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Apparently I haven't updated my Journal in the longest time, so I'm going to do that now... I guess. I mean, I got nothing better to do with myself and its like 11 something at night... and no one is on... I think... XP

Ok, lets see... School started again on August 1st... Its boring as hell (or is it heaven since I like hell?) Well, whatever. You get my point. School is boring and thats that 3nodding Homework is too easy and I'm actually doing it! Shocker there, huh? Well, its all very true.

My friends are doing... ok, I suppose? I don't know. They seem ok to me... well, most of them anyways. I've been talking to one of my best friends, who moved to Michigan, Sarah T. I hope people still remember her. She isn't that easy to forget. Just remember a very energetic girl who kicked people with her steel-toed boots^^ No offense there, right, Sarah? Lol.

Well, onto my problems... I've been under a lot of stress lately, which isn't saying much. I'm like always under pressure or stress about something or another. Its just the way I live, and I deal with it on my own -shrugs- That, or get depressed which, again, isn't saying much about myself. I get depressed... a lot? Weekly? Something along those lines. I can't keep track anymore sweatdrop

Anywho, I'll be honest about myself and how I feel. I can't express myself in words, which is why I type it out into my Journal. I have a people phobia, where I can't stand big crowds. I get all uncomfortable and nervous, which is kinda why I hate Castle so much. Too many people! I can only feel comfortable with people that I've known for a while. But even at that, I can get a little twitchy, quiet, and shy. I don't know why I feel that way or why I act so weird, but its all true. Heck, its even with family members! So, please don't feel offended or anything. Its not you, its me. It might have to do with my childhood. No, I really do think it was because of my childhood 3nodding So, please don't feel offended or anything.

There is still a lot that my friends don't know about me. They don't know the deep, dark, secrets that I keep in my heart. And I like that. I want to keep it that way. I never want them to know, because... Well, honestly, I don't know. I don't know how they'd react. How they would take to that side of me that they don't know. The really dark side of me that, I think, no one knows about. Not even my really close friends know. Maybe one day... Like in a future Journal entry or something? I don't know. I wish I knew the answers to everything, but I don't. I just know what I know from experience... and having to grow up too fast.

Thank you very much for reading my newest update. Sorry it isn't so happy sounding or something. Its just the way I've been feeling lately. And I thought that people (namely friends) should know something new about me