'm a calm person, and I've never had anything close to it. I'm still feeling the effect of one from a while ago, and they're growing slowly with intensity.

I love him and I love for him to keep in touch with me, but I don't know how much it's going to take out of me.