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Well well well.. here we are again..



It's 3:14 in the am on a Tues morning.. and my game is down for maintenance how ******** lovely..

Anywho.. I'm back to work. Yes.. still at a casino -_- ( will it ever end ) The weather here is warming up and the river is beautiful. 3nodding heart The sky has never been more blue.. nor the stars as bright. The moon still shines over the desert like a white shadow.. showing the glory of the night.

God I miss you.. been thinking about you for the last couple of nights and I don't know why sweatdrop I think it's that I miss being close to someone. I have converted back to arms length again. Every time I start to get to close to someone I back away. Turning into that b***h we all know and hate. I find myself crying just to ease the pain of your memory. I must really be pathetic.. to carry this torch for so long. Keep telling myself you are doing fine.. and you are happy.. and that makes me miss you even more. I have regrets.. wish I could have made my way to see you. Things may have been different.. perhaps not. At least I would have known what you felt like.. to know your sweet smell.. and remember your taste forever. I know I said I would never say this.. but I wish I could have a do over.. Things would be different.. I would be different sweatdrop And maybe.. just maybe.. I wouldn't be missing or needing of you at this moment.

4ever yours,


Dren heart