It's a new year. It's barely started and already its full of it's own character. There is still a floating impending drama mostly revolving around relationships and unanswered emotions. I'm going to help myself. On the way perhaps I'll pick up another person to help me with that but at the moment it's not something that is the best for me.
I'm going to step back and try to be fair to my true feelings. Even if I have to feel alone and desperately lonely, it's an easier feeling than that of one full of heartbreak. Not even just my own pain for the heart but others. I'm tired of hurting other people while trying to find myself, because I can't find myself in them. I can only find myself within myself.
I want to just remember who I was and where I was going before all of this. What I was doing before that let me be stronger. When did I begin to fall apart so much that I couldn't even defend myself from hurt? This self hatred of myself all stems from becoming so weak. I'll do my best to make myself stronger then I can... Then I can just... Begin to accept what and who I am.
I guess that's about all I have to say for now... I think I'll be writing a bit more than once a year but still not that often. I hope to be able to sort things out soon.
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