What do you do when you just don't care? When all you want to do is sleep and hope that when you wake up, something will be different? But if it's not whatever. How do you make yourself continue doing papers and playing games like it matters? I don't know and I am having trouble acting like I do. I feel as thought I am drowning in my minds yet not because I can't swim but because I don't care if I survive.
I don't think my friends see it either. I reach out for people I know won't help me or don't care about me. But that is only because I know they will turn me away so I don't have to worry about it. It hurts but I can deal with that. I just wish people could see and I didn't have to tell them. Vocalizing it makes me seem pathetic as though I am unale to fight my own internal demons. Maybe I can't. Who knows.
Aranel-Raina Community Member 
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