((wrote on deviantart first o may sound alittle off))
Today has just been an odd day for me. My dreams woke me even though i can not recall what they were about. My day started out strange, I felt as if i was just walking on air and my mind raced with thoughts, so many thoughts that I could not think on just one making it hard to remember much. I cleaned the bathroom some most cleaning due to my cat spike. I walked around the house some then I got something to eat. After I was done eating I got on the computer and looked for someone who might be on but not many were online so I had to surf around along time. As i surfed the net I wanted to make a forum but when I went to go make one it would not work for me this time. So my plans were shattered till I remembered Tripod free web page building site. So I build me a short story page where I plan to put stories after I post them here. I will bring them here first because I trust DA with my stuff so if someone tries to steal a story I will have DA to fall back on as prof.."Thank you DA for being here for those who need a trust worthy site to hold a right over their work."
After I build up my site my friend got on, many on here know her as Okeina and we chatted but i was still feeling a little odd so our chats were kinda a blur to me at times and i replied best I could, Sorry Hay if it seemed as if I was ignoring you. She sent me a AMV (animated music video) it was cute and one song that played in it I looked up, I searched threw many of them till I found the one I thought had the best video to go with the song and i put it on my Gaia profile. Okeina had to get off shortly after that for her mom was wanting on and so when she got off I got off and finished up a drawing that looks horrible so i made it a outline to redraw another day. As I was finishing it Okeina called me and I continued to talk to her as i worked on my perverted story. Now this is where my day got really odd, right after I had found that good AMV to put on my Gaia i started to feel odd, I was happy, sad, upset, flouting on air, mind racing, body FELT perverted (i not care to say the word but it starts with a H) I was a little shaky and dazed. I tried my best to talk to her on the cell but my mind would not stay, it wanted to write but really it didn't. After she hung up I finished my stupid short perverted story. When I was done I went and laid down around 8pm something but nada...I rolled over to sleep but nope..my body and brain would not let me so I came in living room and looked threw the On DEMAND free movies where I saw Fly Away Home, a old movie i have not seen in well I was a KID then long long time ago when I lived with my grandmother. As I remember I thought of her but it did not hurt me till the opening song to the movie came on I got a little sad. As i watched the movie i thought of her even more and it made me miss my mom for my mom was gone to church leaving only my aunt and myself at home. once the movie was close to ending i got back online and looked up the song fly away home and when i found one with Spirit video I got it and posted it on myspace and gaia. After that I searched for Spirit on youtube till I found it and watched it, I had not seen that movie scenes middle school. After the movie was over I started to Liston to Fly away home the song and I came here to write a journal, this whole time I have heard that song over and over as i typed this, I guess cause it calms me now more than make me cry but it still reminds me of my grandmother whom I miss SOOOOOOOOOOOOO much, I wish she had never died in a lot of ways but she is in a better place at least.
I am trying to Liston to another song but I just cant, my mind makes my hand move the mouse back to the song. Guess it just stuck like this for a while.
Other than all that I guess i worry on having to get a Job for money is hard right now at home and school is stressing even tho I have easy classes, it's mostly the system that is pissing me off and that might be the mad part of me then the sad is missing my grandmother and Ashley (I not get to see Ashley a lot for they live so far away). and the other is from other stuff as well I bet just not fully sure.
Well I want to write more and i know i could but time for bed. Have school tomarrow and cant miss anymore days after missing that one day i sick.
~Demangirl
Demangirl Community Member 
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