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 Posted: Sun Aug 10, 2014 5:45 pm
Fourth week, nearly a month now. She let the teacups fall from her hands into the sink, a sob escaping. A month pregnant, what was she going to do. How was she going to do this. She couldn't.
Her hands reached for the phone, dialing Arilee's number and practically pleading the other woman to come over. She didn't give much details over the phone, but she didn't doubt that Arilee would spare the moment and hopefully Fai wouldn't take up too much of her time.
Being a Dark Mirror Senshi and mother/wife didn't leave a lot of time for friends, but she'd make it brief. She needed to get away.
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Posted: Mon Aug 11, 2014 5:30 am
Thankfully, keeping up the pretense of a good, docile citizen wasn't that hard. At least, not to Arilee. And she was equally thankful that, at least on the very surface, things weren't at the point of complete '1984'. Still. She had to be careful as she ran for her friend's place. Couldn't make it look too urgent or the ones watching would wonder what the hurry was.
Fortunately, Arilee had several years worth of experience in annoyed chunnering and made full use of that, occasionally pulling out her phone to check the time and managing to loudly 'mutter' about idiot friends panicking over surprise mother-in-law visits.
It was a shitty excuse, but it was just normal and stupid enough that she'd probably be left alone. Reaching Fai's place, she hammered on the door, foot tapping as she waited to be let in.
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Posted: Mon Aug 11, 2014 5:04 pm
Fai was already waiting by the door, swinging it open and pulling Arilee in, smaller arms wrapping around the woman.
"Ari...Ari I don't know what to do..." It was obvious by the tear trails, still gushing tears and raspy voice that Fai had yet to stop crying.
"I'm so scared and So excited and so scared and--and--" She was rambling, shutting the door behind her with a forceful click. Only then did she let her friend go.
"S..Sorry. Sorry jesus, Let me get some tea, Tea will help. Do you want tea?"
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Posted: Tue Aug 12, 2014 6:09 am
Feeling herself pulled in through the door, Arilee felt very much alarmed at being confronted by a crying, clinging and slightly soggy Failyn. Trying her best to pat Fai reassuring on the head, she was grateful when the door was shut and she was released. On the plus side, if anyone had been watching her, they'd just assume this was some type of lover's spat or domestic disturbance. Hopefully. Maybe?
"Whoa, whoa whoa," she held up her hands and resisted the urge to grab her friend and shake her a little. "Take a sec, breathe. Okay? Okay. What happened? Are you okay?"
If someone had attacked Failyn, the scared part would have been a given. But not 'excited'. So, she hadn't been attacked. Had Magiore defected? No, if that had been the case, she doubted that Fai would be sitting around crying and wringing her hands.
"If tea helps, by all means, make yourself a cup. I'll just have some water for now."
Staring down at the other girl, Arilee finally sighed and reached into her pocket for a pack of kleenex. Taking a wad, she grabed Failyn's chin and started trying to mop up some of the tears.
"Better go clean your face up first, girl. Keep crying like that and your eyes are gonna swell shut."
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Posted: Tue Aug 12, 2014 4:26 pm
"No. No I am okay. But I'm not okay." she nodded, running into the kitchen. She opted for water too since she didn't want to bother with the tea. She returned, only to gesture Arilee to the couch.
"Sorry, Sorry." She got back up and grabbed a roll of tissues, bringing them out to dab at her eyes and blow her nose. "A crying mess. this is what this war does to us women. Makes all crying messes." She rambled before taking a deep breath.
"Okay...Okay...i'm better. I can do this." Inhale, exhale. "I'm sorry, I panicked and called you in whatever you were doing." she repeated before looking at Arilee.
"I'm pregnant with Magiore's baby." She stated bluntly, her hand going to her stomach and curling around her side. "I'm pregnant with his baby." She repeated and looked up, "And it's effecting my senshi powers. I don't know what to do..." What if she was discovered? What if she couldn't defend herself anymore. Tears started to well up. "I don't know what to do Arilee."
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Posted: Thu Aug 14, 2014 5:37 am
Of all the possible scenarios where Fai would be crying, this one was not even up in the Top 10. Arilee was vaguely aware of her jaw dropping as she stared blankly at her friend, kleenex hand frozen in place in the space between them.
Pregnant. Failyn was pregnant. Oh sweet holy <********>. Snap out of it, she cursed herself silently. She needs you right now.
"Uhhh... okay. Pregnant. Yes. Does... Magiore know?"
It wasn't the best of questions, but it would give her time to work through her own shock. Dropping the kleenex on the table, she ran both hands through her hair and did her best to not look or sound like an utter idiot.
"Okay. This is going to be okay. First things. Don't try to power up. The further along you get, it's just going to be impossible anyway. Next thing. Figure out a place where you will be safe and we're taking you there as soon as possible. Today by preference."
She was reasonably sure that Magiore wouldn't mind if they hid Failyn away where she'd be safe. But he was Negaverse. And she had no idea how they'd view it. Probably try to turn Fai into some kind of brood mare or something equally horrible.
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Posted: Sat Aug 16, 2014 6:38 pm
"Magiore knows...Oh he um..." She rubbed at her face..."He's going to join me at the Safe Haven, but not right now. I need..." She made a small distressed sound. "I didn't...We didn't think...I didn't think..." She made more small sounds, "Pregnant." She brought her hand back down to her stomach.
"Y...You know?" Fai's eyes widened, "S...So nothing is wrong with my powers? Th...do they just do that?" She rubbed her face. "Safe Haven. I need to go to Safe Haven. It's the only place. Dra-Hydrus can help me until Magiore gets there. And all the residents. I'll be safer there." She breathed, "But..But how will I get there? I can't sneak out of the town without my powers, and Civilians..."
It must've not occurred her to ask Chariklo to take her by dark mirror, because she never asked her friend to do that except that one time she had almost been caught.
"I can pack stuff tonight. I can pack a few essentials. I have my money in another account." She brought her hands up to her face. "Arilee. What am I going to do? What about all the others that need help in the city?"
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Posted: Sun Aug 17, 2014 6:48 am
Oddly, it was Failyn's state of mild panic that brought Arilee out of her own. Shoulders relaxing, she aimed an affectionate cuff at Fai's hair and actually smiled.
"Silly. Ava was pregnant, remember? I've been through this."
She wisely refrained from stating the obvious that of course they hadn't been thinking. Otherwise, they would not be sitting in Failyn's living room having twin panic attacks. She also refrained from telling her friend that Magiore had to be careful. Very likely he already was painfully aware of that fact. And Fai didn't need any extra worry.
"Right, Safe Haven then. If you've got folks who can look after you there, it's probably the best place. As for how you get there," she sighed in mock exasperation and gave her friend a gentle nose-beep. "Honey, remember who you're talking to. Have mirror, will travel. I mean, I assume that you guys have a full length mirror around here somewhere."
Leaning across, she gave Fai's knee a reassuring squeeze and planted a kiss on her forehead.
"You're going to survive, Princess Fussybutt. Go pack what you need and I'll help. Take whatever clothes and medicines you're going to need and the few small things you can't live without, like pictures of your family or any small family heirlooms. Come on, let's get your face cleaned up and we can start packing."
Standing, she offered her hand to the other woman and smiled encouragingly. She had no answer for the last question. And she knew that sometimes, you had to put your own welfare before the welfare of others. Failyn was pregnant now. She had to think about herself and the baby. Anyone needing help in the city would find it from other sources than Sailor Mintaka.
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Posted: Wed Aug 20, 2014 7:52 pm
Introduction- I didn't come here with anything in mind to write about, we're just letting it flooow.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=endscreen&v=YI2XuIOW3gM&NR=1
Here is the song I'm currently listening to. It's the first time I've heard it/this artist, but It's pretty pleasant. Kinda background music though, not like I'd listen to it going "wow, i really want to hear that song." It's just...there.
I'm trying to think of something to do. It seems like I have so few options, though i'm sure there are many. I'm just being lazy.
A list of things that could be done.
-Internet. keep interneting it.
-Read Let It Snow - a cute little winter story compilation. John Green's one of the authors. I've already read it though, i've been making it through my second time. Last time I read it was a few years ago.
-French. Learn more o' that french.
( new song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gSjZpaQu75c I first listened to this in ...8th grade? I liked it very much for a few months. Then I stopped. But it's still pleasant)
-Unicycle. I haven't practiced in forever. I could try to suck less at that.
-Hoola hoop. Simple. easy peasy. I could put on a record while I do that, so then i could listen to music AND hoola hoop, thus feeling like i'm 2x entertained!
-watch a movie on the netflix. But I don't know what I'd watch. I keep watching foreign movies that look promising but end up sucking a little. The last one i watched was called I'm A Cyborg, But That's Ok. ..it was interesting...but dragged on a bit. and i didn't feel any benefit for watching it.
-Already made food. that's off the list. What a delightful quesadilla it was.
-play sims. also known as dolls. I should probably avoid this path. I'll easily kill three hours and then feel lazy afterwards.
-Sit outside. Watch for shenanigans. ...i feel like this will be more fun later tonight. I know there's a game happening, so after the game it's likely the frat(s) will be up to their usual ridiculousness. So maybe then I'll sit outside
-alter those old granny dresses that i've been meaning to make shorter...This is..I've been meaning to do this for the last several months. But not feeling it right now.
-read script for play. Oh..i should have done this a good while ago. like, when break started so i could get to working on it. But.. once again, not feeling it..maybe later tonight.
-ukulele. But.. well, ethan's asleep. I shouldn't be terribly loud.
oh crap. I need to do laundry tonight. This is a realization. Will do that.
You know, I wish i had friends who lived out here. That'd be delightful. the last few days I haven't really been lonely though. So there's that at least. i'm getting used to it.
I kind of want to go back to target and just walk around. It's such a nice place. But then I'd waste gas to get there, and I shouldn't. Especially since I already went once today.
I wish my hair were just a smidgen longer. Then I could braid it better. Like, it just reached the length where I can braid it really close to my head, and then it's in little baby pigtails. But also I need a few bobbypins for the really short bits.
I was thinking of cutting my hair even shorter. Like pixie cut short. But I haven't experienced middle length hair yet, so I'm gonna hold off for awhile and do that. then i might chop it alll off again.
Also, play obligations mean no hair cutting.(i'm a cheater and already re-dyed it though, which maybe is a nono, but my hair doesn't hold color so well anymore, so it just keeps fading from bright red to orange/gold/pink/cottoncandy. Ah well.)
(I kind of want my hair to be super short and white.)
(my hair wouldn't forgive me for that though)
(also, light lavender would be lovely)
(I need another job.)
(global cafe may be accepting of wacky hair colors, but i have doubts that other jobs will be)
(and i should find another job before that.)
(If i don't have another by the time school starts up again, i'll probably work in the costume shop)
(i could get at least another 10 hours a week in there..that'd be good.)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dlpgNsJsNKI new song
(I very much like that song. It's very simple and nice)
(also It sounds really nice on a ukulele.)
(i've noticed when I sing with my uke, it's a little different than before. Like my voice used to just slip into having vibrato when I'd sing high, and I didn't think about it. but it doesn't do that as much anymore.)
(I've been cutting down on cigarette intake, due to this fact)
(and will probably stop entirely very soon. I'm just enjoying it for a smidgen longer. one every other day though, so that's not terribly bad. on my way.)
(I very much like this use of parenthesis.)
(it separates the thoughts out into the way I think them.)
(it's already 6:30. wow.)
(ahhhh...hummmm...need something to dooo...)
but now i'm just enjoying writing.
you know, money sucks. i hate money. Also, is it normal to avoid calls from bill collectors? because I'd like to believe it is. I'd like to think this is a right of passage into adulthood- suck at being an adult, and then slowly suck less.
I heard a loud terrifying noise earlier. People working on something in the apartments, but my initial thought was OH s**t THEY DID COME TO TURN THE GAS OFF! I BETTER TAKE A SHOWER!
But no, we've still got heat. hooray..
I'm gonna..pay that...as soon as i get enough money.
Whenever I get my next pay check should be enough to pay part of it.
I'm just hoping they don't disconnect us before then.
that would suuuck.
That would bum me out.
Plus I'd be cold.
well, i'm off. I don't know what I'm doing, but I'm off.
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Posted: Fri Aug 22, 2014 9:17 am
Turning her face slightly to hide her smile as Fai snorted, Arilee nodded agreement that yes, Fai could do the thing. It wouldn't be easy, but she could do this.
"Think of it this way, honey. Does the teaset hold emotional value to you? Would it hurt you to leave it behind? That is the only criteria you should be using."
Arilee had already had this talk with herself when she'd sent things with Ava and the twins to the camp. It was hard to let go of stuff, but ultimately, so little of it actually mattered. Only the things that held some kind of dear memory or pictures had made the cut.
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Posted: Fri Aug 22, 2014 9:43 am
"It does." She packed it away, and once she had finished the two bags, stared at them.
"It doesn't feel real." She wrapped her arms around waist, "Is this what happens to all the ones I took to Haven? Just packing and leaving like this..." She frowned. "Ari...Is this what is was like to send Ava and the twins away? How difficult and terrifying this is." She had never had to fear leaving her home and now? Now she was.
Now she was leaving it all behind, like many of the ones she help before. The irony of it was not lost on her. She went around gently touching her things, looking at the home.
"I'm going to miss here...so much."
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Posted: Wed Aug 27, 2014 7:22 am
"I think sending them away was worse," Arilee answered softly. "I made sure to be there when the kids were born, but I couldn't stay there with them and it hurt. Still hurts, though I'm thinking of packing up myself and heading there permanently."
She firmly shoved her thoughts away from her absent family and forced it into the present. She couldn't help Fai if she was a crying wreck.
"If you remember something you need or want, you know I'll get it for you. Is two bags enough stuff? We should really take whatever perishables and first aid stuff you got around here too."
Magiore would presumably still have to come here occasionally if only to keep his superiors from becoming suspicious. There was no sense in leaving him with a house full of rotting food if they could help it. And if Safe Haven was anything like the Camp, they could use all the supplies they could get.
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Posted: Mon Sep 01, 2014 9:23 am
"Oh I didn't think of those..." She moved to the room to find a third duffel bag and first hit her bathroom, then her cupboards. Safe haven could use any supplies it could get, so bless Arilee for thinking about it when she couldn't.
"I think you should..." She said quietly at first, but enough that Arilee could hear. "You'd be safer, and happier away from here." She looked at Arilee. "I think you should leave too, sooner rather then later. I don't want them to catch you or worse, attack you." She kept moving around the kitchen, stuffing the bag full.
"Why are you staying here?"
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