Lelouch is sexy...

My story begins when I was in Kindergarten. At the time I lived in Maine and the schools their sucked a**. Anyway, I dont remember much about those years but I know I always picked on kids and I constantly acted out. I was pretty much a problem child. Same thing had happened in first grade and wasnt until second grade when they finally ran tests at a hospital...I dont remember. They found out that I had Mild Autism and also ADHD and a learning disability. I was put on numerous medications for my ADHD and they worked for a while but stopped until I think maybe eight or nine I'm guessing they put me on Concerta and I've been on that since. After that things had gone well but the one thing lacking in my actual abilities was my social skills. They were very poor and I had a hard time meeting friends. See I'm not the type of person that goes around and talks to strangers and even on the phone with friends I dont usually talk because I'm just not a talkative person. I mean I can talk very well but I'm afraid of strangers.

Anyway, I had gone from two school during my elementary years and each time I was teased and teachers still had no idea what to do with some who was mildy autistic, learning disabled and had ADHD.

Back to my second grade year, my teacher actually stuck me into the back of the classroom facing the wall while other kids had sat up front.

I also have problems with my voice where people tell me I talk loudly but to me I talk in a normal tone. It's said that I have hearing problems but yet I can hear very high pitched noises like maybe thunder or sirens and it hurts me ears and I get scared of them. I also found it that I had anxiety which is part of my social imbalance because when I go into stores, I cant go in alone because I feel highly insecure and its wrse in malls unless I'm with a friend but if I have to go alone I get scared and sometimes I cry.

Because of all this, I am unable to hold a job because my social skills are lacked, my speed is very slow, I have trouble remembering just about everything I learn and I just have that insecurity level I mentioned. I mean I can get stressed over things so easily like when I get yelled at or if someone is mean to my parents and is causing problems I get really scared and worked up because it just...frightens me.

Sometimes people misunderstand me and even with my hearing thehy always tell me to lower my voice but I can't because it sounds so normal to me and even when I say I have bad hearing, they dont believe me and tell me it has nothing to do with it.

I have also graduated from high school and I am 19 years old. I will not go to college because I feel that it will be an even harder challenge for me and I'm just not ready for that.

I have found something I really enjoy and that is anime and writing fanfiction stories. I hope that I can become a writer someday. :3

...And you are not!