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PostPosted: Wed Dec 28, 2011 9:06 pm


FAIRYTALE LAND!!!


This is going to be one of those crack threads that you can post anything in.

Well, not anything.

FANFICTION

based on the characters in the roleplay. :3

Christmas 2011: Got any Christmas-themed fanfiction ladies and gents? Post them here! :3

Rules?

1) Please use separate posts for each story! biggrin Unless it's like a related set of short little blurbs or something. >.>

2) Please give a title and the pairing at the beginning of the story! Unless the pairing is supposed to be a secret. razz

3) I suppose you could go graphic, but it's not suggested. >.> If you do though, post a warning before the story begins!

4) You can do chapters. Just make the chapters clear, and don't start anything you can't finish. <3
PostPosted: Wed Dec 28, 2011 9:53 pm


Ballet Slippers~

AcrivahxMikeal

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It was cold- the day after Christmas, and Acrivah was sitting on the couch, wrapped up in a warm fleece blanket Mikeal had gotten her for Christmas with a mug of hot apple cider in her hands. Mikeal had made it for her before heading off to his office. He was only going to be there for a few hours, but she still found herself missing him.

She had asked upon opening her present, "Wouldn't a Snuggie have been more practical?" He had only blinked at her in confusion before laughing and replying that Snuggies were silly.

Then he had given her a kiss on her forehead and that little pout upon her lips had transformed into a shy, beaming smile. It made her cheeks hurt. She wasn't used to smiling. She wasn't used to watching someone head out the door and feel... forlorn.

Love was strange. She didn't know if she liked it or not, but over the past few months she had lived with Mikeal, she knew that she was incapable of living without it. At least at this current point in her life.

Changing the channel, she smiled a little bit as she watched. The Nutcracker was on, and she watched as the ballerinas leaped around as if they weighed nothing, almost flying through the air with a grace Acrivah had only seen mirrored in the shadows that followed her around.

In awe, she watched, but there was a tinge of sadness in that gaze.

"I wanted to be like you," she told the ballerinas on the screen, her knees pulled up into her chest with mug cradled in her hands. Her eyes narrowed sadly. "I wanted to fly like you." She closed her eyes, turned her face away from the C-jumps and the corkscrews, and sniffed away her tears. "But I never had the courage." Then she let out a bitter laugh. "Besides, I would break every bone in my body trying to do that. I have two left feet." She turned her gaze back to the TV, and bit her lip to keep from crying. "It would be nice though. To feel your power."

She thought she was alone in the house, but she didn't know that two sets of very faithful eyes were watching her.

-----

"Acrivah! My darling! Could you please get dressed? We're going out!"

Mikeal, a few days after - on the eve before the day previous to New Year's Day. The Eve of the Eve. He was already in the kitchen, calling to Acrivah through the open door of their bedroom up the stairs. Acrivah, just waking up from a lovely afternoon nap to greet the evening, looked over to see his side of the bed was empty, and she was relieved and saddened all at the same time - at least until she had heard his voice echoing up the steps. Pulling her night clothes tighter to her, she slipped out of bed and to the door.

Contrary to what everyone else thought, she hadn't the courage to sleep with him, even though they shared the same bed. Every time it seemed like it was going that direction, she always chickened out and shied away. If Mikeal was feeling physically strained because of this, he gave no sign, and merely wrapped his arms around her and told her softly and gently to go to sleep. She had thought many times that being in different beds, in different rooms, would be better for both of them.

She had tried it once. And ended up crawling back into his bed after about ten minutes lying in another bed and feeling how empty it felt without that second body there.

When she returned, Mikeal had simply opened his eyes and gave her a warm, knowing smile.

"Did you find what you wanted to find?" He asked simply. Blushing, she had merely shook her head and crawled back into the warmth and comfort of his arms - which was still foreign and strange and just a little awkward - but still beautiful and wonderful all the same.

But maybe she had found it. She had found him again.

"Acrivah?"

He was in their room, and she had just finished pulling on the last of her warm layers. As he beamed at her, taking her hand in his and pulling her to him to plant a soft kiss on her cheek, she blushed and managed to ask,

"So, where are we going?"

He merely smiled at her, pulling her down the stairs.

"Come, my darling. You'll see."

------

Stepping out of the car, they arrived at what seemed to be like a theater. Acrivah was incredibly confused.

"Mikeal, what're we doing here-?"

But he wouldn't answer. Just told her that 'she'd see', with this mischievous, excited gleam in his eyes that told her that he was very proud of whatever he was about to show her.

Sliding his arm around the base of her back, he swept her inside.

Entering a massive auditorium, Mikeal led her to seats close to the front row, placed parallel to the center of the stage.

"What is going on?" She asked as they and hundreds of others sat down, the orchestra in the pit playing a lovely instrumental.

"You'll see," was his only reply, and as one they settled into the comfortable seats and Acrivah, completely confused and baffled by the entire thing, shifted uncomfortably in her seat while the audience settled around them.

The house lights dimmed, and the curtains withdrew from the stage as the stage lights slowly went up. The orchestra, previously silent, burst into song again as the opening began, and Acrivah's eyes widened in shock.

It was the opening scene to The Nutcracker. In shock, she looked to Mikeal.

"Why did you-?"

"Just watch," he cooed softly, leaning over to kiss her on the apple of her cheek. "Watch and enjoy."

She didn't need too much encouragement. Her eyes drew themselves to the dancers, how they spun and whirled and leaped with all the power of swans and herons. Her eyes sparkled, and for the entirety of the play nothing else existed - just the story, just the dancers. Just the ballerinas and the music and the settings and the sheer, utter beauty. Unconsciously, her hand tightened around Mikeal's.

Though it was a beautiful scene, and a very expensive one at that, Mikeal wasn't focused on the ballet. During the entire play, his eyes never left Acrivah's face.

When the ballet ended and the dancers took their bows, Acrivah was crying with joy and had been crying for a while, and Mikeal held her hand as they exited, walking close to her as she could only beam through her tears.

"I... I don't understand," she finally said as they left the theater and stepped into the chilly winter winds. Her tears stung painfully on her cheeks, but they were so red and warm with excitement she didn't notice. "How did you know I liked The Nutcracker? Why did you do it?"

"How did I know?" He echoed, smiling. "Well, I'll tell you. He's a very quiet fellow, has two heads..."

Akoro. She had completely forgotten about him that day. Still smiling, she rolled her eyes, and rubbed her tears on her sleeve.

"And as for why..." Her chin was taken in hand, and her face was gently lifted to make eye contact with him. His smile was warm and broad. "Well, look at you. Look at how amazing you look."

Lifting her eyes, she caught her reflection in one of the mirrored panels that made part of the architecture of the theater, and was shocked.

Her eyes were gleaming and bright, her cheeks rosy and red. Her lips were glossy and plump, and though her eyes were a little bloodshot, she was still in awe.

Never before had she thought herself as beautiful, but that... that...

"Oh."

"Do you see?" Her gaze went back to Mikeal, and he smiled, lowering his head to press foreheads with her in a gesture she had come to acknowledge as loving. "Do you see how beautiful you are? Sadness, joy, anger, fear... your face encompassed what it means to be human in that theater. Your face embodied what it meant to be perfect in human imperfections." Opening his eyes, he gazed deep into hers. "And that's why I will never regret choosing you."

Acrivah's cheeks became redder, and her tears began anew.

------

That night, as they lay bare in each other's arms, there was nothing foreign about the embrace, nothing fearful about his touch upon her or hers upon him. Quietly, in his arms, she beamed to herself, and for some reason, couldn't stop crying out of sheer, utter joy.

She didn't need ballet slippers to fly, she had realized. She didn't need grace to be considered worthy. All she needed was him.

She realized that now.

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PostPosted: Thu Dec 29, 2011 9:08 pm


Parties Suck—MizoxGen

Mizo sat very quietly on the couch next to the fire. He did not much like parties. He always felt so awkward at them, but Gen had really wanted to go. It wouldn’t be fair for her if he just skipped out. Still, he wished that he could at least talk to somebody. This sucked.

Mizo was in the process of quantifying just how much sitting alone sucked when something fell over his face and blocked his vision. All he could see was a dull red. Immediately he let out a cry of surprise, only to then hear a familiar giggle.

“It’s a Santa hat, silly!”

“Gen?” Mizo pushed the fluffy brim of the hat back to see his purple-haired companion standing in front of him. In her hands were two white mugs with a swirly, red decoration around the rim. A bit of steam curled off of the top, and a candy cane was hooked onto each cup.

“Duh! Who else would it be? I got us hot cocoa! It’s great. It’s got marshmallows and everything! Here.” Gen handed Mizo his drink as she sat down across from him. It was a bit hot to the touch. Mizo wondered if Gen had had a cup already. At the very least, she must have had some extra candy. She was extraordinarily hyper.

“Thank you.” He blew gently into the cup before taking a sip. Gen gulped hers, as she was apparently impervious to burns. It was a bit too sweet for his tastes, but Gen had gotten it for him and he would drink it all.

“Are you having fun?” Gen’s voice was worried this time. Hearing her worry always made him want to fix it.

“Yeah. The fire’s nice and so is the cocoa.” Those things weren’t lies, so he felt comfortable saying them. His words brought the smile back to her face. Her smile was infectious, and he could feel his own lips turning into a small grin. She placed her cocoa on a small table next to her chair and reached over to grab his hand. He didn’t know why she suddenly did that, but he wouldn’t complain. Her hand was small and soft. His cheeks reddened almost instantly. Mizo hated when they did that. Still, they could not possibly ruin how nice this moment was.

“Merry Christmas, Gen.”

“Merry Christmas, Mizo.”
PostPosted: Thu Dec 29, 2011 9:08 pm


Operation Mistletoe—DanavexLucia

Danave had the perfect plan to annoy Lucia this time. It’s name? Operation Mistletoe. Some might call him a masochist, but he couldn’t help but find her cute when she was upset and flustered and pouting and mildly violent. It was super easy to push her buttons too.

His target stood across the room looking out of the window at the slight amount of falling snow. Good. None of the other partygoers were around. As much as he loved to annoy Lucia, he’d learned the hard way that embarrassment was an exceptionally painful road to travel.

Dashing over, he dangled the mistletoe above their heads. “Hey, Lucia. Look up!”

The considerably smaller girl turned and looked up. Danave’s wide grin stuck to his face as he braced himself for the inevitable slap.

What he did not expect was for her to grab his face and kiss him. The mistletoe fell to the floor. Danave spluttered, as he pulled away, unable to form a coherent sentence. Had she just one-upped him?! Then, surprisingly , she giggled. A closer look proved her cheeks to be red.

“What? Am I not a good kisser, Dana?” There was a very slight slur to her speech.

“Lucia, are you drunk?”

“No! I only had a few cups of eggnog.”

Perhaps spiking the eggnog had been a bad idea.

“Lucia, I put rum in there.”

Lucia appeared to think on the confession. “’Splains a lot,” she concluded with a decisive nod. A mischievous sparkle came to her eyes. “Want another kiss?”

The offer made him jump slightly. Yes, yes he did. Her lips were soft, and she smelled nice, and this might be his only chance to kiss her for a long time, but… “No, I’m good.”

He damned his naturally good conscience. Lucia pouted and seemed to be cursing it too.

“Did you drive here tonight?” He asked with a start as he realized how much trouble this could be for her. She nodded sleepily. “Gimme your keys.”

Thankfully, Lucia was reasonable even when drunk. She gave up her keys without a single complaint.

“Come to me when you wanna go home, okay? I’ll drive you.”

Lucia nodded before wandering off to mingle with the rest of the party. Danave kept his eyes one her the entire night, making sure that nobody took advantage of her drunken state. Later, he drove her to her house and helped her walk up to her doorway before returning her keys to her. She stumbled into him as she took them. He’d never realized how much of a lightweight she was. “Do you want me to help you up to your room?” he offered.

Lucia eyed him suspiciously before laughing and shaking her head. “No.”

Danave smiled and nodded. “Alright. Good night, Lucia.” He was halfway to his car when he heard her call his name.

“Danave!” He turned and cocked his head to the side. “Thank you. Merry Christmas!”

“Merry Christmas, Lucia!”

“I love you!”

Danave was pretty sure that he’d stopped breathing. “You’re drunk,” he called back. She just giggled and went inside.

Talk about Christmas miracles. Danave could not help breaking out into a whistle.

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PostPosted: Thu Dec 29, 2011 9:09 pm


400 Horsepower Open Sleigh—PrimrosexRen

Primrose was approximately one hour late to the party and was quite possibly in the process of freezing to death. If there was one thing that bothered her about being armless, it as was the fact that she could not drive. Normally she could get a ride, but Hana canceled on her at the last minute. Something about how Ezy’s sister would flip if she showed up. She knew that she should have just asked Lucia.

Freezing as she stubbornly trudged her way along the sidewalk, she muttered a series of very unladylike curses. Midway through her cursing, a car’s headlights illuminated her figure. Her shadow seemed to stretch for miles. The car then pulled to a stop next to her.

Primrose paused and eyed the car suspiciously. Stranger danger time? She thought that that only happened in after school specials. The window then rolled down to reveal Ren. He wasn’t a stranger. He was actually in her science class, though they hadn’t talked to each other very much before. “Going to my brother’s party?” She nodded. “Climb on in.” He jerked his head to welcome her to his car.

Primrose blinked and stared at the door. Awkward. Ren didn’t say anything, but seemed slightly embarrassed. He leaned over and pushed the door open. Primrose climbed over into the car. A slightly blush fell to her face as Ren leaned over and buckled her up. Well, the law did say that the seatbelt had to be fastened.

She watched him as they drove. He had a handsome face, but she wondered why he let his hair grow so long in front of his eye. He didn’t seem like the emo-kid type. Thinking on it, his brother did the same thing. Ah well. Who was she to judge? Really, all she cared about was that he was nice enough to drive her to the party.

When they arrived, he climbed out of the car and walked around to her side. He unbuckled her and lifted her out. “Thank you,” she chimed.

“It’s nothing. Do you have a ride back?”

“Yeah. Lucia.” It was presumptuous, but they were best friends. She trusted her.

Lucia got drunk. Primrose knew when she saw her friend dancing, or rather, stumbling, later on in the evening.

Immediately she sought out Ren. It seemed rude, but he’d driven her there. There was a chance that he would drive her back.

She found him outside, in the quiet, on a bench.

“Ren?”

He looked up, startled slightly, and half smiled at her. “Lucia’s drunk,” he stated simply. “I’ll dive you home later.”

Primrose smiled and thanked him before standing awkwardly in front of him. “Ah, mind if I sit here too?”

“Sure you won’t get too cold?” Snow flurries were starting to fall.

“It’s not like my fingers’ll freeze off.”

Ren paused for a second in disbelief before bursting out into laughter. Primrose took that as an okay to sit down. That small joke seemed to have taken away his curt attitude.

The rest of that night, from Christmas Eve to Christmas morning, they talked.

It was, in a strange way, very beautiful.
PostPosted: Thu Dec 29, 2011 9:10 pm


Giving to Yourself—AxA

Amon, for the life f him, could not figure out why Ezy had invited him to his Christmas party. The only reason that he wasn’t a felon was because he’d been thirteen during the incident and had had one hell of a lawyer. The only plausible logic behind the decision to invite him that he’d come up with was that Ezy had invited the entire school and thought that it’d be pretty suspicious to only leave out the kid from juvie.

Coming back had been difficult. People didn’t really speak with him anymore. Despite that, he had still managed to make two friends. Fafnir was cold and Mae was annoying, but they ate lunch with him all the same. There was one past friend, however, that he simultaneously stalked and avoided. Upon returning to school, he immediately sought out her daily schedule. He then proceeded to use that information to avoid making any and all contact with her.

Sadly, that made her the second person that he avoided with a passion. The other was his ex, Maddy. He had dated her because the sex was good, and broken up with her because she wasn’t nearly as horrible a person as he was. Their relationship had lasted a total of three weeks, and he was half ashamed and half proud to say that that was not his shortest relationship to date. Avoiding two people at once at a party, however, was difficult.

Amon was in the midst of these thoughts, spiked eggnog in hand, when he saw her. Acrivah. Before he could duck away, she looked up and saw him. Eye contact was made.

He could not escape.

Awkwardly, and without much of his usual confidence, he went over to her. The first thing he noticed was the absence of her boyfriend. Mikeal was nice, but Amon could easily snap him in two if he ever wanted to. The second thing he noticed was how she looked. She was exactly as he had imagined, she was soft, she was bright, she was shy, she hadn’t changed. He had.

Shame was uncomfortable.

“Hey.” Was that really the best that he could come up with?

“Hi, Amon. It’s been a while.” Her smile was welcoming, and it made him feel stupid. What had stopped him from talking to her again?

Fear. He never failed to mess things up. He broke everything he touched without fail. What would make her any different?

“Yeah.”

“Do you wanna join the math club?” The offer was abrupt and came out as a burst. Her eyes shot the floor in nervousness. The shy sincerity took him off guard. Slowly, carefully, she glanced up only to then see his puzzled expression. “I remember that you used to be really good at math. You’re not in any other clubs, right?”

He wasn’t.

“We meet on Thursdays after school. You should come.” There was a hint of, ‘it’d be nice to see you’ hanging off her of her words.

Amon considered it. Mikeal was not in the club. Acrivah was. He didn’t totally suck at math as he did with other subjects. Thursdays were an open day for him. It would, however, make him completely selfish. Mikeal was a good enough of a guy not to think much of it. He hadn’t even interrupted their current conversation, even though Amon was positive that someone had warned him of it by now. Mikeal would never doubt his girlfriend, but that wasn’t fair. Amon had no doubt that he would steal her. At the same time though, he realized with startling clarity, there was no doubt in his mind that he would not do his best to treat her well. He would not break her.

The question then really boiled down to how selfish he felt like being.

Acrivah glanced up at him expectantly.

“Sure. Sounds like fun.”

Merry Christmas to him.

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PostPosted: Thu Dec 29, 2011 9:11 pm


Family—PhixSandrin

There was a Christmas party for the juniors and seniors on Christmas Eve. Phi, being a freshman was not invited. Not that it mattered. She didn’t want to go. Her mom wouldn’t have let her go anyway.

Phi was supposed to be studying. She was always supposed to be studying. It was Christmas Eve though, and Phi refused to put up with that. Not tonight. So, after sneaking out, she went to the one place that she knew would take her one.

Sandrin’s house was small. Only he and his mom lived there. Lately, however, Phi was spending more and more time there as well. Sahara didn’t seem to mind. She always fed Phi, and hugged her, and asked her how she’d been, and congratulated her on every record-high test score she’d been forced to achieve. Phi very rarely called her anything other than Mom lately. Sandrin seemed to be adapting her her constant presence too. Which was good, really, because fending off his random attacks had been tiring.

When she rang the doorbell, Sahara opened it with a soft smile and welcomed her in. Sandrin loomed in the back and didn’t bother her very much.

Dinner was eaten, or, in Sandrin’s case, devoured. Dessert was delicious. Christmas music was lasted throughout the house. Candy canes were munched on. It was almost midnight when the trio settled on the couch for cocoa. Sahara surprised Phi with a small present. It was only a journal, but it was somehow very perfect.

When Sahara took their cups and left to wash them, Sandrin directly addressed Phi for the first time.

“Close your eyes.”

Phi raised an eyebrow suspiciously, but, trusting him not to do something mean on Christmas, she obeyed.

A weight settled into her lap.

“Open.”

She did. It was a small box, plain and unwrapped. Midly puzzled, she opened it. Inside the box was a silver chain connected to a small silver key. Her eyes widened.

“For me?”

“Duh. Is it girly enough for you?”

Phi nodded numbly in disbelief, her fingers gently running across the metal. “Thank you. It’s beautiful.”

Sandrin seemed to grow taller with his pride. “Good. Lemme out it on you.”

Phi nodded again and handed him the necklace. She turned around and he draped the jewelry over her neck. Her smile grew as the clasp was fit.

“I love it.”

Sandrin didn’t comment this time. He just gently tapped her shoulder and went back to watching the Christmas movie on TV. Phi’s cheeks turned pink as her thoughts lingered on the gorgeous gift. She’d have to give him something later. Something that was equally beautiful.

Sahara didn’t say anything when she came back. Later on, when she left the house, she hugged Sandrin for the first time. His face was priceless.
PostPosted: Thu Dec 29, 2011 10:49 pm


Stalker—SoraxHana

Her house was much too crowded. Moreover, it was crowded with people that she barely knew. She was a sophomore, and they were all juniors at the least. They were almost all strangers, and they were noisy, and some were drunk, and Sora got sick of it after a while. So, she managed to find the one store open on Christmas Eve—the drug store. The fluorescent lights and obnoxious penguin decorations somehow pleased her Christmas spirit more than her entire, overly-decorated house did. As she walked down the general hygiene isle, she concluded that this little walk out of the house had been a good decision.

By the time she reached the ice-cream section, she decided that this was obviously the worst mistake she had ever made in her life.

She tried to escape unnoticed, but had no such luck. She never had any luck like that. Instead, she ended up being stared at by her own personal, purple demon.

“Sora? I thought for sure that you’d be at your brother’s Christmas party.”

Sora laughed nervously and attempted to back away slowly. As usual, that failed when Hana managed to walk up just close enough to her to make her uncomfortable.

“It was really busy there.”

“Oh? Shame. If I knew that you’d be leaving I would have gone. I was trying to give you a night off.”

Sora could not tell if that was Hana being exceptionally considerate or even creepier than usual. That was probably a bad sign.

“Though now I must question if you’re stalking me.”

There was a glint in Hana’s eye. Danger! Danger! Sora needed to escape. The question was how. The aisle was narrow, and Hana was right in front of her, but maybe if she backed up, she could turn and run. “No, no! I’m not doing that. Trust me.” She started to move backwards when Hana’s smile widened dangerously.

“Let’s go for a walk!” She exclaimed, reaching out and swiftly grabbing Sora’s hand. The scary thing for Sora was that she wasn’t entirely certain that her heart had skipped a beat out of fear. Another frightening prospect? She officially had no escape. Past experiences had proven that once Hana had made physical contact, she was the one who decided when to let go.

Hana took them to a nearby park. Snow was just starting to stick to the ground. Was it childish that the thought of a white Christmas excited her? Probably. The walk through the gradually whitening park was surprisingly nice. Sure, Hana still had a deceptively strong grip on her hand, but she wasn’t being nearly as creepy as usual.

Sora should have been suspicious of that alone. She should have known better than to let her guard down around Hana. There was no one but herself to blame for what proceeded.

After a few minutes of snow fall, Sora got cold. Naturally, she shivered. Hana pounced. Her arms had snaked themselves around her chilled form in a matter of seconds. Sora’s heart was beating, but it wasn’t from fear, and that thought alone was enough to kick start her adrenaline. Sure, this was scary, but not in the way she would have anticipated.

“Cold? Let me warm you up, dear.”

OhnoOhnoOhnoOhnoOh—lips. Lips on her lips. Soft lips that tasted like mint. And then teeth, and tongue, and hands on her hips, and things were moving way, way too fast! Not that, with Hana in control, she really had much of a say. Then, suddenly, Sora found her own hands moving. Maybe they were possessed? They were on Hana’s hips, and she would have been scaring herself were she not so preoccupied with the movement of Hana’s hands. They were sliding under her shirt and moving up. She was quite possibly about to hyperventilate when Hana’s fingers found her chest. A gasp.

Time passed in such a manner that Sora was fuzzy by the time that Hana finally removed her lips and hands. Thus, it took her until Hana spoke to realize a rather important development.

“Well, thank you for the Christmas presents, Sora.”

Presents? She understood that the make-out session was one, but the other? A realization then struck Sora like lightening.

She no longer was wearing her bra.

“Well, goodnight, dear!” Hana chipperly began to speed away.

Sora’s eyed widened. “Wait! Hana! Come—ugh!!”

Dammit

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PostPosted: Fri Dec 30, 2011 1:35 am


From the Ashes
Summary: Bad judgements and big mistakes: the story of a separation.
Pairings: Corsik/Evana
Warnings:
- Not Christmas-themed: not light holiday fluff.
- Hot-off-the-press…ness, so it might embarrass me by tomorrow morning.
- It got away from me, and is way longer than I intended. Whoops.
Suggested Reading Music: It's Not Over - Secondhand Serenade


~

She’d been feeling strangely overheated for days now.

On Evana’s insistence, she and her lover – lover, that word always felt so weird when she applied it to Corsik – had been traveling north-northwest for the past two weeks. She wasn’t sure what was driving her so hard, but whenever they slowed down or stopped for a night’s rest, she got restless and angry. There was somewhere she had to be soon, and she wasn’t there yet. She had to be there soon, just had to be, and Corsik didn’t understand. He tried to reassure her that there was plenty of time; he pointed out that if she didn’t even know where she was going, how could it matter how soon they got there?

He just didn’t get it. Maybe she didn’t know right at the moment where she needed to be, but when she got there, she would recognize it. Already, something in her was pulling her – when she got off-course, she got more and more temperamental until Corsik wisely corrected their path. They hadn’t stopped moving for the past three days, because Evana was growing obsessed with the idea that they were running out of time. She hadn’t known that the undead or the eternal could get tired, but she was exhausted and she knew that Corsik was too. Though she was sorry for it, she couldn’t stop. She had so little time left, and she didn’t know why she felt like that.

~

As the end of the fourth night neared, Corsik grabbed her arm. “Evana,” he said, his voice strained to the breaking point – he’d been yelling at her for the past twenty minutes, and she hadn’t seemed to hear a word. “Stop for a damn second!”

“I can’t!” she screamed at him, yanking her arm away. “There’s no time – I have to hurry, I—!”

“Hurry where?” he demanded, frustrated. He’d been indulging her for the past two weeks or so because she’d seemed so frantic, but enough was enough. She had no idea where she was going and they’d been running north for four straight days without any kind of break, for reasons that she couldn’t explain to his satisfaction. Or, for that matter, to hers. She was as frustrated with her wildly-swinging emotions and clamouring instincts as he was, but knowing that didn’t irritate him any less. “You don’t know where you’re going or why you’re going there – so what the hell is your hurry?”

Evana closed her eyes and for a second, she seemed to be struggling against tears. That terrified him; she didn’t cry. They’d been together for almost a full century, and he had never seen her break down for anything less than complete tragedy – never just because he was yelling at her. And because it scared him, it also stoked his temper. “Don’t do that. Don’t. Stop that!”

Oddly enough, his words appeared to steady her. She took a deep breath and opened her eyes. “I…I don’t know. But we can’t stop, Corsik. I can’t stop. If you…” It was obvious that it took a lot for her to get the next few words out, but she managed it. “If you want to stop here, that’s all right. I can—”

“Shut up,” he told her tersely. “I’m not letting you run off by yourself.”

He was furious and confused that she would question him like that. How could she not have known that that was what he would say? She should have known him better; he would never leave her in this vulnerable a position by herself. Not alone here, so far away from what they both knew.

She managed a weak smile. “But we’re close,” she said. “I can feel that. I know we’re close. If we can just—”

She suddenly went very, very still. Corsik turned to her. “Evana?” He reached out to shake her shoulder and recoiled – her skin was so hot that there seemed to be waves radiating off it. In the cold winter air, it was even more noticeable.

~

Burning. Burning.

Finally she realized what was going on. Finally she understood. It had been so long since the last time it happened that the early premonitions had been lost in the mists of her memory, but now she knew what was happening to her. She opened her mouth, tried to warn Corsik to get away, get away as fast as he could – but nothing would come out. Her tongue seemed to be paralyzed. And the heat in her body kept building.

Under the fire was a kind of numb heartbreak.

We didn’t make it. We didn’t get there.

As the fire inside her got hotter, the fog burned off and she understood everything – what was happening to her, where she’d been trying to go, why she was going there, and the fact that it would now be another thousand years before she ever managed to find her way. And that was only if she made it through.

Will I ever see home again?

And then the fire consumed her.

~

Corsik didn’t understand what was going on. She was sick, something was seriously wrong with her – no one should ever get that hot. He was torn: one part of him told him to go to her and stay with her, that he couldn’t leave her in this condition, and the more practical side told him that if he didn’t find a way to cool her down, she was going to die. Though he’d been told she was a Phoenix, that didn’t even factor into his thoughts – she had never been this hot even when using her powers to the fullest extent that she knew how. Something was wrong.

Eventually the practical side won out – they’d passed a river not even half an hour’s run from here. He couldn’t carry her there; by this point he couldn’t even get near her. The heat radiating from her was too intense. But he had their water containers, and if he could bring back enough to cool her down, things might be okay. “I’ll be back,” he told her, but she was swaying back and forth and her eyes seemed to have almost filmed over. He didn’t know if she’d heard him, but he couldn’t wait and repeat himself – she needed to be cooled down and it needed to be now.

Though it cost him more than he’d ever believed he could give, he turned away from her and ran towards the river, its sound distant even to his hypersensitive hearing.

Behind him, Evana fell to her knees, staring across the barren, cold, grey-and-brown landscape, but seeing nothing.

~

The fire burns her endlessly. She doesn’t know how to make it stop, but though she knows it should hurt, it doesn’t – not anymore. Maybe she is in shock. Maybe she has just adapted. Perhaps in some part of her, she knows that she has been in this place before.

Fire hurts. It burns. It devours. It ends.

But it doesn’t end.

The fire eventually purifies the body of a thousand years of damage and pain. It heals, re-creates, corrects, and finally returns what it has taken. It reshapes the mind first, the heart, and then the body.

From inside the womb of flame where her ashes are slowly re-forming, her eyes begin to open.


~

He hadn’t factored in his exhaustion when he’d thought it would be a half-hour’s run. It took him longer than that. But through sheer willpower – and okay, panic – he’d made it. Filling all the containers he’d managed to grab (and what a sight that must have been for any animals near enough to see, a rogue vampire tearing across the cold rocky ground with a battleaxe strapped to his back and an assortment of canteens plus a collapsible bucket clanging off one another as they dangled from his arms), he tried to get up from the riverbank. Failed – his legs wouldn’t hold him. Tried again. Almost fell on his face into the river. But he was nothing if not stubborn, and got to his feet on the third try
(well how about that third time really is the charm)
and he turned to see the single most terrifying, glorious, heartbreaking picture of his life – one he would always be able to recall with perfect clarity later on, even when the rest of this scene had turned into a slurred mess of confusion and panic and fear and pain in his memories.

He saw the column of blue flame in the sky – it blazed higher than any wildfire but in a perfect cylinder, and he had never seen anything so beautiful. Like any true beauty, it was too gorgeous to last, and even while he watched in silent awe, it faded away into nothing, leaving behind only a sullen grey sky.

Finally, it clicked for him what must have happened. It still confused him – she was too young, surely she was too young – but it had to be so. Then the next thing occurred to him: she would be coming back, waking up on a rocky plain she’d never been on before…

And he wouldn’t be there. Abandoning the containers – they could always come and retrieve them later, it wasn’t like there was anyone around to steal the stupid things – he ran back towards where he’d seen the fire blaze up. He had to get there before she woke up. He couldn’t leave her to wake up alone and afraid.

But his weariness took its toll. He stumbled, and when his eyes closed, he fell. When he hit the ground, he was already out.

~

Evana’s eyes opened. She stared up into the sky for a long moment, trying to find the clarity that had come to her in the moment before the fire had taken everything away. But the fog over her mind apparently wasn’t one of the things that the rebirth would fix; she couldn’t remember whatever had come back to her in that moment.

Well, if it had been important, surely she would have remembered it, right?

She sat up, dusting herself off. Her clothes were gone, she noted ruefully – she thought she had a spare set in her bag, but—

Her thoughts went on mental arrest. Corsik was gone.

For a second, her mind was full of nothing but terror. Oh God, she’d killed him, she must have, she hadn’t warned him in time to get away from her and the fire had taken him just like it had taken her but he wouldn’t be reborn in it he was just dead and it was her fault for being so stupid and not knowing what was happening and not warning him and…

Then she looked at the bags. They hadn’t been much farther away from her than Corsik had been, but they were completely unharmed. What was more, they were open. She couldn’t tell if anything was gone, but she pieced things together and her temper started to simmer.

He’d left her? That son of a b***h had left her? After all this time, after all the promises and everything they’d been for each other, he’d just taken off?

She tried to calm herself, tried to rationalize. If their positions had been switched and he’d suddenly burst into flames with no warning whatsoever
(but he’d had warning he knew she was a Phoenix she’d told him he’d KNOWN)
she would have been a little freaked out, too. She might have run. But she would have come back, she thought, temper and shock colliding now. She would have come back for him once she’d realized what was going on. And he must have realized eventually – she’d never made a secret of what she was. Not with him.

But he hadn’t come back. Had her rebirth made him rethink his decision? Had he figured out what had happened, decided he couldn’t be bothered to deal with any more of that and just kept going? She couldn’t believe that of him, didn’t want to think it, and yet…he was gone. Standing up slowly and staggering a little from the sudden burden dumped on her heart, she made her way to the bags. She didn’t look to see what was gone; she didn’t care what he’d taken. After a hundred years, these things had been theirs, rather than his or hers. She didn’t want them – any of them. Lifting a hand that burned with blue fire, she reached towards the bags, and then stopped.

He might want them. Maybe he would change his mind and come back. Maybe he’d need something in there – unlikely but possible. She was angry, but that didn’t mean she wanted him to die of starvation or anything else – she wanted to make him suffer personally for abandoning her. And if he didn’t come back…well, there would be other travelers through here. Eventually, these might serve as a godsend for someone. She let the fire dissipate. Taking some clothing from the bag, she dressed, making a silent vow to get different things as soon as she could afford to.

She let her heart and mind fill with her rage so that she wouldn’t give in to the sorrow. The pain wrenching her heart could wait. She had to get away from here. She wouldn’t cry for that son of a whore. Not here.

Taking on her true Phoenix form, she took to the sky and arrowed off north – she knew he wouldn’t have gone north. Not by choice. He hated the north. Letting rage and pain dictate her actions, she flew as far from where she thought he’d have gone as she could possibly go in her freshly reborn state.

When she landed, she took on her human shape again.

And then she finally let herself cry.

~

When Corsik finally came out of his coma-like state, he looked up at the sky. It had been just past dawn when he’d gone running to the river. The sun was setting now.

He’d been out almost a full day.

And Evana was still where he’d left her, probably furious with him. He was going to have some serious explaining to do when he got there. Taking off at full speed, he made it to the (very) makeshift campsite—

Stopped. Stared.

Their things were there. The charred circle in the ground where Evana had been was there. This was the place. But Evana herself was nowhere to be seen.

He called for her – hesitantly, at first. Maybe she’d woken up and been confused; perhaps she’d tried looking for him. “Evana?”

No response. He raised his voice, tried again. “Evana!

Though there were no nearby mountains, he could have sworn he heard a mocking echo on the wind. But otherwise, there was nothing. Her senses were as good as his – she should be able to hear him if she was anywhere nearby. But there was no response.

The only way he could explain what he did next was a moment of sheer insanity. He started running – north, he thought crazily, she wanted to go north – but of course he saw nothing. Then he thought that maybe she’d returned to the site while he’d been racing off somewhere else, so he ran back. Of course she was still gone. He stood in the centre of the burned place for a moment, and though he couldn’t have said why, he felt that he could almost taste her feelings.

Rage. Betrayal. Pain.

And he understood that she wasn’t coming back.

The shock kept him immobilized for a few minutes, which stretched out into a few hours while he crouched there in the middle of the burned place that marked the last time he’d seen her. He’d thought she was sick. He’d tried to find a way to help her. And when she’d woken up, she had thought that he’d abandoned her.

Suddenly, he was full of a fierce kind of anger – the sort that burned hot and fast to hide the pain just underneath. How could she still think that of him? How could she not know him better than that? He stood up, his face going into a cold, set mask. She should ******** know it. She should know him. If she thought that running away was going to solve all her problems, she could damn well think again.

If her rebirth had scrambled her brains so badly that she thought he would abandon her when she needed him most, well, he would just have to remind her of how things really stood, wouldn’t he?

He left the bags where they were, but rearranged their contents neatly into the shape of a pair of wings as a sort of signal to her, should she ever come back to this spot. I was here. I did not leave you. If he’d known how to write, a note might have been better, but then again it might not – the weather on this plain tended to be fierce. All it would take was a wind that was a little too strong to blow it away.

Standing back, he examined the ‘note’ he had left for her one more time. Then he turned away and started walking north-northwest – the direction they had been heading. Maybe she was still trying to find the place that she had been wanting so badly.

He would find her again, and he would explain what had happened here. It might take centuries; he didn’t care if it took an eternity. There was simply no other option.

Because he’d promised to be there for her.

~

The night passed slowly in such a quiet little place. Not a single sound, humanoid or animal, marred the cold silence. At last, the sun rose, though it was invisible behind the clouds. The sky lightened from its unrelieved, starless black to a sullen, stormy grey.

Over the forlorn, abandoned little camp, a soft snow began to fall.
PostPosted: Fri Dec 30, 2011 1:15 pm


OMG!!! D: Silent, that was so sad! crying

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PostPosted: Fri Dec 30, 2011 1:39 pm


>.> Um...sorry. Kinda not in the holiday spirit, is it... sweatdrop Well, to make up for it, here's something that's very NOT sad.

Girl Talk
Summary: Acrivah’s blushing and Madeline's amused. Mikeal really should have seen this coming.
Pairings: Mikeal/Acrivah, um...really minor hints of potential Madeline/Amon?
Warnings:
- May cause some immature giggling
- Conceived at 3 AM
- Not meant to be taken seriously. At all.
Suggested Reading Music: Let’s Talk About Sex – Salt ‘n’ Pepa


~

Acrivah still didn’t know how she’d been talked into this. But then, Maddy was very persuasive. It didn’t help that Acrivah was terrible at saying no in general, and she would have felt awful saying no to Mikeal’s sister – particularly to such a friendly request. “Well, I need to get out of the house, that’s all. Want to come with me?” After all this time getting to know her, and when the question was paired with the wide-eyed hopeful look, how was she supposed to say no to that? It was reasonable, she rationalized. How bad could it be?

So she’d said “Um…sure, okay,” and now she was sitting here in a quiet corner of the tavern, trying her best to avoid notice. It wasn’t as hard as she’d thought it would be – it was quite dim in here, since it was in that awkward hour where it wasn’t dark enough to light any lamps or turn on any lights, but too dark for there to be a lot of natural light from the windows. Madeline, on the other hand, seemed to shine in the dim light as she returned from the bar. Acrivah noticed with mild alarm that Maddy was carrying two glasses, even though she’d said that she didn’t need anything. The other girl had only laughed before heading off.

Oh God, oh God, why was she here?

Maddy sat down in the seat across from her and pushed one of the glasses, full of a mysterious brown substance, towards Acrivah. She eyed it warily for a few seconds while Madeline tried – and failed – to stifle her giggles. “Oh, don’t worry, Acrivah,” the blonde said airily. “I hardly spiked it at all.” Acrivah’s eyes widened and she squeaked; at the sound, Maddy nearly choked from laughing. “I’m kidding, I’m kidding,” she managed when she got her breath back. “It’s just…actually I’m not sure what it is, some kind of juice I think, but I don’t think it’s alcoholic.” She shot a suspicious glance at the bar before returning her attention to Acrivah and leaning forward, resting her elbows on the table, chin on her folded hands. “So. Let’s talk.”

Acrivah tried to look mildly curious rather than actively terrified, but there was an unholy gleam in Madeline’s eyes that told her yes, yes she should be scared. “A-about…um, what?”

Maddy waved a hand cheerfully. “Oh, I don’t know. Life. Men. How you’re doing with my big brother after all this time. Things like that.”

Too late, Acrivah realized what was going on here. “…Oh, um, I…well…it’s fine. It’s good. I…” She fumbled for words. Madeline was sitting quite patiently, occasionally taking a sip of whatever that blue substance in her glass was, but Acrivah knew better than to think that she’d forgotten her question – well, more like her pointed statement. Maddy was just waiting for her to manage to put together a coherent answer. “It’s…good,” she finished. She knew that that wasn’t a good enough answer, because it was so much more than just good, but it was so confusing and different and wonderful that she didn’t really know how to explain it.

Maddy seemed to sense that, though, giving her a sympathetic nod. “Not used to talking about your love life, are you?”

Acrivah stared very determinedly into her glass, not wanting to look up at the other girl. “I…um…well…” Before she could talk herself out of it, she blurted out, “I don’t have much to talk about.” Then her cheeks went fiery red. Why had she said that? She saw Maddy slowly lift a brow, and then she watched the comprehension dawn.

“So you’re a virgin in every way, huh?”

If she’d thought it was embarrassing before… “Um, I…well…”

The blonde took another very deliberate sip of the blue stuff. “That means yes. Do you want to keep it that way?”

Acrivah blinked. Made a little noise that might have been either “Um” or “Help.” Then she looked back into her drink, which she still hadn’t touched other than to use as a convenient staring point. “Um…maybe…maybe not?” she finally squeaked. “But…”

Maddy grinned, leaning back in her chair. “As long as you’re saying maybe you want to keep it that way, that’s the same as yes, honey. And if you want to remain innocent, no one’s going to judge you.” She glanced at the glass of blue…whatever. “Why don’t you think about it for a couple of minutes and then get back to me.” She took another casual sip, and Acrivah felt her cheeks burning as she continued to stare into her drink and turn it over in her mind.

Finally, she managed to take her eyes off the brown liquid and up to Maddy’s. “No.”

“No what?” Madeline asked, though the twinkle in her eyes told Acrivah she already knew exactly what she was trying to say.

“No, I don’t want to keep it that way,” she muttered. “But I don’t know…how to tell him that. I’ve never…um.” Her cheeks were bright pink and she was staring at the table like it was the most fascinating thing she’d ever seen. “I’ve never…”

“Seduced anyone?” Madeline suggested sweetly. Acrivah tried to will the fire in her cheeks to go down, but she couldn’t seem to cool the blush.

“Um. Yes. I mean no. I mean…”

Madeline bit her lower lip, but couldn’t seem to keep the smile down. “I know what you mean. Well then, honey, it’s a good thing you’ve got me to talk you through it.”

Acrivah blinked. “You know how?” she asked, then immediately wished she hadn’t.

But Maddy didn’t seem offended. Instead, she laughed easily. “As a matter of fact.”

Acrivah scuffed her foot, staring down at the table again. “Could you…um…?”

“Show you?” Maddy finished. “Find me someone who doesn’t mind playing the game, and then sure. Can’t say I can think of anyone who wouldn’t mind being used for show-and-tell purposes, though.”

There was a thoughtful silence, and then Acrivah offered tentatively, “I could ask Amon.” She and Amon had settled a few of their worst problems over the past several months, and though there was still a lot of awkwardness between them for reasons Acrivah didn’t fully understand, they had begun to rebuild their friendship after a fashion. More importantly for Acrivah’s current suggestion, she trusted him to help if she asked him to.

She wasn’t prepared for Maddy’s reaction. The blonde’s eyes narrowed and she definitively shook her head. “Not him. Absolutely not him. Not even for you, honey.” But…Acrivah looked closer while trying to appear like she wasn’t. Was there a little bit of a flush to the other girl’s face, or was it just a trick of the light? “I doubt he’d be interested in being a prop, and besides, he’s not my type.”

Acrivah suppressed a smile. Maybe she wasn’t the only one who spent a lot of time in denial. “Are you sure?” Judging by their initial reactions to one another before Amon had gone ahead and put his foot in it, she wouldn’t have said so.

“What? Yes, of course I’m sure.” Madeline smoothly changed the subject. “Anyway, since I don’t have anyone to help me show you, I guess we’re just going to have to talk it through.” Setting aside her empty glass and looking pointedly at Acrivah’s untouched one, she said cheerfully, “And there’s a lot to talk about, so let’s get started.” Getting to her feet, she grinned. “Come for a walk with me.”

With only a second to wonder – again – exactly what she’d gotten herself into, Acrivah got up and followed Madeline out.

As Maddy opened the door to leave the tavern, her first words trailed back in on the wind. “Okay, so the first thing we need to do is teach you how to walk sexy.”

And as the door swung closed, those patrons closest to the door would hear Acrivah’s terrified squeak.
PostPosted: Fri Dec 30, 2011 9:51 pm


Aaaaand last one for the night. Promise. >.>

Show and Tell
Summary: Sandrin tries to figure out how to tell Phi what he thinks of her. Marshy’s Christmas present.
Pairings: Sandrin/Phi
Warnings:
- May cause symptoms ranging from toothache to diabetic coma.
- Pure fluff.
- Silent's first attempt at writing a character that's not hers.
Suggested Reading Music: How Can I Tell You – Cat Stevens


~

She was back.

Sandrin sat moodily on his bed, legs swinging – Sahara had taken one look at Phi’s tearful face and gently shooed her son into his room so that she could talk to Phi, or more likely, listen to Phi while the girl poured out all her troubles to his mother. The boy had gotten used to not being the focus of his mother’s attention anymore, now that she had to split her love and time between two children, but that didn’t mean he’d liked it. He’d resented Phi’s intrusion into his life, and it was only very recently that he’d begun to realize that he didn’t mind Phi as a person. In fact, he could almost think she was kind of…okay.

Hence why he’d begun to disappear to his room every time Phi came over, even if his mother didn’t ask him to give them some ‘girl time’. He didn’t usually think that anyone was ‘okay’. He didn’t like people. But he was getting to be more comfortable around Phi, and it occasionally crossed his mind that she was kinda cute. He shifted awkwardly. It had bothered him to see the tears on her face, though he’d never have been able to say why. He wanted to know what the matter was. But his mother had – gently, but very firmly – kicked him out of the room.

It only took him about thirty seconds of debating with himself before he walked to the connecting door that separated his room from Sahara’s. As he stood there, Ishabel hopped down from the bed where she’d been curled up on his pillow. She rubbed up against his leg, and absent-mindedly, he knelt to pet her while he listened to what was going on on the other side of the door.

He didn’t hear much. While he’d been thinking, sitting there on his bed, Phi must have told Sahara most of the story. But what he did hear made him go cold.

“No one loves me for me,” he heard Phi say.

His bright blue eyes flickered, went chilly and cold. He stood up, intending to shove the door open and yell at her for saying anything like that. Before he could, though, Ishabel butted his leg with her head and meowed loudly at him. Don’t be a fool.

He shoved his hands into his pockets and stalked back to his bed. Sitting down on it and watching Ishabel hop up to settle herself on his lap, he muttered, “Well, she’s wrong.”

The cat meowed at him several times. And of course barging in there and yowling at her is the best way to tell her so.

Sandrin scowled at her. “I thought you were supposed to be on my side,” he grumbled.

Ishabel purred at him contentedly. And I am. I make sure you do not behave like a foolish kitten. She licked his wrist with a fiery tongue as she continued in her rumbling purr. If you want to tell your mother’s she-kitten that she is wrong, you cannot just yowl at her until she understands you. Showing is better than telling.

The Neko looked thoughtful. He wasn’t much good at showing. Almost without thinking, his eyes drifted to the little pack of parchment sitting on the nightstand.

No, he wasn’t much good at showing how he felt, and if he tried it would probably just start another fight. Not that he minded fighting with Phi – sometimes it was kinda fun – but not today. No, not today. Setting Ishabel onto the bed, he got up and picked up a sheet of the parchment. Picking up the pen that went with it, he looked at it for quite some time. It took him a while to decide just what to say.

Maybe there was a way he could show and tell.

After a little while of silent introspection, he started to write. When he was finished, he blew on the note to dry the ink, rolled it up neatly, and hunted through the room until he found a bit of ribbon – undoubtedly a piece that fell off some former renter’s dress – to tie it with.

Just as he finished, Sahara opened the door and said gently, “Sandrin, you can come in, if you’d like.”

He translated that mentally to Phi is about to leave. “Okay,” he said.

When he walked in, he found that he’d misjudged a little. Phi was already out the door. Turning around, he told his mom, “I’ve just gotta go do something quick. Be right back.” He was out the door before she could question him.

~

Phi had elected to walk back to where she was currently staying – anything to keep from getting back to the sad, empty room, so full of her mother’s presence after the letter she’d received. Her mom was still keeping an eye on her – even so far away from home, she still wasn’t good enough.

“Hey, Phi! Wait!”

Even though she wanted to ignore the voice, her mother’s training prevented it, and so she stopped and waited politely as Sandrin caught up to her. His breath was steaming in the chilly winter air, as was hers. Now that he’d caught up, though, he seemed a little embarrassed. “Uh…” He scuffed his feet for a few seconds, and then he abruptly shoved a rolled-up piece of parchment into her hands. Confused, she began to open it.

“No!” he exclaimed, taking a long step back as though he was about to turn tail and run. “Um…I mean, not yet. Wait until I’ve gone, okay?”

Now about ninety percent sure that there was a spider or stinkbug or some other kind of nasty prank inside the rolled-up paper, Phi scowled. “Why not now?”

Now Sandrin looked really alarmed. “I…just…fine, whatever, do what you want,” he muttered. As soon as she started to untie the ribbon again, however, he bolted. Phi thought about giving chase and demanding to know what he’d done, but then changed her mind – she knew where to find him if there was some kind of mean joke in here. Instead, she cautiously unrolled the sheet. Nothing at all fell out. There was nothing on it but four neatly written words.

You’re wrong.

I do.


She stared at it uncomprehendingly for a few minutes, and then thought back to her conversation with Sahara. As realization dawned, she began to smile even as a pink flush came to her cheeks.

For the rest of the walk home, she didn’t even feel the cold.

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PostPosted: Sat Dec 31, 2011 12:56 am


Sleepless Nights—PhixSandrin
A gift for Silent! <3

This was quite possibly the most embarrassing situation that Phi had been in. Sahara was letting her sleep in a guest room despite not having paid any rent, but it was a room without any windows. It was dark, and Phi did not handle the dark well. In fact, she was very, very close to hyperventilating. Still though, she couldn’t stand the idea of going to tell Sahara or Sandrin of her fear. Sandrin would probably just laugh, and she felt bad enough what with her crying to Sahara all of the time. She didn’t need to bother the woman with these stupid things.

Still though, it was harder for her to breathe in the dark.

It was then that Phi remembered Sandrin’s pet—Ishabel. The cat glowed in the dark, right? Well, surely Sandrin wouldn’t mind if she borrowed her! Right? Right. Good. Phi was glad that she had this talk with herself.

Quietly sneaking out of bed and down the hall, Phi tried to keep away the thoughts that something was about to grab her and smash her and kill her and clip her wings and—stop. This was ridiculous.

Phi took nice, steady breaths as she pushed open the door to Sandrin’s bedroom. The thought suddenly struck her that he might sleep naked. He didn’t…right? Phi almost doubled back after that thought, but held strong. If that happened, she could just close her eyes and scream or something.

Thankfully, judging from the faint glow that Ishabel gave off, Sandrin wore pants to sleep. Quickly, Phi thanked every god and goddess that she had ever heard of. Then, carefully, she crept over and began to slowly extract Ishabel from the room.

Ishabel did not take well to such.

Immediately the cat started mewling and Sandrin woke up not long after that. He stared at her and she, hands still around the cat, could only stare back.

Finally Sandrin managed to speak. “Why are you in my room?” Phi only stared back with wide eyes. “Why are you grabbing onto my cat?” Ishabel mewled again and Phi began to splutter.

“I-I, it’s, I mean, nothing? This is all a dream! Go back to sleep. Go baaaaaaack to sleeeeeeep.” Phi did her best to make her voice sound all distorted and ghost like.

Sandrin was not impressed.

It took another minute of Sandrin’s dead stare to finally get Phi to speak again. She sighed and let go of Ishabel, shoulders sinking down. Her head hung low as she spoke, fully embarrassed. “I’m afraid of the dark.” Phi’s voice was barely a whisper.

Sandrin paused and stared. He was about to laugh when it suddenly struck him that this wasn’t a joke at all. Phi was genuinely scared of the dark, and, childish as that was, it made sense for her to try and steal away Ishabel. He sighed loudly, shaking his head.

“Fine. Take her.”

Phi’s smile grew. Well, that went much better than she had imagined that it would. Only, when she tried to pull Ishabel off of the bed, the cat dug in its claws and cried out so loudly that she was almost sure that Sahara would wake up. Tears sprung to her eyes. No! She needed some light. Otherwise she wouldn’t sleep, and monsters would grab her, and she would hyperventilate, and her breath would get so clogged that she would die, and—Sandrin began to panic slightly as he noticed Phi entering a mental breakdown.

“Ishabel!” He quietly hissed, glaring down the cat. Ishabel mewled in response. Sandrin did not fully approve of her plan. There was a stand off that only ended when Phi took in a wheezy breath. “Dammit! Fine.”

Sandrin was not pleased, but he followed Ishabel’s demands anyway. He got out of bed and scooped her up in his arms before looking down at Phi. “Come on.” As they started to exit his room, she grabbed his hand. He didn’t have the heart or the desire to tell her to let go.

When they got to her room, Ishabel bounded out of his arms and settled at the foot of Phi’s bed. Just seeing her faint glow light up the corners of her bedroom brought her immense comfort. Carefully, keeping her eyes on Ishabel, she slid into her bed. There. That felt better. Her throat was opening up again, and she could breathe once more. Phi was about to sleep when she noticed Sandrin setteling down next to her bed. “What are you doing?”

“Sleeping here. Ishabel’s rules.” Ishabel sure was a strange one. Gently, however, Phi smiled.

“Thank you.”

Sandrin shrugged a bit uncomfortably. This was all ridiculous, but it didn’t bother him nearly as much as he would have thought. Instead, he just sort of felt relieved that Phi was okay. It was strange, and very new, but he was much too tired to care. His eyes were heavy, but Ishabel hissed very softly at him to wake up.

Right. He promised that he make sure she was asleep. So he waited. Thankfully, it only took five minutes. After that, Sandrin was fast asleep. The last thought to cross his mind simply being how pretty Phi could be when she was asleep.
PostPosted: Sun Jan 01, 2012 2:50 am


Dust to Dust
Summary: They have different ways of grieving, but pain is always pain.
Pairings: Mikeal/Acrivah, Madeline/Amon
Warnings:
- Death and reflection on same. Apparently the holidays make me depressed.
- First attempt to write Amon, and I don't think I got it quite right.
- Bounces between several time periods. The tense switches between past and present; it’s meant to do that.
- Didn’t turn out quite the way I intended it to. It’s kinda…surreal and weird. I don’t know; let me know what you think?
Suggested Reading Music: The Dance – Garth Brooks


~

Denial.

Snapshot: She stands beside the gaping wound in the earth, holding a single flower in her hands.

He’s been gone for only a week, and she misses him so badly she can’t believe she’s still breathing. The pain is fierce and clawing, centring around her heart. She’s hidden herself away in the house ever since, unable to go out and face the world – because to go out there, to expose herself to the condolences of friends and the sympathy of strangers, would just drive the truth home. It hurts her too much; she cannot bear their kindness. She has not left the house since his funeral. Maybe in a secret part of her mind, she thinks that as long as she does not acknowledge it, he is not really gone.

(how can he be gone when i can feel him everywhere?)

She shuffles through the metal cards. They’re quiet now, as empty as the house she lives in…alone, now. Well, not alone…she has Akoro. When all the others scattered, Akoro elected to stay behind with her. She understands his reasoning, and she is grateful for it, but at the same time it hurts her every time she sees him. She suspects he feels much the same way. They live in the house because for now, she has nowhere else to go, and right now she couldn’t bear to leave anyway. Being surrounded by the memories of a lifetime of love is the only thing keeping her going. So she keeps everything. She won’t put anything away; she can’t even bring herself to close the book that he left open on the kitchen counter that last day.

(he hasn’t finished it yet why would i put it away?)

A few days after he’d died, she’d picked up the book and read the page it was open to. It had been a newer book, one that he hadn’t gotten around to reading until just then, and as she’d turned the page it had struck her that he would never do that. He would never turn the page and find out what happened next. Very carefully, she’d set the book down, as though it were made of glass. Then she’d retreated to the guest room for the rest of the day.

(don’t think about it it’s not true as long as you don’t think about it)

Today, though, she sits alone in the back garden, quietly shuffling and re-shuffling the deck of cards. Akoro sits with her, and his tail gently sweeps back and forth, raising dust. She doesn’t really know what to do with herself, but she can’t bear to be in the house anymore today. Every time she hears a squeak or a rustle, she looks up, half-expecting him to come through the door with an apologetic smile and a crazy but somehow perfectly believable story about where he’s been for these past few days. But it never happens, and even though she knows it will never happen, she still finds tears coming to her eyes every time it doesn’t.

(because maybe maybe just maybe someday it will)

She just moves mechanically from day to day. She doesn’t look to the future.

Maybe she can’t.

Snapshot: She sits still, holding one card up to the light, staring at it as though it holds all the answers.

~

Anger.

Snapshot: He stands at the doorway, his key in the lock for the last time.

He got rid of absolutely everything he had that reminded him of her as soon as he came home from watching them put her into the ground. He didn’t want to see anything of hers around, because every time he did, a wound trying to heal ripped itself open and bled again. But he didn’t throw it away or even give it away; instead, he put all the years’ worth of accumulated things into boxes and stored them in a friend’s attic.

(stop it why are you doing this?)

Though he put away all the physical cues, he couldn’t box up his memories and store them away until the pain faded. It hurt to remember, and he wanted to close it off in his mind. He altered his routine, and when that wasn’t enough, he said goodbye to the few friends he had here and left town. They’d been irritatingly understanding about it. He would have preferred it if one of them had tried to argue with him about it, tried to convince him to stay and ‘face it.’ Then he would have had a target for the anger that seemed to have taken permanent residence in a fire just under his heart. It would have been easier to have someone to be angry with, someone to blame. But they had simply told him to keep in touch, and they’d let him go.

(what did I do to deserve this?)

He’d walked away from the town and the life he had built there. No matter how many times he’d been tempted to look back, he’d kept his eyes ahead. The future started now, he told himself. The last part of his life was over. He would close the door on it, and he would move on. And for a little while he’d been able to fool himself into thinking that he had been able to do that, but sooner or later the pain would break through again; he would see something, or hear something, or just think of something that inevitably led his thoughts back to her and the life they had shared. Even if the thought was as simple as She would have loved this, it would always be enough to make his heart twist.

(you said that you loved me)

For a while, he tried to tell himself that he would never go back. If it hurt this much while he was wandering, far away from everything that could possibly remind him of her, how much more would it hurt him if he went back? But even while he’d told himself that, he had known that one day he would have to go back; he had friends there, and one day he would have to face the memories and everything that they brought. That day didn’t have to be today, he told himself. It would be one day soon. He couldn’t keep going forever. One day, he was going to have to stop running. But it didn’t have to be now. It didn’t have to be right now.

And even while he kept telling himself that, he slowly began to make his way back home.

(how could you just leave me here alone?)

He wasn’t very far away, perhaps a week’s travel, when the news reached him; he supposed his friends must have been keeping an eye out for his return. It was hard to remember exactly how he’d reacted when he first heard it, but he knew that his mind had gone eventually to his best friend, the one who’d done her best to support him even when he’d been swamped with the first wave of grief, even while he’d been lashing out at everyone and anyone. She had to be devastated, and as he had, she would need someone who understood.

Finally, he had a reason to go back.

Snapshot: he stands on the road that leads into town, staring down the street.

~

Depression.

Snapshot: She sits in the forest, her back against an old oak tree. Her arms are wrapped around one of the necks of a two-headed dog.

It has been months since the last time she saw him.

She finds herself sleeping a lot now. She just doesn’t know what else to do, aside from obsessively caring for a house that really doesn’t get messy enough to need that kind of care – it’s much too big for her, rattling around in it like the last pea in a can. If it wasn’t for Akoro and his relentless nagging, she would be forgetting to eat, or really take care of herself at all. Sometimes she still cries, but mostly she just goes through her silent, cold days and feels empty. It’s a very quiet kind of sadness but it’s pervasive, and she can’t seem to pull herself out of it. She knows that she must – she can only imagine how it would hurt him to see her like this – but she doesn’t know how. It feels somehow disloyal to try to be happy.

(everything just feels so cold now)

She has withdrawn from most of the friends she’d made over her life. It’s not because she wants to, exactly; she misses them. But they don’t understand, not even the ones who knew him best. They eventually try to draw her into conversation. They ask her how she’s doing, if she’s okay in that house all by herself, and she doesn’t know what to tell them. She doesn’t want to worry them. But she cannot bring herself to tell them that she’s all right, because they would see the lie in her eyes. So she avoids them and closes herself in, because she can see no other way. Perhaps she simply doesn’t want to see another way.

(i don’t know what to do anymore)

The only time she leaves the house is in the darkest part of the night, when hardly anyone would be awake. The shadows cast by the trees and the cool quiet of the forest gives her a little comfort, and she’ll take whatever she can get by this point. Sometimes she just goes out to the woods. More and more often, though, she finds herself drawn to the graveyard. She sits quietly and listens; she doesn’t talk. There’s no way to know what she hears while she sits – even she doesn’t know. But when she is alone in the graveyard, with nothing but the whispers of the wind as company, she feels better. There’s a sort of peace that she finds here.

(i miss you)

Soon she goes there every night for the comfort that she finds nowhere else. Sometimes she only lingers for a few minutes, sometimes she stays until the sun rises. Akoro goes with her sometimes, but more often she goes alone. It isn’t the same when she is sharing that quiet with another presence, even one as non-invasive as Akoro can be. She would rather be by herself, and she knows how to defend herself now, so there is no need for the demon-hound to be concerned.

(i love you)

It sometimes scares her that she can’t remember the last thing she said to him, or he to her. She’s tried and tried to recall it, though how knowing would give her any comfort, she isn’t sure.

So she stays alone at the gravesite, and she tries to remember.

Snapshot: She kneels beside a grave marker, her head tilted as though listening. The moonlight lights her face.

~

Acceptance.

Snapshot: She sits at the top of the hill, surrounded by headstones. She looks startled; her head is slightly turned away.

“Acrivah. I thought I might find you here.”

To say that she is startled is an understatement. No one has ever been here before, and what’s more, she knows that voice. Tentatively, she turns her head to identify the source. “Amon?” she asks. She’d thought he was gone for good; when Amon says that he is done with a place, he usually means it. Besides, she doesn’t really want to see anyone right now. But he doesn’t seem to notice her subtle ‘go-away’ signals – instead, he sits down beside her. Once he does, she sees the sorrow in his eyes and understands his words: he’d thought that he might find her here, but he has not come here to find her. He has come for his own reasons.

She can understand that.

For a while, they sit together in silence, both of them remembering other lives: lives that feel like they were over centuries ago, and yet like they ended just yesterday. Strangely enough, she is the first one to break the hush that has descended. “Amon?”

He looks up, and she knows that he knows what she is going to ask. “Yes?”

“…Does the pain ever go away?”

He seems to consider the question for a few minutes. “No,” he says at last. “But you live with it.”

She is satisfied, and there is another long stretch of silence. It is not the awkward quiet that she has gotten used to, the one that suggests the other person is hunting for a topic of conversation. There is an unspoken understanding in it. Each of them knows what the other is feeling, because they have both gone through the loss. They do not have to pretend to be all right or try to accept kindly-meant words that burn like acid. For now, it is okay to just be quiet, and to know that neither of them is alone.

Snapshot: They stand together between the two headstones. Behind them, the sun is just beginning to rise.

SilentShadowDreamer

Omnipresent Sex Symbol


LovetoCauseMayhem
Vice Captain

PostPosted: Sun Jan 01, 2012 4:35 pm


*sniffles*

I really, REALLY LOVE IT. <3

I've written something similar in kinda the same type of format. It's really hard to balance the rawness of the thoughts with the beauty of the words, but you've achieved as such very nicely. <3

It makes me sad that eventually it'll have to come to this.
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