NOW, the reason for this post. Over the past weeks I've come out more and more with information that many people don't know about me, and this weekend made me realize that everyone should know something about me. Something that only my therapist from the hospital knew along with two new people, Nick and Brittany. When I was first getting analyzed I mentioned that I had two separate mind tracks. One that was always hopeful, "everything is going to be okay." Happy-go-Lucky. While the other was darker. A, No one likes me, they don't need me, why try if I will only fail thought process.
I may have mentioned this once or twice, ANYWAYS. When this was brought up to my therapist she kinda questioned it a bit, and then wrote down another bottle of pills I should be taking. The further we talked the more we got into it. I realized that sometimes the things I said wasn't quite me. When I came to realize this the therapist told me the extra pills I was taking wasn't for me to sleep through the night but for Multiple-Personality Disorder. Now, for the longest time I haven't spoken from the second mind track, but I have consulted it in recent decisions, like last night.
Brittany and I were the only two in the car and she kept looking over at me, and I didn't want to worry her so I just said, "Sorry I've been quiet, I've been working through something." I then decided that she needed to know about this. So for those of you who have been worried about me lying to her, I haven't. Lying is something that I do to get off hooks and work through problems with.
I wanted to come clean to the only people I actually consider family, especially since I even requested that my family not find out about the problems I was facing at the time.
Thanks for reading, Love yah
In A World Of Uncertainty, Gravity Has Never Let Me Down
