I am not even sure how I am feeling right now and should not be writing but I cannot help it because I am the type of person that just has to work through things until they are completely mutulated and thus then finally over.. so generally speaking I make things a hundred times worse than what they were in the begining. right now I hurt.. like hurt and over nothing really... Why do I have this problem? well let me tell you.. a crush yeah a stupid little piddly ant crush.. I knew it was coming as a matter of fact I hastened the blow pushing things to ease the pain make it come quicker make the hurt come so I can wallow in myself loathing..
le sigh
but that is not enough really.. not yet.. I have yet to "discuss" the event and go over it again and again in my mind to determine the fallacy of my logic.. see I think to much.. that is what I am always told.. maybe I need some brain damage? hmm anyway it is not that big of a deal this feeling is just a whim the extreme of the high I was feeling last week.. I will be over it in a few weeks maybe but alas.. I do not know.. damn.. stop thinking.. grr..
Oh yeah and posting this in a public area.. how emo.. damn I am lame..
Fayeline · Sat Apr 02, 2005 @ 11:59pm · 0 Comments |