I might have made the biggest mistake of my life. I got all huffy at my boyfriend and told him we were through. Thing is I said it when I was mad and now I feel like I can't do one damn thing right. I was so tired of feeling like I was second in his life, everything always came before me, and the fact that he would shut me out of his life and cause me to worry about him. I felt helpless and afraid, almost like I couldn't do anything to help him. I finally went overboard with my anger and broke up wit him, it wasn't til afterwards that the reality of it all set in. I cried my eyes out, I stood outside in 50 degree weather and balled my eyes out. He called me and made me feel even worse, I wanted to die. After all was said and done I cried even more before calling him back and taking it all back. I feel like a total b***h, I really don't think I should be alive right now, maybe the world would be a better place if I wasn't around.
Satanic Ranger · Sun Jun 05, 2005 @ 10:33am · 0 Comments |