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Today is march 25, my b-day... i was totally looking forward to turning 17, but now i feel lik a pile of crap... almost all of my plans were cancelled(except for 1)... yesterday i skipped school because my sister took me to get my hair done, but as soon as we left the salon, the wind destroyed it... last night i had to remind most of my friends about my birthday, but most of them forgot anyway... when i woke up this morning it was raining, and when i got to school i still had to remind people, even though i was wearing a sign saying "Happy Birthday!"... a friend of mine brought me some brownies after i told her that chocolate makes me sick... My 1st hour class had donuts yesterday, and my teacher(who has been telling me happy early birthday since last week) didn't save me any... i only got $15, only $2 were accually from my so called friends... and my next door neighbor decided to give me 18 bday punches, it almost turned into a fist fight...

Now don't get the wrong idea, i'm not a spoiled little brat who got upset because 1 thing didn't go her way... My mom forced me to have crawfish boils with her all of my life until i was 10, because it was cheaper to have 1 party since her birthday is the day after mine... but i never complained, i always smiled and pretended to not mind so as not to ruin everyone elses time... even when the wind & rain destroyed my new hair do, there was nothing i could've done(its not like i could make my sister get it redone)... or when that girl gave me those brownies, i ate as many as i could, then shared them with friends & my 1st hour... and I didn't even get mad when no one could remember, and i apologized for arguing with my neighbor...

Someone once told me "its karma from bein so mean when you were a kid", but all of my birthdays have been like this since i was 12(though i did get a cell phone, a lap top, and maybe on or two other things this year)... and i've become a much nicer person... *sigh* maybe i'm just a little too nice... ... ...today was supposed to be special, i was to supposed to feel good for once... all I wanted to do was be with my friends, and be loved and showered with attention for once... but instead my head head & tummy hurt, i feel like i'm gonna puke, i'm sore all over, and my face is covered in tears... So I have a right to complain dammit... ... ... ... ... i really only wanted love, thats all cry