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I have given up my human habbits, I threw away all my colored clothes and even gave away my white chevy. I bought myself a black mistress top with a skirt that matches its beauty, the black stockings are lined with white ribbon and tied beside my leg. My doll boots were expensive but I had to match with the rest of my outfit, at least my college money came in handy. Since when did I become obessesd with matching? Since the first day I met Edward and his unique way of dressing, his clothes were always dark and it went well with his pale skin. I wanted to join Edward, but before I could even imagine joining him I had to lose my human ways. It was hard, I mean after all I am still human. I had to give up any sports I was involved in and even the way I spoke about certain things had to vanish from my life forever. If I want to be with Edward, the sun cannot be an issue, his skin tends to burn and his blood thirsty character begins to emerge. My chance of living while his blood thirsty side takes effect is slim to none, he cannot control his dangerous side as he focuses on healing himself.
After the painful issues I had to deal with, I began to feel much happier now that my chances with Edward were increased. Although, I knew that I could never speak to my parents again, my connection with them was destroyed and had to be left alone for Edwards sake and mine. That never really bothered me. Infact, I was free from my parents restrictions and could go out when I please and wear the sexy clothes that always attracted me with its black beauty. I was finally free..
With a little surprise Edward brought me a young demon that he caught while hunting in the caves, a black dragon with a soft touch of red on its belly and back. He wanted me to have it for protection in case if Edward couldnt save me from the worlds unknown dangers. I named the little one, Demosthenes. Edward quickly placed his hands over my eyes and with a quick swift he placed the fox ears on top of my head, they merged with my body and became part of who I am now. These ears are ment to listen, everything that surrounds me and even miles away, when danger approaches I could quickly escape without anyone noticing. I was thankful for the gifts but also worried, why would he give me these now?
I never noticed but Edward has spent most of his time, his immortal life dedicated to protecting me and helping me progress better as a human, not a vampire. Edward has given up his own life when he made that decision, the first time he made contact with me, the first time he ever kissed me. Edward now belongs to me somehow, and yet I feel no regret, no remorse over the path he's decided to take. I do however, sympathize with him, Edward can in danger not only himself but the vampires he comes into contact with. Even my life has become infected with his internal disease, if a vampire smelled me from afar or saw me with Edward they would attack him and steal me away. Now if I was in another vampires hands I would wish to be dead instantly than suffer any longer, I would rather die quickly then let Edward watch my slow and painful death before his eyes.
Being with Edward is terrifying, but my love for him is even stronger than the feeling of fear itself. Of course, my mind is made up, I will stay with him until I reach my human fate or somehow I become a vampire and join Edward in his immortal life. I have completely surrendered my heart, my soul and even my body for this creature..