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I'm so sick and tired of feeling like this. Make up your mind. I still love you, you still love me. How much is there to factor out? How much fear do you have in your system to be running from that? Why won't you let me help you work through that? They call me TheTherapist for a reason, sweetie. My job is to help people work through the issues impacting their lives. And other peoples lives. Lives like mine... cry
Maybe, if I grabbed you by the shoulders and shook you you would understand. Maybe, if the entire world turned on you, you would see what a p***k you're being. What a selfish b*****d you're being. mad I ******** heart you. don't you see that? CAN you see that? Or are you afraid? Afraid that this might be something worth saving? Or is it selfish to wonder if your fear is that you might end up loving someone as much, if not more, than her? is it stupid to think I might be that important to you? sad I mean...I don't think I'm pulling these problems out of thin air...I'm pretty sure that I'm right on at least some of these fears.
God, I feel like such an emo right now...sitting in my bed crying my eyes out, listening to the one song I know will make me cry and writing a scathing blog... emo
But do you really see me. I mean really see me? Do you see the hurt and the want and the love and the hate and the distrust and the lonelyness? Can you see me? I see you, I try to see everything, but can you see Me? Would you even look? stare
I miss you.
I miss you so damn bad.
But I can't have you,
Especially if you're stuck on these emotional past problems.
But can I offer to help you work through them?
Is that selfish?
Is that wrong?
Just... crying
I miss you...