Alright... I have recently added a person to my IM list... we have lots of similar interests and it was a site I had been lurking on when I saw he mentioned the Nintendo DS... so of course I wanted to talk.
We chatted and found out there were many interests we shared, one of which was otherkin.
He believes he is a kitsune... and... well, through a series of things I made up the imagery of a kitsune... and... just how fast I had come up with the look made me seriously wonder, and anyway I did a wikipedia search on kitsune... hitting a few interesting things.
On a side note... I didn't realize that tofu, a food I like, is said to be a favorite of kitsune.
The whole series of events though leading to it... I started to try to honestly ask myself if I thought I was a kitsune in a past life or spiritually... yet I just want people to be aware that, yes, it's very sudden to assume anything. It just struck me particularly odd about how the things pieced together like that.
While I'm asking for opinions on that (which... in itself wouldn't mean much of anything in the short or long run... sweatdrop ), I also want to know if there are any kitsune in this guild, and if anyone knows anything about this race or whatnot...
For the love of god no Naruto or anime mentions.
Earlier today, 10/21,
I can't remember exactly how long ago... but... I'm sure in the past month I met up with someone that claims to be an otherkin kitsune. We both had similar interests, and I happened to find him on a forum, thus why we started chatting.
One thing had led to another, and I ended up making up a kitsune on a story we were doing. Just for fun... of course.
That's sort of where things started... when I was thinking of colors, I was going to just do silver when I had said that... and then there was this rush of details that came to mind... a whole entire color scheme just shot into my head... I only thought "how convenient" at the time.
Later on... like the next day or so, I read up on kitsune on Wikipedia. I started reading on down through the information... and in there I found some coincidence...
Yes, I'm aware that many people like tofu, and probably soy products as well. I do... I know that. I love soy milk.
It appears that the sources say kitsune do as well. It just struck me a bit odd. I've only had tofu once... and... it was rather good. My stepfather makes a comment of how odd it is to like something without taste to it...
So... it was rather odd to me... I couldn't forget about that, and eventually I tried to find more information and came across a page of research someone had put together from many different sources. I started to read all of it... I began to scan through, excited... like I was on the trail of something very important. And... there were interesting bits in there that really did make me... well...
What I found were definitely two things... one was a list of traits. I matched up on nearly all of these... the only two was my take on revenge (I find it hard to hold a grudge... I just like getting even for fun), and of helping and receiving help (I actively go to co-workers asking if they need anything... and I try to not be afraid to ask for help if needing it, but would rather go without).
The other traits I hit nearly head on... I'm attached to my family in ways they don't understand...
It's... really hard to say on the traits though. I feel like trying to match things up to them in vain isn't going to prove a thing... so... I would try to give examples but perhaps at a later date. It's just the list seems to relate to the morals I've kept to myself... trying to help out in general to make things run a bit more smoothly.
The second thing is that I have this one view of death... I don't want to end up in a final resting place, which I mean like heaven or hell... and I don't know about reincarnation. I would possibly, if given the choice, much rather stay and try to protect and watch over the family of mine...
I nearly freaked when I saw this then... a paragraph under a "possession" section, talking of how a kitsune would walk among people, etc.
It was saying in one of the sections that a kitsune could possess an unborn child, or a dead person. BUT, on the part of dieing... it was saying something else could possibly happen... the person could become a kitsune at death, and it breaks the cycle of birth - life - death - reincarnation. Very odd.
There's a few more things I want to say before I submit this though... one of these is a personal belief I have...
Honestly... I haven't felt a connection to any gods or goddesses, deities... nothing. My belief is I have nothing to do with them in the event they do exist... because to me I haven't seen anything suggest otherwise.
Talking with a friend they made a comment of "misguided kitsune" as I talked to them about all this. That does seem appropriate. It brings up another point that, back to the family mentioning... there are two kinds of kitsune, the one that is to serve Inari, and then another that is mischievous and sometimes malicious. I'm... honestly feeling that were I a kitsune, I would have been the first but not a servant and more of a loner. Indeed... misguided somewhere.
To me... the circumstances are just very odd and... disturbing somewhat. I've got the same feeling as what happened years ago upon realizing I was a dragon inside... The difference this time around is that I've already been discussing with otherkin before this. But... I'm very worried.
See, being a dragon spiritually, I'm sort of... upset... not glad... that I'm finding yet another mythological connection. If it's that. A therian could come up to me, and they could point at me and say they are more likely to be right because I'm a mythological animal, and they are an actual one. So, what am I to think if indeed I found I was yet ANOTHER mythological being?
It makes me worry a lot... I'm so worried about posting this that I've typed out now... not that someone would simply say I'm going overboard or such... but to be completely shunned for looking... fluffy... for lack of other terms at the moment.
I want to say though, I don't want to discourage any types of comments... I want honest opinions about this. Thoughts, ideas, insults.. XD Yes, I just... really want open honest feedback on this... I promise not to get mad because I did this with when I found I was dragon... again...
One thing had led to another, and I ended up making up a kitsune on a story we were doing. Just for fun... of course.
That's sort of where things started... when I was thinking of colors, I was going to just do silver when I had said that... and then there was this rush of details that came to mind... a whole entire color scheme just shot into my head... I only thought "how convenient" at the time.
Later on... like the next day or so, I read up on kitsune on Wikipedia. I started reading on down through the information... and in there I found some coincidence...
Yes, I'm aware that many people like tofu, and probably soy products as well. I do... I know that. I love soy milk.
It appears that the sources say kitsune do as well. It just struck me a bit odd. I've only had tofu once... and... it was rather good. My stepfather makes a comment of how odd it is to like something without taste to it...
So... it was rather odd to me... I couldn't forget about that, and eventually I tried to find more information and came across a page of research someone had put together from many different sources. I started to read all of it... I began to scan through, excited... like I was on the trail of something very important. And... there were interesting bits in there that really did make me... well...
What I found were definitely two things... one was a list of traits. I matched up on nearly all of these... the only two was my take on revenge (I find it hard to hold a grudge... I just like getting even for fun), and of helping and receiving help (I actively go to co-workers asking if they need anything... and I try to not be afraid to ask for help if needing it, but would rather go without).
The other traits I hit nearly head on... I'm attached to my family in ways they don't understand...
It's... really hard to say on the traits though. I feel like trying to match things up to them in vain isn't going to prove a thing... so... I would try to give examples but perhaps at a later date. It's just the list seems to relate to the morals I've kept to myself... trying to help out in general to make things run a bit more smoothly.
The second thing is that I have this one view of death... I don't want to end up in a final resting place, which I mean like heaven or hell... and I don't know about reincarnation. I would possibly, if given the choice, much rather stay and try to protect and watch over the family of mine...
I nearly freaked when I saw this then... a paragraph under a "possession" section, talking of how a kitsune would walk among people, etc.
It was saying in one of the sections that a kitsune could possess an unborn child, or a dead person. BUT, on the part of dieing... it was saying something else could possibly happen... the person could become a kitsune at death, and it breaks the cycle of birth - life - death - reincarnation. Very odd.
There's a few more things I want to say before I submit this though... one of these is a personal belief I have...
Honestly... I haven't felt a connection to any gods or goddesses, deities... nothing. My belief is I have nothing to do with them in the event they do exist... because to me I haven't seen anything suggest otherwise.
Talking with a friend they made a comment of "misguided kitsune" as I talked to them about all this. That does seem appropriate. It brings up another point that, back to the family mentioning... there are two kinds of kitsune, the one that is to serve Inari, and then another that is mischievous and sometimes malicious. I'm... honestly feeling that were I a kitsune, I would have been the first but not a servant and more of a loner. Indeed... misguided somewhere.
To me... the circumstances are just very odd and... disturbing somewhat. I've got the same feeling as what happened years ago upon realizing I was a dragon inside... The difference this time around is that I've already been discussing with otherkin before this. But... I'm very worried.
See, being a dragon spiritually, I'm sort of... upset... not glad... that I'm finding yet another mythological connection. If it's that. A therian could come up to me, and they could point at me and say they are more likely to be right because I'm a mythological animal, and they are an actual one. So, what am I to think if indeed I found I was yet ANOTHER mythological being?
It makes me worry a lot... I'm so worried about posting this that I've typed out now... not that someone would simply say I'm going overboard or such... but to be completely shunned for looking... fluffy... for lack of other terms at the moment.
I want to say though, I don't want to discourage any types of comments... I want honest opinions about this. Thoughts, ideas, insults.. XD Yes, I just... really want open honest feedback on this... I promise not to get mad because I did this with when I found I was dragon... again...
