I hate when I get like this. There's no excuse for it. I'm just generally fed up with life. I'm tired from work. I'm bored all the time.

The only time I can ever actually say I'm enjoying myself is when I see her. And the last few weeks, I haven't been able to. Whether it's our work schedules conflicting, her going somewhere with her friends... or maybe she's just avoiding me. Hell, I don't know anymore. I just want a straight answer for once. I want to go back to being happy. Or at least content.

And then there's work. Promotion, raises, and then all hell breaks loose. Suddenly I'm a supervisor in a store where nobody wants to show up to work. They either call in, or don't show up at all. And it's not just at my store - they volunteer for other stores and then just don't show up there. I'm tired of dealing with it. I really am.

Home isn't much better. It seems like my roommates and I are polar opposites now. When I'm up and want to play games, they want to sleep. When they're up, I'm passed out. On those rare occasions where we're all up, they're arguing. I'm tired of hearing it. Especially when I get depressed.

I just want to curl up in a corner somewhere and shut it all out. I want to shut everyone out. Except the one person I want to let in, and all she does is run away. Push me away. It hurts so ******** bad.