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Once apon a time there was a boy, a boy whom you may refer to as...a runaway.
Now...his life wasen't all bad, his mother was good to him, he had really good friends((The few that they are)),he had his privacy, he had his money that he worked off at his job. He was fairly happy, until the night came were he was with his "best friend" A.K.A. Secret lover...
Chapter #1 If only I had the words...
"I do care about you, honestly, what can I do to prove it?!" I asked franticly not knowing what to do, or say, to the only one I have...
"I don't know,....it just feels as though I care more about you then you care about me." I could hear distraught in his voice, he was dieing inside, from a misunderstanding...
"No, you got it all wrong I DO love you...please,...before I go insane let this go...I do regret what I said to you before..." " If you do, then say your sorry."
"I can't, you no I have troubles saying that, can't I prove it to you some other way!?" I was histaricle, I thought I was going to lose my best friend AND my love...
"If I had the words to discribe how much I regret saying what I did before I would recite it in a poem for you,a lymric...anything.But I don't have those words with me right now..." "How can you say that you regret hurting me but you can't say sorry?" "What difference does it make? If it's the same then why do I have to say those words?" " Because it would mean more to me then 'I regret'!" He was starting to get a little irritated. Now before you get confused, I am a homosexual. Who I refer to as "he" would be known as 'my secret lover' which is true enough as far as it goes,
His name is Aaron, and he means the world to me. My name is Tyler, were both 14 and very confused of eachothers feelings to one and other. We've been together for a year now,
I was spending the night at his house on the last day of school, Friday, that was the night in which this chapter took place.
"But...but,...but,...I can't!" " I don't believe that your truely happy with me, maybe it would be better if I...let you go." " WHAT!? No! That's no what I want!" My heart was beating so fast I thought I was going to colapse from a heartattack.
"You think that's not what you want, but once your set free, I'm sure you'll be much more happier." " Can't stand this anymore!" I said as I began to put on my jacket,"this is killing me, I have to go." I sat up, heading for his window,
"What?...You can't leave now, it's midnight, where would you go? Home?"
"Probably not." " What do you mean 'probably not'? You'll surely get cought by the cops and get a curfew ticket!" "So it shale be." I wasen't ready to fight any longer and put out relationship into even more danger. : Wait, atleast promise me you'll go home tonight, I'm not going to stop you, becuase I love you and I want you to do what you want. But atleast promise me-" " I'm not promising you anything!" I interupted him with an outburst,
I wasn't going to promise anything that even I wasn't sure of. "Please stay, I'm begging you! Please..." He said while choking back tears. " I don't want to see you cry, so fine, I'll stay." " Thank you, we'll go to sleep now." I layed down in the comfortable bed next to him, I wanted so bad to snuggle right up to him and say...'I'm sorry.' But I couldn't,
The next morning I awoke in his bed, alone. I looked around and then at the clock, it was 6:50 a.m., the bus would arrive in 25 minutes. Aaron was in the bathroom brushing his teeth. I got up and put my shoes on and began heading for the door.
"Aren't you going to school?" "No, it's the last day, meaning it's just another stupid field-trip to some kiddie place, I'm not going." " But it will be at a theme-park, besides, I thought that you already paid the fee." "I did, but I could give a s**t less about 10 dollars, besides, I'm really not in the mood for it." I said as I continued to walk towards the door.
"Hey, Tyler!" I turned around to face Aaron, which was one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. "I'm sorry, Tyler" I gave him a quick smile and nodded acknowledging his words before I had left. I snuck into my house and crept into my bedroom, making sure not make a sound. " I guess I really did learn something from all of those years of predending to be ninja." I chuckled to myself and plopped back down on my bed staring at the ceiling,
My mom popped her head through the crack of my door, startling me, and causing me to nearly fall off my bed. "Holy s**t, Mom, don't you ever knock!?" "I'm a mom, I don't have to knock, and don't you take that tone with me, mister." she said in a sarcastic mockery kind of way. "Yeah, yeah, so what do you want?" "Your not going to school?" " No, It's only the last day and it's a field-trip." I was kind of irritated 'cause I hadn't had much sleep the night before. " Are you ok, honey?" My mother asked kind of worried, realizing the irritated tone in my vioce. "I'm fine, just tired." I turned around facing my wall."Good night, mother" "Don't you mean 'Good morining'?" " Whatever..." She shut my door, leaving me alone in my room.
Chapter #2 A walk to "The park"
I couldn't sleep, I kept thinking about Aaron, and if he was still mad at me.
I sat up and went into the kitchen to get a snack. I just so happend to run into my Mom (ironicly) fixing my little sister a sandwhich. "Have a nice nap?" "What nap? I didn't sleep.", I don't sleep much, "Why do you always assume that I'm sleeping when I hardly sleep?" Personally, I think I have a mild case of insomnia, but my mother think's that it's just a small faize. "Whatever, you hungry?" "No." A quick awnser usually gets her off my case. I went back into my bedroom, opened the window, and sat on the windowceil, pondering,
I just sat there, listening to music on my MP3player, it only holds about 112 songs.
One of my favorite bands' were playing, Evanescence, when I decided that Aaron wasn't going to come get me. He always comes over after a fight, then we go to the park or his house and act as if nothing ever happend. But not this time, this time it was different,
It was 3:05 P.M. and we get back home from school around 2:50P.M. At this point I was very impatiant, AND bored, so I decided to go for a walk.
I put on my hoodie, with Jack Skellington's face imbroded in the front, and headed for the door. My sister, Leigh, stopped and started asking where I wasoing, she's only about 4. "I'm going for a walk to the park, go tell Mom that, Ok?" "No, I don't want to!", she can be a real brat a lot of the time," I'm mad at you!" " And why is that?" I asked in a non-chalant tone,
You know those stories where the older sibling hates their younger sibling and wishes they were gone,Then they regret it soon after? Well, I'm still wishing.
"I'm just mad at you!" With one last huff, she stomped away. I just shrugged then yelled at my mom, informing her that I was going. " Okay, just come back in an hour, I need you to watch Leigh!" "AGAIN?!" I yelled back, irritated as usual when she asks me that question. "You know I need to go to work, do you want us to live in the gutters with nothing?" I just shrugged and left,
While I was walking toward the park I looked up the street and noticed Aaron, hanging out with Kevin and Dolten. Two of his guy friends. Yeah, Iknow them, but you could hardly call us 'friends'. That just burned me up,so continued to walk to opposite way.
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