Your "friend" never thought of you as a friend nor did they love much more care for you
I, for this past summer, know what this is like. I, for one,have been through alot and to me this is only a bit a deja vu. Alot of my friends, I don't know them anymore. They're no longer my friends. My heart fees played. I treasure my friends so much, so just to be fooled like that you can only imagine how much it hurts.
I'm a spoilt brat I know that. And I want alot, and more than half the world has got it worse than me but I am human and I do have emotions and despite myself I can't help but to be sad. Sometimes I tell myself that I cant be sad cause I got it good compared to some people but everyone get's sad and right now I'm sad sad
I love to make friends and try my best to make them wish they never regret meeting me. I'm also in search of love but I always get hurt and out of all my ex boyfriends, only one has the balls to be a good friend to me. Sucks to be me considering I'm the type that believe in a friendship if a relationship doesn't work out stare . I'm afraid to fall again. I really don't want to........ ever again. I'm not ready to be in love a third time and get hurt all over again. I've changed because of this and I'm a completely different person now. I'm only 14 so what do I know about love? I think I know alot. I know it hurts alot
And I know that once I love a person my love doesnt die and that's the sad part of it because then I end up alone....... crying, wishing for that certain someone to come back. I feel like guys are my addiction and love is the drug, my body is the abuser and my mind is the one that receives all the damage and effects. How do I live with that? How do I live with this sadness? I'm not saying I wanna die. I'm just saying it hurts.
You're probably tired of reading this. If you read this to the end, thank you. If you want to give advise please do (leave it in the comments). Thanks for reading if you read. If anyone wants this in details, just pm me
