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This is my first entry of my gaia journal. I hope you all find it very enlightening and at times, entertaining.

The days are moving faster now, my eighteenth brithday has come and gone. I now know what this life has to offer, work to sustain an existence that sustains more work. A never ending cycle that continues until death. Disgusting... I hate this existence in this fallen world.

Why must I dream of days of glory when I know all too well that the truth is far from them? As I close my eyes I dream of a life in a time and place nobody could ever hope to grasp. The world is moving but I am standing still. The cool wind breathes past me towards the sunset horizon and I look out from the hill top of eternity, into the endless expanse of forever and cry.

Screw this crap! We're all stuck here and there's nothing we can do about it except continue to numb ourselves to our true feelings! I know God can see my pain and agony in this fallen desert we call "human life". I know He wants so much more for us than this. When this is all over and I can live in the majesty of Heaven, I may finally be content.

Until then, I continue on in this dust blown desert called the "West Side of Jacksonville Florida" hoping to make the most of this life I live, still looking at the sunset horizon.