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When I thought this man would change my point of veiw on life it gets to that one point in a relationship when you ask yourself "why are you doing this to me god!? why did I ever do to you?" right now i'm to that point. And my depression has gone as far as it can go. was I ment to stand in this world alone? or was I created to be a test subject. He would do anything for me and I know that but, I need to be "entertained" more. That makes me sound so selfish but I don't ask for much. I'm sick of giving and not taking it's my turn now! I will act like all of you who have came to me for everything now! give me more! I need more...is that what the normal human craves? more and more? well I guess i'm not normal then. I've gotten myself in too deep...and I just want someone or something to help me...if you are still reading this please save me. I want out of this hell hole! please make me normal make me the little girl I use to be! I never wanted to be what i've become so deep in my words yes but it's the only way to say "hey, i'm hurting I need someone to help me" please...help me I beg you...brian please help me i'm so scared...
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