is there something wrong with me?
hmm, I wonder if I am sick... that is mentaly sick not physically, I wonder this because I never let myself get close to those I call friends... they really do not even know who I am because I do not want to let myself open up... I do not even keep the same friends for very long once I even do get slightly close to them... it is like my subconcious purposely makes me do something to sabotage the friendship... it seems like every 5-6 months or so I am hanging out with someone new, or it is in the same group of friends just a different person than I normaly do... maybe not letting myself get attached is a good thing since I plan on leaving and not looking back... I am not even sure if most of them really even like me that much...
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