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Jesus Christ, I feel like I have to uber rant about something, but hell if I know...there is one thing, and I'm sure you guys have read about this so much in the past 24 hours on other people's journals that you would rather pull your eyes than read this, but suck it up and read anyway. heart
Ugh, never before have I hated such a holiday as Valentine's Day. Not is it UBER pointless, but it also makes singles feel like s**t. Yeah, most people who are lucky enough to have a guy or something are probably like, 'eh, suck it up you ******** little single-a** s**t, go get a razor and take care of the rest by yourself.' I'll take the razor, but I won't use it, I hate to break your hearts.
I just can't wait until I'm lucky enough to actually find a love in life. I've pretty much talked myself into thinking that the chances of me ever finding a guy in life is slim-da-nil. I mean hell, what guy would want to waste his time with me? I would feel even worse if he lacked the brains to actually love me enough to propose. Almost everyone I know anymore has some kind of lover in life, and I'm the only one whose lacking someone. The only romantic moment I had in my life was a few months back when some guy held my hand. I barely knew the guy, and that kind bugged me. We met at a high school football game and we talked for a bit until I had to return to the stands. He asked for my number and after that we only talked via AIM and a few phone calls. I met him a few months after, and he held my hand..yeah. I didn't allow him to go any further and I pretty much held it out of pity. He had tried to get a girl a few times but came empty handed. Hmph...
Then of course there's crushes, which never work out anyway. I'm always the brainless one who goes drooling after some guy and all they want is to be friends. Either that or they have their own girl, which doesn't really help, does it?
You could say I'm one of those lonely teens who can't think of anything else other than what it would be like to have a guy wedged somewhere in her busy life and daydream from then on. I have some luck, but not enough for that to actually happen. :I stressed
Aside from that, it seems that my friends are kinda...separating in a way. After this summer, some broke up into their own little group and some others broke into one of their own, and same thing with the last third of my friends. And here I am stuck in the middle somewhere...and I don't know what the ******** to do. Maybe I'll just go randomly from one group to another. Eh, like they care anyway.
Then there's the changes with my friends on the internet. There's s**t going on and they're changing and it really bugs me. Of course I won't mention any names, but...whatever. Like I can do anything...
Crawling under a rock and dying has never felt so good. T_____T
ll Gotham ll · Sat Feb 16, 2008 @ 03:30am · 0 Comments |
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