December 17th, 1991 - October 28th, 2010
Ren...Do you know how much you meant to us? Do you know that even now, I still love you? It doesn't feel like you're truly gone; I continue to go on your profile every day, praying that you'll sign on. That everything was just a lie, and you were still living strong. That you'll come on again, smile at me, and tell me how crazy I am, just like you used to. Me and you...we went through so much in one year. That's all I knew you Ren, One entire year. And it wasn't enough. I wish I would've met you long before that, so I had more time to be with you. Because now that you're gone...It doesn't feel like we had enough time together.
I remember the very first day you told me you loved me, I still have that message. Every time I read it, it makes me cry. Because I know your feelings were real, and now I'll never hear that again. I remember how happy you made me those days that I was down. And I remember that when you were upset, I would talk to you for hours until you finally smiled again. You worried me to the bone, but I never left your side. I've always cared for you, no matter what you did. Because I knew you were someone who could change, I believed in you. And you showed true change when you finally came back on and apologized to everyone you hurt. That was just a few weeks ago Ren, You were finally starting over. You were making a change, one for the better, and everything was going to be okay. So why did you do it? Why did you do something like this, hurting so many people?
Well, it doesn't matter now. Because I know that you had a reason that must've been enough, and you did it. There's no changing it because you're already gone. But I can truly say that everyone will miss you. You may have thought that no one would miss you, and that everything would be better with you out of their lives; You thought wrong. Because as I type this, I'm crying. My heart aches because you were someone so close to me, and now you're gone. I've never lost someone that meant this much to me. Never in my entire life. And it hurts so bad now that you're gone. But I'll always remember the good times. The times when the only person that could make me smile was you, and the times that we had so much fun together. All the memories will always be there, I can honestly say I will never forget you. I pray that your soul will be reborn, and you will get another chance at life. Actually, I know it will. Because you were a good person, Ren. You were one of the best. I only wish you could read this now, but you can't. I'll miss you forever, and I hope that where ever you are now, you are finally at peace.
I remember the very first day you told me you loved me, I still have that message. Every time I read it, it makes me cry. Because I know your feelings were real, and now I'll never hear that again. I remember how happy you made me those days that I was down. And I remember that when you were upset, I would talk to you for hours until you finally smiled again. You worried me to the bone, but I never left your side. I've always cared for you, no matter what you did. Because I knew you were someone who could change, I believed in you. And you showed true change when you finally came back on and apologized to everyone you hurt. That was just a few weeks ago Ren, You were finally starting over. You were making a change, one for the better, and everything was going to be okay. So why did you do it? Why did you do something like this, hurting so many people?
Well, it doesn't matter now. Because I know that you had a reason that must've been enough, and you did it. There's no changing it because you're already gone. But I can truly say that everyone will miss you. You may have thought that no one would miss you, and that everything would be better with you out of their lives; You thought wrong. Because as I type this, I'm crying. My heart aches because you were someone so close to me, and now you're gone. I've never lost someone that meant this much to me. Never in my entire life. And it hurts so bad now that you're gone. But I'll always remember the good times. The times when the only person that could make me smile was you, and the times that we had so much fun together. All the memories will always be there, I can honestly say I will never forget you. I pray that your soul will be reborn, and you will get another chance at life. Actually, I know it will. Because you were a good person, Ren. You were one of the best. I only wish you could read this now, but you can't. I'll miss you forever, and I hope that where ever you are now, you are finally at peace.
