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Love
Its funny how love works, how it just doesnt go away even though you want more then anything sometimes for it to. You try so hard to hate somebody but when you stop and think about you realize that you dont hate them and that you really love them no matter what they have done to you. It will kill you inside and eat you live and all you can do is live with it. You are reminded of all the promises that you have made and that you everyday try to keep even when love is not in you life any more. And when its gonna you are just sitting there asking your self the famous question, "what did i do to derserve this." and then you startin wondering what it is exactly that your may doing or in some cases who and or why. So i have decided to not love, i have decided to not share myself with somebody and leave myself vulnerable, and when i sit here and try to out weigh the good with the bad it is never enough. So you might ask then what next is there left for me, well i am not sure, but as long as i never have to feel this type of pain ever again i will survive. What gives your love the right to be hable to have a hold of you like this. Or maybe just maybe this is not love maybe this is all just lust, but when you ask yourself that you wonder how could lust last so long. So maybe you just might be wrong maybe it is love. Then so if it really is i find myself asking how long will i wait for this great love to come back and how long will i let myself confuse myself, When it comes done to it this could just be as confusing as a rubix cube for a five year old. So why do we put ourselfs threw this. I WILL NEVER KNOW
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