well, here we go with my first journal entry. please forgive me ahead of time for those who are readin this...i tend to have really bad typing skills so...bear with me!
now im super excited about this journal but im really sry bout the ...well...somber angry mood of this first entry...i just really need to get some stuff off my cheast.
burning_eyes this is kinda what i feel like right now...life is ..well...hard for me right now...why does this crap have to happen. why does a...excuess my language...a*****e...run my life! this whole thing is so stupid...one side is suing the other for ONE YEAR OF MONEY! now if i was mabye 9 and he was suing for the years until im eighteen...well thats fine...but IM FIRKEN 17!! one year bub...is it really worth it to loose your daughter over this! im really contumplating on where i should live with her or not rack the boat anymore!and then i get the stupid letter from him and hes being kinda nice in it...but when she reads it,...she finds something hidden in ther that i didnt see...him saying that he DOESNT HAVE THE LOVE FOR ME THAT HE SHOULD! so now u dont love me anymore? nIM YOUR DAUGHTER! and why is it that everytime i talk to you...i annoy or piss you off? u always say to say something and to talk to you...buts its kinda hard when i know thta when i say soething...your going to eiher shoot down my opinion or yelll at me some more about why i am annoying. and then when i try to get aanother opinion on the situtaion, it makes the situation even worse by going off and talking to him and now i am afraid to go back home to him this weekend in fear that he will be angry even more with me! and she is being so helpful right now! i just dont want to ever leave her house! i knwo it may cause some troulble with rides and money and such...but i really dont want to leave! mabye i should just suck it up and keep things how they are ...i mean its only one year right? but the thing is...i feel like they dont care about me! this is why. both sides talked to me about the situation. when he talked to me ...did he say about me being happy or that they were doing this for me or that hey only want wats best for me? no! all they talked about was money this money that MONEY MONEY MONEY! all they care about in this was getting moeny from her and basicly taking me away from her! now when she talked to me about this..she said nothing whatsoever about the money..all she said is she wants wats gonna be best for me and that they dont know how hard she is gonna fight for me! so after all of this pllus so much more that i havent even touched one in this being dumoped on me in a matter of ///oh...4 days///im exhausted! i just wish all of this crap would be oevr and down with...and right now...my decision is to live with her...it seems like he only cause more dram and causes me to crying more and more...i just dont want to tell him that
for everyone who has read this...im sorry if it is a little vauge, but it was something i needed to get off my cheast without going into any particulars...but u most likely figred it out so ...oh well!
i will continuously write in this...about my troubles and happy times..and just life in general...i hope i didnt ore you to much with my rant!
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 zoo_dork_31 · Sun Jan 25, 2009 @ 12:51am · 1 Comments |
