:XP My ear... you know that feeling you get in your ears when you've gone through an elevation change? I've had that feeling in my right ear since yesterday... and I have no idea why.
I don't know why... but I've felt very spacey lately, more than usual I mean. It's gotten to the point where I kinda feel sad.. a lot. I don't know why, nothing horrible is happening, I'm not in fights with anyone... my grades aren't very good right now, in fact, they're downright horrible. I'll be lucky to get into college at this point. ... But I don't think that's the reason. I'm not sure.. anyone actually reading this have insight for me?
At least my friend Nikori is coming over, she's always great fun. ^.^ Tonight I'll probably be cleaning my room... reading the Handmaid's Tale (for AP English) and drawing... I have a few ideas for a picture...
Oh great... now I've started thinking about college again... and the rest of my life, I hate it when I get into these... reflective moods, they usually make me sadder... What should major in when (if) I get to college? More important question... what am I going to do with my life? What do I even want to do? I've been thinking... maybe something to do with computer art... but the problem is with that... I don't think I'm good enough, or will be good enough when the time comes... Nobody would want to hire me. Maybe just something to do with computers...
That reminds me, I also have to go practice my oboe tonight, for the County Honor Band I'll be trying for in Feb. Doubt I'll make it anyway, I'm really not that good the oboe.. I kinda despise it actually. I wish I could just stay on flute for concert season... I like the flute much better, better at it too.. But no, I'm the OBOE player, not allowed to play anything else, at least... according to my band teacher, and god knows... he's GOD. Well... band god. Everyone must play the instrument HE wants you to play, or you can't be in band. I wanted to play basoon...
Well.. if anyone actually reads this... sorry with boring you... I should get going now... Hope y'all are less confused then I am.... Byebye
~H.K.
Hotaru Kudo Community Member 
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