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 Posted: Mon Jan 15, 2007 11:02 am
  It felt good to be free again, free from all the pain that had been thrown upon him, all the sorrows he had gone through. Life was back to normal again, he had a family that loved him, a mate that loved him-Ah! His love, Astia! It was only a day or so ago that they had last seen eachother...and even for a brief moment it seemed like the world had frozen time just for the two of them to share such love. Although, Bairn was afraid to talk to her about their future. Afraid to share any thoughts he might have as to where they could end up. Family, his number one priority seemed to be out of the question for the golden mare.
That tiny little fact didn't bother the light brown stallion too much. If she wasn't ready, she wasn't ready. He would respect that, although...they had confessed their love for eachother and then proved it...so why was kids such a touchy subject? It seemed like the only thing missing to this beautiful picture. Bairn did, though...definitely want to be a father. In time, perhaps he could convince Astia to do it again and try to have kids...but perhaps that time would be best when their relationship was stronger.
Now, the light brown stallion just stood by the river and looked at his own reflection, wondering, at that exact moment where his love was and what she wad doing. Probably thinking about him, no?
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Posted: Mon Jan 15, 2007 11:11 am
Oh, Astia was thinking about him, alright. "That a*****e. That b*****d!" The mare's green eyes had a fire in them, and her swollen belly swung to and fro. She had been feeling sick for the past few days. Bloated, hormonal, and she was frikkin' FAT. Tia knew what she was, she had seen plenty of the other mares go through it. Astia was pregnant. Who's fault was that? Bairn's.
Oh, she loved her mate. Maybe not right now, though. Astia wasn't ready for kids! She wasn't ready for the toiling job of looking after little ones! She ddin't want to deal with responsibility! A great choking sob emmited from her throat, and her green eyes closed as she became overwhelmed with what this meant. What if... What if she ruined them, what if she scarred them or something? No. She just wouldn't care. She didn't care anyways, right?
Right?
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Posted: Mon Jan 15, 2007 11:18 am
Angry hoofsteps flowed into his ears, they seemed to be coming this way. Who would want to approach him in such a state of mind? He was perfectly content, thinking about his family, and Astia! What stupid soquili would dare ruin this perfect moment? Sighing to himself, Bairn decided to move away from his spot and walk closer to the creature that walked towards him. Maybe, the soquili would want to leave if it knew Bairn heard it coming?
The thought of getting Astia pregnant didn't exactly occur to the poor light brown stallion, it had happened many times with other soquili and none of those were pregnant, were they? It was just a way to show their love, nothing else. Well, for Bairn it definitely meant something else...but Astia didn't care. She wasn't ready, was she? No, of cource not.
Brown eyes glanced over at the coming soquili as he realized that it was, in fact Astia. But she was angry! Angry at who? Did something happen to her? Was she hurt? Was she mad at him? No, Astia didn't know where Bairn was, she couldn't be mad at him. She had to be angry at something else. Well, his love certainly had a temper on her...maybe she was angry with a stupid soquili that bothered her?
Smiling widely, Bairn called out. "Astia! Astia, my love! I'm over here!" His voice was filled with happiness, unaware of the news that was about to come his way.
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Posted: Mon Jan 15, 2007 11:25 am
There he was! Astia's ears flattened to her head, as she stomped right over to him, eyes filled with fury. "You IDIOT! What the hell were you thinking? I would /kill/ you right here and now, if I was in my right mind! Do you even KNOW what you've done?" Her voice rose, covering the previous fear in her eyes, that were now glinting dangerously. A brown hoove lifted, then fell harshly to the ground.
"I've missed you, though." The mare's voice had softened, slightly, as her mood changed. Those two days had seemed like forever....
"You're still an idiot, though."
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Posted: Mon Jan 15, 2007 9:03 pm
Ooh, so she was mad at him. For what? The idea of her being pregnant still didn't cross his mind...Bairn was more focused on finally seeing her after two days. It was like seeing the most beautiful thing in the world...and being the only one who could see it. The stallion finally knew how his parents felt when they were togther. "Hmmm? Idiot? You're talking to the wrong stallion, my love. What have a ever done to you to make you so angry?" His voice was soft, as he had yet to lay eyes on her stomach.
"No, do tell me. What have I done?" Bairn frowned, in pained him to see Astia in such a state...she was mad at him...he thought they were over that part in their lives already. They had become a couple, right? Why could she ever be so mad?
"I've missed you too, Astia." The stallion grinned and bent down to nuzzle his mate softly. "I'm not an idiot. How many times do I have to say that it's Bliss's job? I'm definitely smarter then a lot of stallions around here, cause I know what I'm doing." It was then, as he moved his head that the sight of her stomach appeared. Although, it didn't process right away. Mare's always gained weight after they ate a lot, right? Perhaps Astia ate a lot.
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Posted: Tue Jan 16, 2007 2:58 am
"You? Know what you're doing? Bairn, you knocked me up, for God's sake!" Astia cried out, avoiding his muzzle. Okay, she had meant for that to be a bit more graceful. Oh well. He didn't really deserve a graceful anouncement at this point, did he? He KNEW she wasn't ready to be a mother. They had discussed that. He KNEW. The mare would never admit it, but she was afraid. Afraid of messing up, becoming a horrible mother, not knowing what to do. "You knew I wasn't ready, Bairn! What part of that did you not get?" Her voice lashed out, but it was weaker, and her tense shoulders had dropped.
She had told him, hadn't she?
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Posted: Tue Jan 16, 2007 3:18 am
Knocked her up? Knocked her-! Astia was pregnant? Astia was pregnant! The smile came quickly, and the news didn't seem so happy in the mare's opinion, but to Bairn it was the happiest thing he ever heard. Pregnant. He was going to be a father, even though the mother didn't exactly want to be one, they would work things out. He wanted to nuzzle his mate and run and jump for joy...the usual icky stuff that stallions usually did when they were given such news, but this stallion knew there was more to this story.
Astia wasn't ready. She even just said she wasn't. She was mad at him, for getting her pregnant. Well, it goes both ways, doesn't it? This wasn't just his fault. Astia had done it too. She was fat, and when the babies came, the golden mare wouldn't want responsibility, would she? Too young, way too young to be a mother, right? Frowning, Bairn glanced over at her stomach once more, yup...pregnant. What were they going to do?
"I know you don't want this, but it's the single most greatest thing that's ever happened. Think about it, we're going to be parents." The stallion had talked to numerous mares about becoming a father...he wanted to, of course, but he wasn't sure how good he would be. They all told him if he protected them, he'd be good enough. So HE was ready, why couldn't she be? "I'm sorry, but when things happen, they happen. This was meant to be, love. Don't get mad at me. We'll work things out, don't worry. There is always my parents to help us, and even Aruna." He had no idea that his sister had become pregnant at the exact same time from a stallion he hated. Rahu.
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Posted: Fri Jan 19, 2007 7:56 pm
The mare gave a small sigh, giving into her mate's reasoning, if grudgingly. "But..." The whine falled short, and she simply looked down at the ground. "It's the single most greatest thing that's ever frikkin' happened for you." Astia looked up at him. "Not me. You." Huh, he had dealt with it rather well. It was a little weird, having such a lighthearted, optimistic stallion after having to deal with such a gloomy and pessimitic one. "I... I don't know though. I... What if I'm not a good parent? What if I mess up?" Her voice was pleading, begging for reassurance. "I'm not mad at you, I think. I... just don't know. I really don't."
"Aruna.... Wait, do your parents even know about us? Does Aruna know? Have you seen her lately?" The golden mare blinked, realizing how secluded she had been as of late.
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Posted: Sat Jan 20, 2007 7:42 am
Ah! Astia finally seemed...happy about this? No, not happy. She still was alittle upset...but she would have do deal with it. They were coming whether she liked it or not. "And why not? Are you not ready, love? You won't mess up, Astia. You didn't mess up with me, I did. I messed with myself...if anything, you helped me. If anything, I'll be the one that messes up as a parent. The children will love you for you, no matter how you act." Bairn paused, and nuzzled her softly thinking about the future. How messed up would it be? Even after his emotional state...it went away...but it was still there.
"You're not mad, you're worried, correct? Well, that's normal...My mother told me she was worried to death we she found out she was pregnant...but then look at us. Look at the life my sisters and I have. It's completely normal to wonder what life is going to be like. Trust me, this scares the hell out of me, but I deal with it because I want to be a father." The light brown stallion looked down at her stomach and grinned. Ah, she was so very fat. It made her look very beautiful, very adult-like and mature. That's what she wanted, right?
"I told my mother and father a few days after I told you I loved you. They both seemed very overjoyed about the whole deal. I don't think I told Aruna, though I'm sure father has." He frowned...had she not known...had she not told anyone herself? It seemed like perhaps he was the only one that cared? No, that was silly...he shouldn't think like that. They cared equally about eachother.
"If it counts, you look very beautiful today, Astia." Bairn tried to make her feel better, although...he wasn't sure how it was going to go over. Basically calling her fat...but pretty.
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Posted: Thu Feb 15, 2007 1:21 pm
Astia narrowed her eyes slightly. "God Sakes, Bairn, I'm fat as hell right now. But thanks for giving it a shot," She gave a nervous, soft little chuckle.
"I... I don't know. Maybe I'm ready. But is anyone really ready? I didn't exactly expect it." The mare sighed and nuzzled him back. "How do you know I won't mess up? I might have helped you, but it's different with you, love... You mostly helped yourself, near the end." She was so full of doubt and uncertainty... she just wanted it to end up okay. "You told your parents?" The mare chucked again. "Of course Aruna's going to end up knowing, you know how some parents are."
"Yeah, I guess I'm worried. I just keep thinking of What Ifs... Bairn, it scares the hell out of me, to think of what could happen. What if one of them doesn't turn out... right? I mean, in the head? What if... ohh, Bairn, look at me. I'm a mess. I'm not a mother... I'm just a plain old freaking mess." Tia gave a deep sigh, and rested her forehead on Bairn's shoulder.
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Posted: Thu Feb 15, 2007 8:47 pm
He loved the sound of her chuckle. It wasn't hyper, it wasn't sad...it was the perfect sound for the moment they were in together. The stallion found himself adoring her even more, now that she was 'fatter' because it meant a future for them, a bright and hopefully happy future. "I don't care if you're fat because you're beautiful either way." He himself gave her a small grin, no longer was it strange for him to talk like this for someone. Why would it be wierd when you were in love?
"Neither did I. But I understand. I don't think either of us are ready to be parents, but we're going to be good at it." Bairn loved her nuzzle, he loved this moment, and he wasn't afraid to admit it. Shout it to the world? Now that was a different story. But to share moments like this with Astia for the rest of his life? Definitely possible. "I just finally gave in, Astia. You're the reason I was able to get over...myself. You're the reason why my future isn't going to be a bad one. I gave in to you." The stallion nuzzled her once more, he was going to help her get through this, no matter how long it took. "Some parents? My parents are the worst. I bet you everyone who knows them, knows about us." Ah, haha...yes. Mahiri and Hania couldn't keep a secret if their life depended on it. They were just two happy soquili who loved life passed the fullest.
"Well the 'What if's' aren't just scaring you, they're scaring me too. But you can't think about them. Not anymore. That was alright when you didn't look like this, but now...there is no time for thoughts like that." He frowned at her reaction, she seemed so upset. Bairn wished there was something...something that would make her happy about this. "Like Bliss? Well, let me tell you now if one of them ends up like that idiot, I'll be the one who'd crack, not you. Our children will be fine, Astia. You'll be a wonderful mother. Good nature, good love and care...that's what the kids need. Love, and you have plenty to share." Nuzzling her softly once more, Bairn tried to push back the 'what if's'...he tried to push back the former thoughts that he had before.
About one of his children ending up like his emotional side to him. That would kill him inside, for sure. But, if he hoped...perhaps it wouldn't happen. "A mess? No, you're not a mess. You're a mother. Mother's worry. Mother's get scared easily. Mother's ARE a complete mess. Mother's love what's coming even when they don't want too. Do you love what's inside you right now?"
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Posted: Sun Feb 25, 2007 3:12 pm
"You don't have to agree with me, you know." The mare grumbled slightly, her eyes close to his warm, tan shoulder. It was strong, and it made her feel a little bit safer. Like Bairn did.
"But..." Astia faltered slightly, "If we aren't ready, how are we going to be good parents? If we don't think we're ready to raise foals, then how are we going to do it, Bairn? Do you know?" She raised her head, to look at him silently. Gave in? No, it was she who gave into Bairn, wasn't it? It all seemed so long ago, that they had hated each other. Or seemed to hate each other, anyways.
"Well that's encouraging," She groaned playfully, and rested her head on her mate's strong shoulder once more, inhaling his masculine scent and giving in her worries for pure bliss for one moment.
"Bairn... If we're scared.. Won't we make more mistakes? I don't want to make a mistake.." Astia whimpered slightly.
"...Bairn." He asked if she loved what was inside her. How.. No, did she? "I don't know.."
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Posted: Sun Feb 25, 2007 3:24 pm
"Well, I want too because I love you." He grinned, nuzzling her once again. The tall tanned stallion was much bigger then his mate, he almost towered over her and it made him feel powerful. Like if anyone was stupid enough to ruin this moment, he could easily kill them. Shaking his head slightly, Bairn only frowned. She was making this a lot harder on him then it seemed at first. Leave it to Bairn or Astia to ruin something so perfect.
"Because I just know. I cannot explain it, but I just do. My parents...you think they were ready? Young and happy? Three children? No! Haha! My parents weren't ready but they're fine. Aruna, Artemis and I are fine." His deep dark brown eyes looked down at her, filled with obvious happiness. It seemed, they had switched places. She didn't want children, but he did. Originally, she wanted this love and he didn't.
"I know." He stammered sarcastically. "I know how to make everything better." Bairn joked, rolling his eyes. "Why don't you want to make a mistake? Hmm? Sometimes they're good, because we learn from them. What kind of mistake would seriously ruin our children for good? No mistake that exsists could ruin OUR children, Astia." Bairn laughed, nuzzling his mate as she whimpered. Why did she have to be so god damn upset about this?
"What? You don't know...?" The stallion was taken back by his mate's words. "What do you mean you don't know? They're coming, Astia...you cannot say you don't love your own children. Astia, don't be your parents. Be someone else."
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