I look out a window seeing happy smilling people. I laugh, I know I'll never be one of them. I dont laugh to be happy, I laugh to trick others into thinking that I am, This world is full of light but I am trapped within its shadows.
Capture was inevitable and freedom isnt an option. A somber smile, a hug...then that long stretch of road I always walk alone.
I go out side and visit the happy smilling people. They laugh, joke and bring up happy times from the past. I smirk, a look of jelousy, I know I'll never be one of them.
Surrounded by people but alone all the same, past hurts cling to me and harass me with every breath I take.
I go home and look into the dark empty room thats not my own, and know that things will never be the same.
A picture on my wall the faint smell of your perfume, the echo of laughter. Let happy people smile, I'll lay here holding your teddy bear wrapped in shadows and cry silent tears that are my new world and for get the happy people who live within denial.
kyrian_thrace · Sun Dec 25, 2005 @ 12:31am · 0 Comments |