I used to go on Gaia to flame people a lot. Make them feel bad about themselves so I feel better about myself. Don't deny it - you see my avatar, posting style, and reading how I write ((excessively long paragraphs, overstating the previous point in more ways than one)), and you'd think I'm an egotistical asshat almost without reading my post. Lol
But yeah, that did gain me some confidence and self-respect. Only for a short time though - I'd find myself still needing more of it, so I'd go back to Gaia and bash some more 'noobs' until I felt satisfied again.
Most people usually just repeat the cycle from there. The newcomers are "welcomed" to Gaia by flames and scammers, which makes them think that it's okay to act that way to their fellow Gaia users.
Someone, somewhere along the line, knocked some sense into me. How? They didn't do the whole "you're a bad person, how could you be so mean" routine. No, they inspired me. I saw from the way they posted, that Gaia is more than just "INTERNET LULZ!!!11!". There's a real individual person behind each name (egh, maybe I shouldn't say that - people with their mules these days...). They posted with respect for people and contributed to the threads, helped out others with their problems instead of flaming them, didn't shove their opinions down others' throats or insult others. Funny thing, I don't even remember who it was...
What I've found to be therapeutic for me, is actually helping people with their problems. I was feeling depressed today for no apparent reason, other than an employee at Disneyland telling me I shouldn't have my knife there because it's private property. Somehow this killed my mood, but he was just doing his job and I understand that - I also understand that we both knew I didn't do anything wrong. It still killed my mood though.
I talked to a friend about how their day was going... they had some family problems going on, I won't go into detail because I'm not the kind of person to blurt it all out. But, talking to her and helping her with any suggestion I had somehow made me feel better about my day.
I highly recommend that to anyone who normally uses putting down others to make themselves higher as a source of self-respect.
[Oh crap SGD, when did I start using you as a blog?? sad ]
But yeah, that did gain me some confidence and self-respect. Only for a short time though - I'd find myself still needing more of it, so I'd go back to Gaia and bash some more 'noobs' until I felt satisfied again.
Most people usually just repeat the cycle from there. The newcomers are "welcomed" to Gaia by flames and scammers, which makes them think that it's okay to act that way to their fellow Gaia users.
Someone, somewhere along the line, knocked some sense into me. How? They didn't do the whole "you're a bad person, how could you be so mean" routine. No, they inspired me. I saw from the way they posted, that Gaia is more than just "INTERNET LULZ!!!11!". There's a real individual person behind each name (egh, maybe I shouldn't say that - people with their mules these days...). They posted with respect for people and contributed to the threads, helped out others with their problems instead of flaming them, didn't shove their opinions down others' throats or insult others. Funny thing, I don't even remember who it was...
What I've found to be therapeutic for me, is actually helping people with their problems. I was feeling depressed today for no apparent reason, other than an employee at Disneyland telling me I shouldn't have my knife there because it's private property. Somehow this killed my mood, but he was just doing his job and I understand that - I also understand that we both knew I didn't do anything wrong. It still killed my mood though.
I talked to a friend about how their day was going... they had some family problems going on, I won't go into detail because I'm not the kind of person to blurt it all out. But, talking to her and helping her with any suggestion I had somehow made me feel better about my day.
I highly recommend that to anyone who normally uses putting down others to make themselves higher as a source of self-respect.
[Oh crap SGD, when did I start using you as a blog?? sad ]
