::sighs:: Ok. Have you ever felt as if someone whom you've told all your secrets too, someone to whom you've given your everything, never really cared at all? They only saw you and thier favorite toy to play with, dangling you on strings, keeping them short enough to have control, but long enough so they don't get attached themselves?
Ok here's the story. I was in pain (mentally and emotionally (for those retards out there)) Quite a lot too. Somehow i was invited out and i went. I stayed up the whole night and talked with someone, feeling as if i could tell them my life. Though i never really thought if they cared, i just needed someone to know how i felt. Even if i didn't know why. They cried, imagining what iw as going through, but they were decorative glass tears, now weren't they? I'm guessing that it was the way the night was, you know where the sky is painted with the dew drop tears stuck so delicatly on the black? I felt mesmorized by the cool wind that brushed my hair (or lack there of for you who know of it's state) and played across my cheeks and lips. The scent was of flowers, and i'll never forget it. Back to where i was... have you ever seen someone cry? but in the way that you know it's for you? It's beautiful. You own each tear they shed and each muffled cry that drips from thier mouth.
although i could go on about the beauty, i'll stop. Only because it was an illusion put on for me. Eventually i gave my walls away, and let someone itno a cirlce that hasn't been breached for a while. After a year... they let me down.
It doesn't sound so bad. But think about pouring your life into to someone, thinking that they were the only one who could care. But if they've never been through the pian you have... then how could they? Well i was foolish, i belived that someone could actually care. And I'm only realizing this now, as i found someone that actually can, and does. And for once, i belive it with all my heart. But i await... i await the day they let me down too, i await the day they up and leave as everyone does. Nothing is forever and forever is nothing.
Good day to you all.
KnivesTG · Mon Apr 25, 2005 @ 10:13pm · 0 Comments |