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Ok well... Ive decided to myself im not going to be a failure anymore so ive developed a plan for my life jsut like ive been needing to do. This summer im going to Colorado and i dont think im coming back honestly im already registere to Wheat Ridge Highschool and all my old friends go there so it should be kewl. Im going to ask my dad that after highschool if i can just not go to collage and work with him in his construction business i dont care if i dotn become big i just want enoug money to support my friends and if im lucky a family so im going to stay in Colorado i will be able to concentrate on my school more even if i fail thsi year and i ahve to repeat ill work 10 times harder to work the next year i can actually start to see a future forming back in Colorado because here in Florida i cant... i mean i seriusly cant. I cant see my self dating here i cant see myself working here theres nothing i can do here but in Colorado i can see myself dating some of my ollld friends that ive had a crush on for the longest tim and i still do although shes never known she has been a good friend although i havent heard from her since the last time i saw her which was this summer... -sigh- i miss her ive liked her since 3rd grade... and well shes too good for me people used to make fun of me for likeing her theyd say "CMon dude! she looks like a lizard!" but now everyone lieks her she is beautiful and i have so many memories back in Colorado whether its fishing or picking on Jennah, Quinn, and Crimson just so they would chase us or also spying on them when they had sleepovers with tanner. Me and tanner did so many stupid stuff with and too them lol we got them so mad at us once they literally got every girl in our school to chase us down and pin us down so they could kick us in the knees and shins and boy...it was THE BEST TIME OF MY LIFE! i know sounds strange but hey i had a crush on one of them (Quinn btw) it was grate running from a shiz load of girls that i could laugh and joke with all the time back when nobody cared who was dating who just slight crushes and it was heaven it was better i just hope that i get what i want when i go back... and that is...to be loved... u.u