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i'm getting....somewhat better i have alot of bad memorys that made me cry alot :/ well i dont really know waht to talk about i jsut wrote a poem that i cant seem to find it was about a weaping willow :/ well more about meh my whole life is full of betrayel and heartbreak until recently i alost forgot about everything then it came back to haunt me wich is abvios how adn well my spelling is getting worse...i really hate valintines day :/ ummmm.... my lucky numbers are multiples of 16 expecially 32 and 64 my faverite color to were is black and redn i dont cross dress my realationships only last for about 2 months till i get cheated on :/ i'm emotionaly numbish i wish i could feal anything but the empty pain inside my chest i feal like my heart is gone or a fealing tahth its gone i cant use it but its still can be hurt :/ i wish i had somebody to really love that wont end in heartbreak :/ i liek writing poetry biggrin landin is my best freind...
i hate bright colors i think fo dieing alot my faverite bands are marlyn manson ....papa roach....all american rejects...flyleaf....utada hikaru.....lincoln park....adn yah i'm half thai and half american(u.s.) i liek making ppl feal happyand i'm currently crounded from my comp... my heart is always open but right now its not very warm its like a cave in the north pool...i liek comments.... oh i liek threee days grace...i rp alot....i live in california santa cruzi'm a guy >.> i dont liek giving out my age unless the other person tells me theres :/i can fly i'm not a drug attaick i stare at the clouds to much i hate dead poeple....i liek surrounding myself with freinds it makes me feal better :/ and i don know how to spell feal only a coeple people really know how i tic ....i liek mentos.... my faverite smiely is this ^^ and this neutral alot of peopel in my family hae commited suicide and yah thaths all i can think of right now sweatdrop oh and i liek refering life to a box of chcolates or a bunch of mentos and anotehr averite candy is swedish fishi liek walking down to the beach and look at the sunset...and my spelling really sucks... rolleyes