I have a feeling no one will read this, but I'm posting it anyway...
As the deadline is soon approching, I find myself pondering what my future at gaia will be. Truth is, guys, I don't feel much like RPing without Anthro-chan. She's the whole reason I joined gaia. She's my best friend and with the exception of the first 10 years, she's been my lifelong companion. I miss her dearly, more then words can say.
I don't know how to move on with the RP. I don't know where to take our characters next. And frankly, I don't feel up to trying to think up a storyline. I'll go along with whatever you guys want to do, it's only fair. Just because Anthro is missing doesn't mean I should forget you guys.
I thank you all for being my friends here. I hope that I'll be able to move along with you guys. Even as I sit here to type, my hands shake and the tears fall, just thinking of her makes me so upset.
I was just re-reading, and I realize this sounds like a goodbye letter. It's not. I just wanted to express to everyone what I'm feeling right now. I guess what I'm trying to say is I don't want to move on with the RP...if anything, I'd rather make up new characters and just suspend the old, but that would be stupid.
I can't go on living in the past, I know, but for me, it's too soon. Maybe it's different for you guys because you don't have the relationship Anthro and I have. She's not just missing from my on-line life, she's missing from my real life too.
That sounded harsh. I'm sorry. I don't know what else to say, or what else to do. Hell, I don't even know if I'm really going to post this right now. Then again, if you're reading it, then I have posted it.
Please forgive me for seeming short and angrey for the last few weeks, it's just that I'm going through hell and what I really need is a shoulder to cry on, but the only person who can physically do that for me is at home in New Hampshire till next week.
I'm out of things to say. I don't know what else to type. I feel lost and alone and I hope you all understand that.
AnitaAngelo Community Member 
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