la, been a better day. im just really tired bacause i am sick and i cant miss anymore school because i have already missed more than i really shoul;d have. still pretty depressed but i guess thats how things are just gonna go for a bit, but thats ok because i know that it will have to get better soon. nothing can stay bad forever, eventually something good will happen to make me feel better and when it does i cant wait. my boyfriend is going to come down to see me this weekend and i am really happy beacause i havent gotten to see him in almost three weeks. it really kind of sux but its ok because i knew what i wa getting into when i got into this long distance relationship. doesnt mean that its still not hard but meh i am dealing with it by talking to him veryday and seeing him whenever he gets the chance to come and see me. makes me really happy to think that he would drive four hours jsut to see me for a weekend. i know that most people wouldnt do that even if they loved someone, but he loves me alot so i guess thats good. heart biggrin 4laugh rofl lol anyways i am kinda homesick again. i guess that i just miss my friends a bit, but thats ok because i can always talk to them on the phone. meh that really isnt the same as being able to see them all the time like you're used to. hopefully i can go and see my friends amanda and sam this christmas but i dont know if i'll be able to make it all the way up to illinois this time. i am jsut so busy all the time. it really sux i really want to see her i miss her so much. i feel amanda deprived! geez i really need to call her i havent talked to her in a while and maybe that will make me feel the slightest bit better. hopefully she'll be happy to see me. but anymore i just dont know. meh oh well school is gay as usual and i am finally at least close to passing all of my classes which is good because i really dont want to let my dad and everyone else down and have them think that all i am is just some dumb blonde who cant do anything. but meh all is pretty well i think. i am getting along with my mom pretty good and my grandparents are doing good so yeah i can be happy for that. anyways gtg
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