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The Reality of the Death of a Loved One.......
...............I've never felt like this before cry ...............It feels like my whole world is going to COLLAPSE!!!! A couple days ago.........I received DEVISTATING news. My very good friend, whom I had known since my early child hood years, had passed away in a skate boarding accident cry cry !!!!!!!! I-I feel so........................TERRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!! I am filled with so much REGRET and GUILT!!! When I first moved into my previous neighborhood, EVERYONE HATED and dis-respected ME! crying He was the ONLY one to like me for who I AM. He and I became Very VERY good friends, until he moved away........I said I'd still talk to him, but we lost touch, because of ME!!!! crying It's ALL MY FAULT! It's my fault that I didn't stick with him until THE VERY END!!!!!!!!!!! gonk I Want To Tell Him I'm SORRY, but I CAN'T!!!! gonk crying After all he's done for me, I repay him back by tossing aside OUR FRIENDSHIP!!!!! stressed crying gonk If I still hung out with him, HE MIGHT STILL BE HERE TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All the good and bad memories are coming back to HAUNT ME FOR THE REST OF MY LIIIIIIIFE!!!!!!!! crying crying crying gonk gonk gonk He was hurting a little at the time too, If I HAD ONLY BEEN THERE FOR HIM!!!!!!! IF WE HADN'T LOST TOUCH BECAUSE OF ME, HE COULD'VE BEEN SAVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!! crying crying crying crying crying crying crying .........................................................................................................He and I had a great history together, in a way, if it hadn't been for him, I might not be the person I am today............. cry I've been such a DUMMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gonk WHY DID HE HAVE TO GO NOW!!!!!!??????? HE WAS ONLY 15 YEARS OLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT'S MY FAULT, MY FAULT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! crying ..........................................................................................................................................................................................................He hit an SUV, snapped his spinal cord, and went into an immediate coma......................He never woke up.................................................................................................I didn't even get to say good bye cry ..................................................I'm SOOOOOOO sorry, Doug! crying crying crying I don't think I'll ever be able to get over this regret............................................................................Doug, may you rest in peace, my old friend.............................................................This pain is so real.
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