Well, it feels like it has been a very long time since I made a rant.... but I think it has only been a month. Oh well. anyway, I have too many hings on my mind right now to jot them down but basically I am depressed for no reason and no I am not am emo. I just find myself sad when I am up at night and I think about my past. And let me tell you, pasts suck. thats the only way I can describe thm witout swearing violently. My heart is broken and this isn;t helping me convince you that im not emo. idk... I really dk... I have been in a lot of emotional states this past month due to me meeting a new girl here and there. I find myself breaking my own heart actually cuz I do things that spawn hatred and contempt. I say hollow things... But I do come to believe that I mean them later on. I have a complicated way of taking action with girls. I want to make them happy but at the same time I want to mean what I say, Which I do. Its just that I throw phrases out so much that people dont think I mean them as much as they thought. This is a problem because... some people might think me a player from what I say to various girls. And maybe I am, but I dont notice it until it really is too late. I know this makes me sound horrible right now but it is the god honest truth. So take me as you will and judge me by your righteousness. Just don't rag on me or tell me that I should die. cuz that isnt nice
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