Sometime I wish that there were someone out there for me, but I know that wishing and
dreaming don’t always come true
Why am I worried and why do I feel sick in the stomach???
I hope he is thinking of me right now.
I know I’m different but that what makes me strange and unwanted…
Why am I different what make a person like me any different that other people?
Was it the way I was raised??
Was it they way I was almost killed multiple times???
He’s going to find his true love tonight I just know it.
I’m so tired of being alone. I just don’t want to feel dead inside no more.
I don’t want to cry at night just because I know tomorrow is going to be the same as today lonely.
I feel sicker now just thinking about what I want to do, but I can’t I just can’t let myself do what I feel I should do.
Or should I????
I don’t think I could I would be letting down the people I told ‘if I can make it so can you’
But I feel so dead and so sick…
I’m tired of feelings and tears and hurting all the time…
I shouldn’t be in love it is dangerous I will get hurt I just know it
Or am I????
The thought of my actually thinking of him and love makes me feel…
Better but why better???
Why the though of a person that I barely know should make me feel any better???
Why won’t the questions go away or those stupid thoughts of hope and love…
There not real they’re just something that lead to pain and anguish and won’t stop until you’re dead.
Chamirra Community Member 
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