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Life Stroy
Today was a boring day to me. Although it is a Monday after all. All I did is go to the mall and eat Chinese food, which was every good by the way. I ran into a couple of people but really nobody important. I know that sounded kind of mean, but it's the truth. This isn't how I really pictured my fall break but I know things are about to pick up real soon. I have to schedule my senior pictures, get my drivers permit, and attend other events while doing others thing that pertain to my hectic personal life. In speaking of which, I decided I'm step my distance from a certain "friend" of mine. Why? Because I'm not sure I can trust him. It's like this every time I have a rush on someone he ends up getting them first and this has happened on serval occasions. So if I can’t trust you with my man what makes you think I’ll trust you with my heart? Besides he has been acting real ugly lately. For explain, he basically blazed my sexually business to the entire bus, strangers, friends, and all. While the guy I was crushing on sitting right next to him. Now he and the guy are hanging out together. So right now I’m going to put him on the back burners. As if I didn’t already have enough on my plate, I have to prepare for my furte and I got a whole bunch of s**t to do. I personally really want to go to Clark Atlanta but my ma wants me to go to Vanderbilt because it would cost less, but what she doesn’t understand is that I DO NOT wants to stay in Nashville. I want to get far away as possible. I don’t need her in the same state as I in because I'm going to change into a completely different person than what I show her. She thinks the me noe is bad, but she anit seen nothing yet. So yea I feel the pressure to please her and everybody else who says that Clark may not be the school for me. My ma was like you can go to Clark when you do you Graduate school but who says I’m going to graduate school and on top of that I would have to pay to go there. She basically trying not to spend her precious money and she call me selfish. Man double standards much. Makes me want to move further and further away from her. In other news I'm really trying to lose some weight and step my swag up. I really want to be looking my best when I hit up Florida for my senior trip, and hopefully I can pull be a boyfriend or a little boo thang. In speaking of which a blast from the past has been slowly creeping up in my life. It’s Tim. Tim is my ex boyfriend and we broke up because he got locked up and he got sentenced two years. He is older so I just couldn’t deal with him and his drama but I made him promise not to turn my back on him and I think I have. I didn’t mean to though I just got caught up in my own life and on top of that I was scared but now I feel like s**t because reminders of him keep popping in my mind, so I might just find away to contact him to let him know I still care, but I'm afraid what his reaction might be. I really do care for him and I hope everything is ok. Look like I have a lot of major descion making ahead of me, but no matter what happens I'm going to enjoy the ride!
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