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so i'm a 20 year old student with home problems. my only parent just isn't......a good parent. my dad is less than a good christian man, and i can't keep on supporting him and being his crutch, it's just sucking me dry.

well my best friend is a lot older, married, and they have a kid.

so they invited me to live up there with them this summer, and i'm kind of nervous.
i mean right now, i just don't feel very confident in myself. like i don't feel like i'm going to be good enough, or fun enough, i don't know. and i'm afraid that i'll get out there, and they won't enjoy living with me,
i mean, we've known each other for 5 years, and i've stayed at their house with them for a week 3 times, and even stayed with them at her parent's house with them....

i don't know. maybe it has to do with the fact that i've never lived in a functional family home,
i' m just nervous about a lot of things. i'm nervous about putting a damper on their married couple personal time, finding out we aren't who we all thought we were and not enjoying having each other around, fighting, me not fitting into the family.....

there are good christian people, and are just so amazing for doing this for me, but i just don't know how to accept it. no one has ever been this kind to me. and it's just so.....loving.....i don't know. i've just never been given anything like this before, i'm pretty jaded.

so what can i do to repay their graciousness?
respecting their house rules is a given, doing chores is a given, i think i might bring a gift to them for hosting me, any ideas?
so what can i do to just make sure things go well?

they aren't going to let me pay any rent or money for groceries, and told me not to ask about it again. so i don't know, i just don't feel like i could adequately pay them back.

does anyone else have experience with living with another family for a while? or living with friends?

could someone offer some prayers?
God totally wants me to do this, everything was set up so perfectly and a bunch of things happened to just make this so smooth, but my heart is just so hesitant and i'm scared i won't be good enough.

thanks this was really nice to hear.

it's just so hard to soak it in, but there were some more developments that kind of changed things, and i am just humbled by God's love, and the amount of love he puts into other's hearts.

the friend i'm staying with, he mother was in a similar situation when she was my age. her mom is just such a nice lady. i think i like her so much because she reminds me of my best friend, her daughters, and she also just welcomed me into the family without question. she's a great lady, and her mother passed away when she was younger as well, and had to deal with her dad when she was growing up.

well my friend was telling her mom about what i've been dealing with, and her mother decided to contribute $2000 to me getting a car, so i don't have to ask my dad for that money.

HOLY s**t, God is great. i just can't believe their love.

and that happening really put me at ease, it's just so unconditional, that'll everything will be ok, and God has his hands all over this.

i'm just so humbled.

can y'all pray for me that this goes well?
there is just so much happening so fast.

Just remember, you owe a great debt to these people and in the end all debts are repaid. Now then, you don't have to repay them directly for you see, you can in point of fact repay said loan by spreading the love and charity to others. It's this principle that's the real reason why kindness can change the world.