so yea today _ucking sucked soooo bad. i just wanted to understand some things & talk about some things with saur (my girl) but everything came out so wrong. we almost broke up i think. she told me her heart _ell to the pit o_ her stomach. she thought it was over & i went all day not knowing how she was _eeling. then it was almost too late to save our relationship but somehow we're still here standing stronger. it's like we _ight over the stupidest shyt mostly bc o_ misunderstandings but we talk about it. honesty is what we have built around our relationship. it's what brought us together & what keeps us together. today it was di__erent bc she told me a small teeny tiny lie but it took so much inside o_ me to not leave her. i didn't even ask her why she was so happy earlier & when i _ound out that what she told me was a lie i lost it. i told her i didn't want to talk to her right now in that very moment. i had absolutely nothing to say. i was a_raid that i_ i talked to her about it then we wouldn't be together right now. i caused her pain & yes even broke her heart & the worst part about it is i didn't even know. i had my _irst doubt today so that hurt deep inside. almost like cheating & _eeling the way i did when i lost that person. but it was still just as di__erent mostly bc we _eel the exact same way _or each other. really it's so great to _inally _ind someone who loves me just as much as i love them. in the exact same kind o_ way she's so amazing. she's my saur & im her rawr & together we're _eeling _orever taking us under hehe. i love her so much. im so happy.