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betrail, denial, moral, loyalty, love and lack there of. these are the things that have been going on in life recently.
the guild im in was hacked by a member with the help of a crew member. though im the first to say neither are to ever be trusted again im probably the one also in the most disbelief. but in the long run it might be good for the guild. to restart, try somthing new, maybe even disban. whichever it is it will be fresh, though most likly nothing new.
at work i obtained many items, some might even have value. though it was all legal, my boss feels bad about doing it while i see it as a great oprotunity. is there a right or wrong in a question like this? either way i dont care.
loyalty to one's friends, staying true to the one you care for, neither of these are a problem for me, but i sometimes wonder if it's returned by the other parties. facing reality, after i graduate, i wont talk to most of the ones i have come to know and trust ever again. they will go off to live their lives while i stay here, wondering and wishing for what i dont have while looking back on regret at what i could have done. if i am lucky, my brohan and i will never truly part, otherwise i wont really have anyone left outside the few i know on the net.
my love life is a mystery, even to me. absence may make the heart grow fonder, but it also makes it suspicous. my faith and trust hold true as ever, but this has been my downfall before. my mind cant help but consider the different possibilities, but i shake it off, wishing for the better outcome.
my goal of 100 years of lazy living, with anime, good food, and good company to share it with seems farther and farther away. life as i know it has a deadline and i am ill prepared to face what lies after it.
 Taku Muzaki · Sun Jun 05, 2005 @ 03:41am · 2 Comments |
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