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The day that I finally found someone I can hold close to my heart, just fades out of existance. It felt like I hurt him or something, but it feels like something more. Like, he's trying to tell me something, maybe. I don't know, but I don't like this feeling at all. It... It hurts me to see him hurt and... I never want to hurt him, but it's the other way around. He pretty much hurt me by disappearing and never talked to me ever since. Sometimes I wonder if I should just give up on everything and continue on with my life and have no one else interfere or should I say... distract me, ever again. Just let myself fade from the crowd and stay in the darkness, but something is stopping me, like... I'm doing something wrong, maybe. I-I'm not sure, exactly. All I know is that if I give up now, I'm going to end up how Edward used to be, but really, I don't care. Atleast it'll teach me that love is no more than a waste of time to me. I don't believe in that anymore. People says that it's a wonderful thing to experience, but if you get too close to someone, eventually, you will get hurt in the end.