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My friend Daniel were back together as friends. But were not the same. Ya i tell her every thing. I share every thing. But im still alone. I never told any one but i kinda had a thing with a guy at school. He in a way was my boyfriend. But its over now he is with some girl at a different school. He didn't even dump me. Just tells me Oh ya me and my girl friend did blaw balw balw balw. Oh and she's great in bed. YA me and her had sex all day and night it was great.
I told my friend latter on Daniel. She says she didn't notice. But what was there to notice? I didn't act like we were ever. But some times at my house we would get a little cuddlie. But whatever. He's supose to be a friend. So when i try to treat him like nothing happened. I think that's ok. but im lost. I know he went to my ex and said some thing about me. HE refuses to Say what it was to me. he runs off. what's the deal with that? i guess i should drop it. But is so embarrousing my ex teasing me that he ran off and that i didn't see it comming. And He not having the guts to talk to me.

What am i to do any more. I am burning in pain. i feel like every where i turn im being used. what's the point in even trying to stand up for my self? when ill just be doing what they want any ways. I might as well run away from home.
There's No one to help me sort any of this out.
Andrew my friend on here Doesn't lisson to me about this and he's not the type to lean on. He's the type where he tells me all his problems and im the type that comforts other's. So i have to comfort my self. which really sucks. as for any one else on gaia well they don't know me as well as Andrew does.