I've taken to writing a journal again, at home. It's hard, though, because I'm censoring what I want to say. I'm paranoid that way; someone could read it. In that way, it really doesn't matter what I put here, because I'm still cautious when it's 'private'. So why not have two, what the hell? For all the good it does.
Finished the second day of testing today. My school is officially insane. More on that later, though.
My mom should be... oh, well.
She came in at 2:00 AM from work and pulled a lamp cord, making a stained-glass lamp fall to the floor and shatter. She blamed me for it, and made me clean it up, then called me a 'good for nothing b***h that can't carry her weight in the world.'
I whirled on her, and said "At least I'm not a good-for-nothing b***h who can't get a job!" and retreated upstairs.
This morning, she pretty much said to get to school yourself. "I don't care if you hitchhike, find a way."
She's depressed, jobless, stressed and overworked, and now into menopause. Perhaps I can't blame her.
*sigh*
Rhasae · Thu Apr 21, 2005 @ 06:05pm · 2 Comments |