When I've got a lot to say I've got no one to listen.
When I haven't got a word, no one believes me.
When I have something on my mind, no one will stop talking.
I can't scream loud enough to be heard, but my voice is never soft enough for anyone.
I do so much for attention, but I'm only noticed when I'd rather hide.
I'm so sad and lost that people see me as the happiest person who has it all together.
I'd kill for a moment alone, but I feel so hidden away that I'm not sure where I am.
No one sees the things that make me, no one knows just what will break me.
I can't write until I'm sad enough to die.
I'm trying my hardest to get away but I swear to god i'm drowning in my own tears in this house that holds me. I can't run and I can't hide I've got no where to go that I can just be myself and never nobody else its killin me killin me and I've got no voice to make it stop. I've got no voice to make it stop no. I'm screaming so loudly inside that i'm shattering but I can't breath enough to let it out and I'm falling apart. I can't tell anyone cuz i''ve gota be perfect and i don't know why. I swear to you that pretty i won't be holding on. I'll drown in these tears that I simply can't stop from forming can't stop from flowing. No body around me to help me out I have to hold myself together. it's the voice that they say it. it's tearing me to pieces. I've got so little energy. I'm not so sure that I can make it. I know i have to . I know i'm going to try. but its the pain that I can't even express in the words, that make me wish to die. I'm a child, but I'm so grown up that everything I know, is so in perspective, that adults don't understand. I'm wishing for peace, the eye of the storm. Just so i can catch my breath. Just so I can stand for one moment. Just so I can try to mend my stupid broken heart.
 Beautiful13Angel · Mon May 18, 2009 @ 04:12am · 0 Comments |
