I don't feel like being nice I don't feel like telling you what's wrong I don't feel like myself So just [********] it
A n D l E a V e M e A l O n e
~~~~ I'm not the usual person to rant about something, or emo about it on the web but I just need to vent.
I'm a nice person, right? I'm always listening to people's problem(no matter how dumb they are) I'm always there if you need a shoulder to cry on, I always keep secrets, even if it's about a person I know. I never judge a person on how they look but how they act. I make people laugh sometimes.
So why does s**t keep happening to me?
Why is it I keep getting back stabbed by 'friends'. Friends that come crying to me when they have their little boyfriend issue or if I actually LIKE a boy and I tell a friend, they just HAPPEN to go out with them the very next day.
s**t happens I know but as selfish as this sounds, I feel like i don't deserve this. It's not just about my friends but if you knew me long enough, you'd know.
I'm not saying I'm perfect and everyone loves me and I've done nothing wrong. I've done my fair share of 'sins' but..still.
I'm just everyones emotional punching bag. From some of my friends to even my own dad sometimes and it used to be like that with my brothers(I had two brothers, 25 and 26 both died in the same mouth. One in a car accident the other died by drugs.). Sad part is, I let them do that. I let them step all over me, as much as I hate it. I don't really know why I do that. Maybe cause I just don't want to end up ruining a friendship or something.
*inhale*
*exhale*
Also, for those of you who know about Bounty Inc, the rp I'm working on, I'm not gonna work on it for awhile. I WILL finish it, just not anytime soon. Allot is going on where I'm at and I just don't feel like working on it. It's a possibility that I might change a few things here and there but nothing so big. ~~~~~~
Yoko Ai · Wed Jun 13, 2007 @ 05:57pm · 0 Comments |