Well I worked last night with Ric! I had a bad night, bounding headache and constent coughing fits. crying I was miserable all night long. I just wanted to come home. And now I have to stay up to go to the doctors. And Im so tired. Well Tonight I finally get to go see christa. I miss her alot. Im staying tonight and tomorrow night with her! Im so happy. I havent even got to talk to her much lately. Because she hasnt been really calling me like she usually does. I dont know what is going on with that. But hopefully nothing bad. I have been thinking of her more lately. Which Im usually thinking of Nikki and not her, but lately it has been different.
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Anyways, the other day me, jenny, jessy, and kathrin went shopping. I had alot of fun. It was really nice to actually spend time with Jen. I have missed that ALOT. We really dont spend time together. And it sucks, she is my best friend. And I wish things could go back to how they were before. But I know with the baby coming it wont. sad crying Maybe when the baby comes we can do things differently. I still have feelings for her too. And it is really weird I figured they would go away, and they havent! I dont know what to do about them either. And it is freaking me out. Because they arent the type of feelings that I have for Christa or Nichole. BUt they are stronger. I know that I will never be with her. NOT IN A MILLION YEARS! but I would some day love to be. She is so sweet, and loveable. And GOD IM SCARING MY SELF!!!! Damnit. Why me!!!!
 volcom_chic · Thu Jan 19, 2006 @ 01:51pm · 0 Comments |
