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It's currently 1:24 pm on the last day of school for me. I could ahve left hours ago, but Mariku still has his last final so I'm waiting for him. This will be the last time I psot anythign from a school computer for at lest 2 months. I can't wait. Even if I means I wouldn't be able to us teh internet as much, I'll get over it.
So for summer I have one job, the same job I had a Silver Sands Motel last year. Still only on saturday, making $20 an hour for cleaning. Now just to get a job for the week. I'll go crazy if I do nothing all week long. Of course before that I need my truck fixed which really sucks, because there is another motel not far from Silver Sands, called Misty Harbor Reosrt or something that needs help real bad, it's just it's so far from my house there is no way I could ride my bike. I would die. So I've been harassing the hell out of my dad is hopes he'll get it act together. Hopfully we'll go to Misty Harbor tonight and I can get the job, I want it more then anything. If I get it I'll find a way to work!
Besides that I'm currently questing after two kiribans on dA, but I'm not tell whos they are. I want them for myself. twisted Anyways one is 47,654 and the other is 39,393. The first one is close and I'm not sure if I'll get it, but I'm going to try. mariku got one from her and I want one real bad! Maybe if I don't I'll just commison her. LOL. As for the other one, it's still got a ways and maybe since it's so long, no one will remember, well minus a few people....-_-;;;
Also on top of all that I'm hope to get my laptop soon. I'll be getting it from Rent a Center and paying montly payments for about 9 months before it's mine. It's arounf $174 or something a month. Something I could easily pay with just my Silver Sands saliery. Plus I can pay more if i want to get it over quicker. For a month of working at Silver Sands I make more or less around $400, so if I paid more then $174 each other I could get it over faster. I'll have to check on all the prices agian before I do anything. I want it soon, so I can write more. Writing by a hand is too much.
Thats another thing I want to write alot this summer. Maybe finally make something worth publishing. LOL. I kinda got this idea in my head that is i could get published before I get out of High School I'll be good and not have to go to collage. It's completly rediculaus. I mean lately I havn't even felt like writing. I mean, why should I. It's not like I'm doing it for anyone. It doesn't seem like Mariku is to intrested anymore. Not that I can blame him. I kinda suck. I would post stuff on line, but I never have the time to type up my stuff. So when I get my laptop, everything will already be typed and I'll just have to have someone spell and gramer check my stuff and I can post it. Even if it all sucks. But I need to do it for someone else, or I'll never do anything. When I think about it as I'm just writing for myself I don't want to any more, because of how much it sucks, but when I think about that the people I know read it I get nevous. I mean I could never show Ryou my work. He out classes me on everything, and I thought I got over letting people read my work when I'm there, but I think it's only gotten worse. So when I post it on line I don't have to see anyone when they tell if it sucks. And I could just never look at the comment. *sigh* Why do I bother sometimes.......
It's 1:41pm.......Still have another 25 mintues and I've made myself feel like s**t. Great.....I do that alot. I always talk down to myself. I guess writing in this journal is my theropy........Doesn't work that great, but neither does real theorpy. I guess I just need someone to talk to again....but I don't want to bother Mariku with any of it. He always gets up-set when I'm up-set. it makes it really hard. It's not his fault, I know he would rather I talk, but I can hardly stand making him mad at me with out wanting to beat myself up. It's makes things really difficult. *sigh* I miss talkign to T-chan all the time. I swear I need to give her my phone number so I can talk to her. I need to internet bad. Maybe when I get my laptop and start workign more I'll get the internet in my house and pay for it myself. That would solve all my problems......Just go back to being an internet hermit...I miss it anyways......
Only 4 mintues have past.....Gods what am I ranting about!? I mean both of them are going to read this journal. So are f** and Brash maybe a few other like Panda-chan and maybe the toehr from school, but I'm not sure how they are on reading journals.
OH! On another note! I watched this great Saiyuki video to one of Dane Cooks skits. I should put the link here. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vALTTksnc9k I had the hardest time not laughing, since I'm in school. It work so damn well! I love Dane Cook. <3 Comdieans are great. There is also the boys of the Blue Collar Comdey Tour and Lewis Black, Jeff Dunham and soem guy I can't remeber the name of. Talked about frogs and sticks and leaves. Damn I cna't remeber his name! Mariku do you remeber!? I knew I should have wrote it down. *sigh* Well I think I've wasted enough of everyones time.
See ya.
HA!!! I found him!! I found him damn it!! I love you Comdey Central!!!! Anyways his name is Mitch Hedberg. He's really funny. At lest I thought so. You should go look him up. Look for anything about a frog or escalators. They are really funny. Plus he has awsome sunglasses.
Okay it's now 1:56 pm and I think I'm done with this journal entry, of course I might find more to say later.
Baku -- Bunny · Tue Jun 17, 2008 @ 06:52pm · 4 Comments |
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